Matt Tuckson – Faith & Anxiety – Class 3 – Exhortation

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All right.
So yesterday was a really good

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day.
I really had a really good time

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being able to have good
discussions with you all.

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Thank you.
I had a really good time

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chatting with you all about
different aspects of anxiety,

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which sounds odd, but I did.
We started off by establishing

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in our first class yesterday,
what Christ was getting at in

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Matthew Chapter six, one of the
relationship between faith and

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anxiety, and how the connector
between the two is values.

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Essentially, anxiety, like many
other temptations, changes our

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values in the moment.
It tells us what should be

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important, and often times that
importance doesn’t match God’s

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values, God’s levels of
importance.

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And with that we then thought
about, well, what are the

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implications on guilt and
implications on kind of the

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moral framework of how we
understand anxiety.

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We saw that anxiety in and of
itself shouldn’t make us feel

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guilty, but it is a temptation,
and like other temptations, we

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have a responsibility to work
through that temptation, just

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like anger or lust.
In our second class, we got into

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the actual process of How do I
Work Through it?

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And we saw the four steps of how
to work through anxiety.

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Starting off with talk to God
about what you’re currently

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feeling, figure out what that
internalized belief is.

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Figure out what it is that
you’re putting at the top of

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your values in those moments of
anxiety, and then talk to God

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about it and be honest with him.
Step two was Recognize what God

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might feel in this situation.
How does he view this?

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What do we know about God and
his truth, and how does it

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relate to our current situation?
Step three was to think about

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our past relationship with God
and to draw on that and use that

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history in our current situation
to say, well, what?

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What might God think here?
What has he done for me in the

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past, and does that change how I
might view this current

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situation?
And lastly, it was the hard

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step.
Act in accordance with the God’s

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truth, God’s values.
Even if we don’t feel like it at

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the moment.
Even if our values aren’t quite

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there, even if we don’t believe
the things that we know are

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true.
Even if we don’t have that

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internalized emotional belief
yet, when we choose to act that

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way, and eventually the
internalized belief will change,

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it does eventually get there.
And then our discussion groups,

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we had some really fun
conversations, some hard hitting

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questions as well as some good
conversations to try to really

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and still all this theory that
we dealt with in the first two

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classes and bring it into
practice, actual steps.

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And what does that look like for
you as an individual sharing in

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our stories and our life
experiences to try to help each

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other out.
There was some really awesome

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discussion rooms.
I’m really glad we had those.

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And for this morning what we’re
going to do is we’re we’re going

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to look at our Lord Jesus
because believe it or not, he

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struggled with anxiety too.
It’s not just a David thing.

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It’s not just nothing.
It’s even our Lord, Lord Jesus.

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We’re going to look primarily in
two different places.

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We’re going to start off in the
Garden of Gethsemane, and we’re

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going to see how Jesus dealt
with anxiety there, and the

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exact same way that David dealt
with it in the Psalms, and in

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the exact same way that we’re
thinking of how we need to deal

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with it now and he doesn’t get
on the cross.

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And the really beautiful thing
that we’re going to see you in

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these two different stories,
these two different events where

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Christ deals with anxiety, is it
gets easier.

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It got easier for Jesus, and
we’re going to see how it gets

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can get easier for us as well.
So we’re going to go ahead and

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get started in Matthew 26 and
we’re going to bring ourselves

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to the Garden of Gethsemane and
we’re going to try to put

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ourselves in Jesus’s shoes,
think what he’s feeling, what

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he’s going through, think what
we might go through in a similar

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scenario.
Again, that’s Matthew 26, and

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we’re going to read verses 36 to
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And again, I want us to try to
really get into Jesus’s shoes.

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I want us to think about his
emotional state, but what he

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might be feeling in this moment.
Matthew 26, starting at verse

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36.
And Jesus went with them to the

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place called Gethsemane.
And he said to his disciples,

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sit here while I go over there
and pray and take him with him,

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Peter and the two sons of
Zebedee.

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He began to be sorrowful and
troubled.

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He said to them, My soul is very
sorrowful even to death.

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Remain here and watch with me.
And going a little farther, he

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fell on his face and prayed,
saying, My Father, if it be

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possible, let this cut pass from
me nevertheless, not as I will,

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but as you will.
And he came to the disciples,

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and found them sleeping.
He said to Peter, So you could

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not watch with me.
One hour watch and pray that you

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may not enter into temptation,
and spirit is indeed willing,

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but the flesh is weak.
And again for a second time he

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went, and he prayed.
My Father, if this cannot pass

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unless I drink it, your will be
done.

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And again he came, and he found
them sleeping, for their eyes

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were very heavy.
And so leaving them again he

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went, And he prayed a third
time, saying the words again.

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And he came to disciples and
said to them, sleep, and take

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your rest later on, till the
hour is at hand.

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The Son of Man is betrayed into
the hands of sinners.

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Rise, let’s be going.
See my betrayer of that hand,

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anxious.
It was a very fitting word for

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Jesus.
This feeling here says Jesus was

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sorrowful, even to the point of
death.

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In the the Luke account, it says
that he was dropping, dropping

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beads of sweat, or try dropping
beads of blood, like sweat.

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That’s how anxious he was
getting, was that he was

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sweating.
This was his physical reaction.

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If you remember in yesterday, I
talked about how I had physical

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reactions to anxiety.
I get cold, I get anxious, I get

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a pit in my stomach.
I get a bit nauseous.

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I don’t want to eat.
I lose my appetite.

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Jesus is going to start sweating
blood.

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Essentially, it’s the physical
reactions of anxiety are crazy

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sometimes.
They don’t always make sense,

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and it’s not shocking that Jesus
is feeling this levels of

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anxiety.
See what Jesus The situation

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Jesus is in is that he doesn’t
want to die.

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That makes sense.
That’s not shocking.

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That’s not how could you, Jesus.
It makes a lot of sense.

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We have a literal thing inside
of us telling us we want to

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live, we don’t want to die.
Our human nature is built, not

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even just our human nature, but
like our our our framework is

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built to say survival is
important.

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But The thing is, that’s the
internalized belief that Jesus

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has to challenge here, because
in this moment, his death is a

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good thing.
Doesn’t feel that way.

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It’s hard to make that feel that
way.

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But that’s the internalized
belief that Jesus has to

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challenge.
It is, from God’s point of view,

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the good thing, the great thing
for Jesus to be sacrificed.

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And we see a battle of wills or
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Understandably so.
Jesus living is pretty high on

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his value system, just like me
surviving me living is going to

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be pretty high on mine.
That makes sense.

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But in this moment, from God’s
value system, from God’s

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priorities, Jesus dying was the
higher priority.

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Not because God wanted Jesus to
die, but because he wanted the

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eternal plan to happen.
And that eternal plan mattered

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more than even Jesus’s temporary
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And I know saying this might
sound wrong in a lot of ways,

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and saying Jesus didn’t want
what God wanted.

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That’s exactly what Jesus says
when he says God let this cup

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pass for me.
Nevertheless, not my will but

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yours be done.
Their wills in that moment

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weren’t the same.
What Jesus wanted in that moment

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was it Internalized beliefs in
that moment was not the same as

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gods.
He did not internally feel the

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same way God felt about the
situation and that causes him

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extreme anxiety.
This wasn’t normal for Jesus.

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Jesus throughout his life was
pretty in tune with his father.

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So much like he could say me and
my father are one.

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We are of the same mind.
But in this moment he wasn’t

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quite one yet.
He had to shift to become one in

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his natural state.
He didn’t feel the same things

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God felt.
This was the battle that Christ

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was dealing with in a state of
anxiety.

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And this is where anxiety is
complex, because it’s not even

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like Jesus’s will was evil or
morally like horrible or

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anything like that.
Jesus wanted to live, and the

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temptations Jesus has had were
to, like, set up a Kingdom now

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so we could help people.
Now it wasn’t.

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He wanted to be some big bad
guy.

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That’s what that’s what was
causing him to to want to live

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right now.
He wanted to live to help

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people, but that’s not what God
wanted for him.

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And This is why anxiety is
complex opposed to anger and

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lust.
Typically speaking, anger is

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saying this bad thing.
It’s actually good.

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And lust is saying this bad
thing is actually good.

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And that’s the lie that these
typical temptations sell to you.

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Anxiety doesn’t really sell
that.

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Sometimes it does.
But really what it’s selling is

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this good thing is now the most
important thing, and it’s really

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complex to spark to parse that
out.

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It was a good thing.
It is a good thing for Jesus to

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help people.
Setting up the Kingdom then was

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a objectively good thing for
people would have helped people,

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but it wasn’t the thing that God
wanted.

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It wasn’t the best thing.
It wasn’t the most important

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thing.
And that’s the complexity around

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anxiety, and that’s the struggle
that Jesus was having.

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His way of dealing with things
was set up the Kingdom now, and

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God’s way of dealing with things
was no, we need to set up the

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Kingdom in the future.
You have to die now that this

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was the battle that Christ was
going through.

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And we see those four steps that
we talked about yesterday played

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out in the small conversation.
Step one, he expresses his

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current position to his father.
Father, I’d like this cup

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removed.
Let it pass from me, He asks and

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says this is where I am.
And he knows that’s not where

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God is.
He understands this isn’t the

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right answer.
This isn’t what God wants, but

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this is what I want right now.
I’m going to talk to my father

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about that.
Step two and three.

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When he approaches God, he calls
him Father.

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The relationship is set up from
the beginning of the

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conversation.
On top of this, Jesus

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understands God’s will.
That’s why he can say not my

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will but thine be done.
He understands how God feels

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about the situation in the
conversation.

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He knows what God is going to
say before he asks the question.

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He knows the cop is not going to
be passed.

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That’s not the point of the ask.
The point of the ask of God, let

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this or Father, let this cut
pass from me, is not because

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he’s hoping for a yes.
It’s an expression of where I’m

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at.
It’s an expression of this is

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what I’m feeling right now.
Because he knows God’s will.

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That’s why he can say not my
will, but thine be done.

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And Step 4, the hard step, He
goes with his father’s will,

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even though he doesn’t feel like
it in the moment.

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In a short conversation, you
don’t go from I’m not OK with

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dying to Yep, I’m on.
I’m on board with it.

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Let’s go.
He didn’t shift his feelings in

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an instant.
That’s not possible.

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What he did was he committed to
doing that, what he knew was

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true, even though his feelings
weren’t quite there yet.

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Jesus didn’t want to die, but he
understood that he had to.

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He understood it was his
father’s will and he committed

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to his father’s will, even
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quite there yet.
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That’s the the picking up of the
credit card and swiping it a

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different direction.
That’s the changing, the

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electric current that we were
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It’s choosing to act with what
we know is true, even if we

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don’t feel like it yet.
And moving forward, you can see

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a shift in how Christ acts.
Listen to how calm and collected

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and focused Christ is as he
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At the end, in verses 45 and 46
of Matthew 26, he comes to them

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and says sleep and take your
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Later on, see, our hour is at
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betrayed into the hands of
sinners.

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Rise and let us get going.
See, my betrayer is at hand.

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He’s looking forward.
He understands this is the

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direction I need to go.
Let’s get going to it.

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Let’s get through this.
He’s going towards the thing

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that he knows he doesn’t want to
do.

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Compare it to how he approached
his disciples earlier and verses

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40 and 41.
He comes to them sleeping and he

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says so.
Could you not watch with me one

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hour watch and pray that you may
not entered impatient for the

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Spirit is indeed willing, but
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And these moments Jesus is
agitated.

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He’s frustrated and it makes
sense because his friends that

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he cares deeply about, they’re
sleeping in one of his greatest

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trials.
But the difference is important.

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One point he’s anxious and
agitated.

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The next point he’s saying I’m
going forward with the thing I

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don’t want to do, but it’s the
direction I’m going.

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He’s committed and he’s ready to
walk to that cross.

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This isn’t the 1st or the last
time though, that Jesus deals

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with anxiety.
It happens again on the cross.

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And that happens in Matthew 27
at just the next chapter, verses

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25, sorry, verses 4550.
And we’re going to see Jesus

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goes through the same process
where he starts off not feeling

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what he knows to be true and he
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where he acts based on what he
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Starting in verse 45, reading
through verse 50 of Matthew 27

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and now from the 6th hour there
was darkness all over the land

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into the ninth hour and about
the 9th hour Jesus cried out

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with a loud voice saying Eli
Eli, lama Sabaktani, that is my

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God, my God, why have you
forsaken me?

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And some of the bystanders
hearing it, said, this man is

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calling for Elijah.
And one of them, one of them at

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once ran into the sponge and
filled it with sour wand and put

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it on a Reed and gave it to him
to drink.

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The other said, wait, let us see
whether Elijah will come and

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save him.
And Jesus cried out again with a

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loud voice and yielded up his
spirit.

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Jesus says on the cross, My God,
my God, why hast thou forsaken

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me?
And I’ve heard a lot of

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different views or reasons why
Jesus might be saying this, but

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I think the most plain and
simple understanding is that

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Jesus is expressing how he’s
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See, yes, Jesus is quoting Psalm
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And yes, an aspect of this is to
teach the Jews this is the way

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you should be thinking.
This is the situation that’s

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going on.
Come read Psalm 22 and

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understand this is what you’re
doing right now.

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But nobody quotes the Old
Testament without feeling the

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thing they’re quoting, without
actually meaning the thing

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they’re quoting.
They don’t quote it just for the

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sake of quoting it.
They quote it because they mean

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the context going on around the
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This is something that in
general, when someone in the New

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Testament quotes the Old
Testament, they’re not just

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quoting the one liner, They’re
quoting the whole section.

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They’re quoting the whole
passage around at the Old

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Testament verse that they’re
quoting, and the whole context

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needs to be brought into what’s
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That’s why we read Psalm 22,
because Jesus isn’t quoting

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verse one of Psalm 22, he’s
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He’s quoting the whole thing,
just he only has the one line

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and what he actually sets.
And So what I want to do is I

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want to read through Psalm 22,
get in Christ’s head on the

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cross, and we’re going to see
the same process happen in this

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chapter, the same four step
process.

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And in this one I’m going to
read through verse by verse and

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I will talk about the different
steps as we approach them.

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Again, just like last time, it’s
going to be a bit all over and

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we’ll hop around between the
different steps as we go.

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But I think the emotional flow
of this song is really

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beautiful.
So Psalm 22 starting in verse 10

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and real quick the key thing
listen for the words like yet or

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but or however those are
keywords where you can go.

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Gotcha.
He’s he’s going from step one to

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Step 2.
He’s going from Step 2 to Step

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4.
Those keywords of yet and but

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however those kinds of words all
right starting in verse one.

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My God, my God, why have you
forsaken me?

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Why are you so far from saving
me from the words of my

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groaning?
Oh my God, I cry day by day, but

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you do not answer by nights.
But I find no rest.

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This is step one.
This is him saying this is where

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I’m at.
God, this is what I’m feeling.

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This is what’s going on in my
head right now.

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It’s not logical.
It’s not what he knows to be

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true.
It’s not what he actually

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thinks.
If he were to sit down and write

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out what he thinks about the
truth.

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It’s what he’s feeling in that
moment.

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It’s where he’s currently at.
On that cross he feels forsaken.

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But then verse three, we enter
into Step 2 and Step 3.

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Yet you are holy, enthroned of
the praises on the praises of

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Israel and and in you.
Our fathers trusted, they

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trusted and you delivered them.
And to you they cried out and

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they were rescued and in you
they trusted and were not put to

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shame.
He’s thinking, well, who is God?

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And God is one that is holy.
He’s one that is on the praises

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of Israel.
This is who my father is, and on

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top of that, my father has been
there for other people.

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But this is a God that has saved
and provided for many others in

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the past.
So of course you’ll provide for

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me here.
He will save me here as well.

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However, we got a lot of
emotions to go through.

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Still, we’re 6th.
But I’m a worm.

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I’m not a man.
I’m scorned by mankind.

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They’re despised by the people.
All who seek me mock me.

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They make mouths at me and they
wag their heads saying he trusts

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in Yahweh, let him deliver him,
let him rescue him, for he

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delights in him.
And again, this is going back to

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step one.
This is the emotions that Jesus

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is feeling on that cross.
He doesn’t feel like a man.

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He feels like a worm.
And it’s he’s embarrassed, he’s

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shamed, he’s he’s naked on the
cross.

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Of course he feels that way.
He’s not being treated like a

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person.
He’s being treated like dirt in

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that moment.
That’s what he’s feeling.

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He feels like a worm, not a man.
We know this isn’t a logical

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statement.
This isn’t what Jesus believes.

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He doesn’t think he’s literally
a worm.

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It’s an emotional statement.
And again, verse 9.

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Yet you are he who took me from
the womb.

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You made me trust at my mother’s
breasts.

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On you.
I was cast from my birth and

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from my mother’s womb.
You have been my God.

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My relationship with my God in
the last 30 years has been like

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this, where I’ve been able to
trust with him and trust on him.

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He’s been with me my whole life.
He won’t abandoned me now.

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He won’t abandoned me.
Here on this cross, you see this

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battle happening in his head.
He’s dealing with his emotions.

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Step one, that anxiety, he’s
expressing it to his father, but

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then he’s correcting himself.
He’s saying, I know that’s not

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true.
This is what I know to be true

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about God.
This is what I know from the

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Bible.
This is what I know from my

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history.
I can look at the Bible and say

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this is what God has done with
the Father is I can look at my

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life and say this is what God
has done for me.

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He’s using these emotions or
these these thoughts to

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counteract his emotions.
He doesn’t just not express

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them.
It’s important to express our

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emotions.
But he then goes, what is true?

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What do I know to be true?
Even though I don’t feel it

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right now And this continues on.
We’re not going to keep reading

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through the next 10 or so
verses, but there’s a lot more

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of this emotional language of be
not far from me but for trouble

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is near.
There are many bulls around me,

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all this kind of language that
isn’t logically true.

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It’s emotionally true.
It’s what Jesus is feeling on

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the cross and he’s expressing
his feelings and continues until

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verse 22 where he says step
four.

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I will tell of your name to my
brothers in the midst of the

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congregation.
I will praise you, You who fear

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Yahweh, praise him.
All you offspring of Jacob

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glorify him, stand in awe of
him, all you offspring of

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Israel.
When do you think Jesus is

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imagining that happening?
It’s not.

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On Earth in that lifetime, he’s
not thinking about how he’s

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going to stand amongst the
offspring of Jacob right then

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and there and say these things.
He’s thinking of the Kingdom.

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He’s thinking of how he’s going
to proclaim Yahweh’s name to his

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brethren, that his brethren are
not around him in that moment.

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His brethren are not the people
that are sitting around him.

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There’s people putting him to
death.

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Those are not his brothers.
The time that he’ll be on his

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brethren is the Kingdom.
That’s when he will say, I will

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call out your name or I’ll tell
them of your name in the midst

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of the congregation.
I will praise you, you here for

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Yahweh.
Praise him.

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Those people in that moment did
not feel fear Yahweh, for they

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were killing his son.
But he looked forward to the day

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where he would be surrounded by
those who do.

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And then verses 24 to 31, he
goes back to thinking about who

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God is.
We’re not going to read the

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whole thing.
We read it in the reading.

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But he goes back to thinking who
God is, what is, who is my God?

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What is my relationship with him
and how does that impact my

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current scenario?
Again, it’s countering the

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emotions with what you know to
be true.

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Don’t just ignore the emotions.
That’s that’s not the right

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answer.
But we need to compare the

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emotions with what we know to be
true, with our actual beliefs,

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and then try our best to act on
our beliefs, what we know to be

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true, even if we aren’t
emotionally there yet.

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This really the way we see how I
was mentioned earlier.

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This gets easier, for Jesus is
really going back to the cross,

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not so much in the Psalms, but
in the cross.

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See, Jesus says, my God, my God,
why hast thou forsaken me?

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And then if you were to compare,
kind of try to put the timeline

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together of what goes on the
cross.

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The next thing Jesus says is in
Luke 23, verse 46.

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Father, into your hands, I
commit my spirit.

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And having said this, he
breathed his lass.

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That’s that last cry out in the
Matthew reading that we had,

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that, that he cried out and gave
up his spirit.

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That cry is father into your
hands.

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I commit my spirit.
And that’s a quote from Psalm 31

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that we read yesterday.
And I just want to read those 5

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verses in Psalm 31 so that we
get an idea of what is Jesus

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thinking next?
His first thought was Psalm 22,

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this battle of emotion and his
his belief and what he knows to

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be true.
What he’s currently feeling,

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what he’s believing internally
with versus what he believes on

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a on a grander scale, what he
believes to be true on on almost

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a logical level.
And his next step, his next

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thing he says, is from Psalm 31.
Starting in verse one, we’ll

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read the 1st 5 verses in you, O
Yahweh, do I take refuge?

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Let me never be put to shame in
your righteousness.

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Deliver me, incline your ear to
me, rescue you, Me speedily.

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Be a rock of refuge for me, a
strong fortress to save me.

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For you are my rock and my
fortress.

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And for my name’s sake you lead
me.

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Sorry for your name’s sake.
You lead me and guide me.

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You Take Me Out of the net so
that they have hidden for me.

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For you are my refuge.
Into your hand I commit my

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spirit.
You have redeemed me, O Yahweh,

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faithful God.
Step one.

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My God, my God, Why hast thou
ever stake in me?

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Step 4.
Into thy hand I commit my

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spirit.
That’s how quick it was for

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Jesus.
On the cross.

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It was 2 sentences, the whole
process, and it gets easier as

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we do it more and more.
It started off in garden, the

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garden.
It really started off well

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before that.
But in our first story in the

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garden, it’s a three separate
prayers.

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It’s a walk to the disciples
where they’re at, being

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surprised, they’re sleeping,
going back, having the prayer

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again.
Have to go through the process

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again.
Talk to my father again, agree

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to go with his will again, go
back to my disciples.

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They’re still sleeping.
I can go back, pray again, same

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conversation.
Do the process again until I’m

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at the point where I can say
yes.

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Father, your will be done.
I will go with your will, even

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though I don’t feel it right
now.

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And on the cross, because he has
gone through that process

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already.
He’s thought through these

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thoughts on the cross.
Two sentences.

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My God, My God, why have you
forsaken me into your hands?

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I commit my spirit and we can do
the same, Brothers and sisters.

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At first, the battle of Anxiety
will be hard.

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It will take going back and
forth in conversations.

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It will take having the
repetitive conversation.

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Jesus has the same prayer three
times.

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We will have the same prayer or
conversation with ourselves

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multiple times.
But just as it got easier for

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Jesus, it gets easier for us.
And ultimately the battle will

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end when Christ returns.
But at that point, no matter

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where we are in the process of
anxiety, no matter where we are

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in the process of dealing with
this temptation, at that point

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the battle’s over, because
anxieties we put away,

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temptations we put away.
This battle will end because we

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will be made perfect.
He will wipe away every tear

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from their eyes, and death shall
be no more.

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Neither shall there be mourning,
nor crying, nor pain or the

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former things have passed away.
So now as we move for this time

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of meditation, of self
reflection, let’s think about

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how can we take on the spirit of
our Lord.

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How can we look at the face of
anxiety, of extreme temptation

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and emotion, and say not my will
would thine be done?