Class 1 from this series was used in GCT Episode 322.<\/p>\n
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\nOur first period teacher is
\nBrother Ben Breakerhoff. <\/p>\n
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\nHis topic is overcoming
\nresentment. <\/p>\n
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\nHis title today for today’s
\nclass is Judah Runs Away. <\/p>\n
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\nBrother Ben, I almost took your
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\nThank you.
\nBrother James, Good morning. <\/p>\n
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\nRocky Mountain Bible School.
\nAll right, that’s the force I <\/p>\n
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\nneed to give you energy.
\nSo you give me energy because I <\/p>\n
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\nam lacking energy right now.
\nSo that is that’s that’s the <\/p>\n
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\nlittle agreement we’re going to
\nhave for each other. <\/p>\n
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\nOK.
\nAnd when I’m a teen class, when <\/p>\n
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\nI see them not paying attention,
\nI just get to ask them questions<\/p>\n
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\nand make them read verses.
\nSo first row. <\/p>\n
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\nBe careful, Bonnie got my eye on
\nyou. <\/p>\n
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\nSo does Bonnie.
\nOK, so in our last study we <\/p>\n
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\nconsidered Judah as the
\nresentment built up within him. <\/p>\n
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\nThis eventually led him of
\nstripping the dreamer of his <\/p>\n
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\ncoat and casting him into a pit
\nand selling him into slavery. <\/p>\n
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\nAnd if I did my job, what I hope
\nI was able to illustrate to you <\/p>\n
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\nyesterday is that Judah’s
\nsolution to his resentment was <\/p>\n
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\nno solution at all, because it
\ndidn’t really solve any of <\/p>\n
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\nJudah’s real problems.
\nIt didn’t provide him love from <\/p>\n
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\nhis father, did it?
\nIt didn’t give Leah any <\/p>\n
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\nvindication.
\nI don’t think it really calmed <\/p>\n
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\nthe storm blowing up in his mind
\ninstead as he clutched his <\/p>\n
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\nlonesome 2 silver coins on that
\nlong, torturous walk back to <\/p>\n
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\nHebron.
\nI believe in unrelenting <\/p>\n
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\nconscience would have drained
\nany last remnant he might have <\/p>\n
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\nhad of calm or peace.
\nI don’t know what resentments <\/p>\n
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\nyou are dealing with right now
\nor how someone may have wronged <\/p>\n
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\nyou.
\nI’m sure that some of you have <\/p>\n
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\nfelt very wronged and treated
\nvery poorly, and some of you who<\/p>\n
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\nare feeling that way have not
\nyet responded, have not acted on<\/p>\n
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\nthe solutions that have been
\nswinging around in your head. <\/p>\n
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\nAnd that may feel very hard, but
\nyou’ve done the right thing. <\/p>\n
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\nIt doesn’t feel like the right
\nthing, does it? <\/p>\n
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\nNo, it feels like this person
\nshould be told how wrong they’ve<\/p>\n
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\ntreated me and I should react
\nthis way and, and, and let them <\/p>\n
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\nknow and, and, and protest and,
\nand yet you haven’t acted on <\/p>\n
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\nthose things sometimes.
\nAnd that doesn’t feel like the <\/p>\n
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\nright thing to do.
\nBut think about the solutions <\/p>\n
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\nthat people with resentment act
\non and they heat problems upon <\/p>\n
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\nproblems.
\nAnd that’s what we’re going to <\/p>\n
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\nlook at today.
\nYou know, Scripture gives us a <\/p>\n
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\nhint by the way of of just how
\npainful it was when Judah got <\/p>\n
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\nback and saw his father like
\nthat. <\/p>\n
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\nThat memory was so painful.
\nThat look on his father’s faith <\/p>\n
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\nwas was so painful that it was
\nburned into Judah’s memory. <\/p>\n
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\nWe get some indication of that
\nbecause, and this is a verse <\/p>\n
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\nwe’ll revisit a couple times,
\nbut in in Genesis chapter 44, <\/p>\n
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\nverse 33 to 34, we read now,
\ntherefore, I pray thee this is <\/p>\n
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\nthis is now Judah talking to
\nJoseph, not knowing it’s Joseph <\/p>\n
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\nnow.
\nTherefore, I pray thee, let thy <\/p>\n
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\nservant abide instead of the
\nlad, a bondsman to my Lord, and <\/p>\n
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\nlet the lad go up with his
\nbrethren. <\/p>\n
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\nFor how shall I go up to my
\nfather? <\/p>\n
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\nAnd the lad be not with me, lest
\nperadventure I see the evil that<\/p>\n
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\nshall come upon my father.
\nIt’s almost as if he’s saying, I<\/p>\n
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\ncan’t see that again.
\nI saw that once, I cannot see <\/p>\n
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\nthat again.
\nAnd does that give us some <\/p>\n
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\nindication of what it was like
\nfor Judah to face his father? <\/p>\n
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\nNow, perhaps all the brethren
\nfelt this way, but it was only <\/p>\n
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\nJudah that verbalized it and was
\nwilling to act on it. <\/p>\n
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\nSo Judah’s solution to his
\nresentment problem was not a <\/p>\n
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\nsolution.
\nYour solution to your resentment<\/p>\n
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\nproblem, I dare say, may not
\nreally be a solution. <\/p>\n
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\nIt didn’t give him any lasting
\nsatisfaction. <\/p>\n
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\nThere’s no peace in his heart
\nafter his sin, but Judah’s not <\/p>\n
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\nalone in Scripture in feeling
\nresentment and and having a <\/p>\n
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\ncatastrophic response to his
\nresentment, making it worse. <\/p>\n
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\nScripture abounds with examples.
\nI felt like the reading day with<\/p>\n
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\nSamson.
\nNo, I’m going to do this because<\/p>\n
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\nthey did this, and I’m going to
\ndo this because they did this. <\/p>\n
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\nAnd you know, maybe there’s
\nobviously God working things out<\/p>\n
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\nin that story, right?
\nGod definitely works through sin<\/p>\n
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\nor else, you know, what would he
\nbe doing with any of us, right? <\/p>\n
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\nBut yet, think about all the
\nexamples in Scripture where <\/p>\n
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\nsomeone’s response or to or
\ntheir solution to the resentment<\/p>\n
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\nproblem was no solution.
\nLook at what Cain’s solution was<\/p>\n
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\nto his resentment problem.
\nHow about King Saul’s solution <\/p>\n
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\nto his resentment problem?
\nHow about Absalom’s solution to <\/p>\n
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\nresenting Amnon?
\nHow about Haman, his solution to<\/p>\n
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\nresenting Mordehai?
\nYou know, And even in parable, <\/p>\n
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\nhow about the the wicked
\nhusbandman’s solution to <\/p>\n
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\nresenting the vineyard owner?
\nOr how about Judas Iscariot’s <\/p>\n
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\nsolution to resenting Christ?
\nIt seems to be that the typical <\/p>\n
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\npath of resentment is self
\njustified sin, and the result of<\/p>\n
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\nself justified sin is misery.
\nAnd I want us to be able to see <\/p>\n
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\nthat process clearly, to see
\nwhere it leads, and to know how <\/p>\n
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\nto bear it.
\nIn fact, I even started a little<\/p>\n
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\nbit of a collection of words
\nthat are a little bit similar or<\/p>\n
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\na lot similar to resentment so I
\ncan find them in the Bible now. <\/p>\n
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\nWho knows.
\nAnother Bible word for <\/p>\n
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\nresentment.
\nAny any suggestions? <\/p>\n
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\nWhat’s this hate?
\nYep, jealousy. <\/p>\n
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\nJealousy is a good one.
\nIndignation, malice, <\/p>\n
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\ncovetousness, bitterness.
\nOK, I think you got most of the <\/p>\n
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\nones I thought of.
\nSo resentment words. <\/p>\n
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\nHow about Haman?
\nHaman was this is a good one. <\/p>\n
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\nThis one was mentioned.
\nHe was moved with indignation, <\/p>\n
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\nright?
\nThat’s so when you read move to <\/p>\n
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\nthe indignation.
\nIf that is too that language is <\/p>\n
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\na little bit too far fetched for
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\nResentment.
\nOK, how about Esau? <\/p>\n
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\nThis is a good one.
\nWho knows this one Esau let know<\/p>\n
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\nroot of bitterness.
\nHow about Cain? <\/p>\n
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\nHe was very wroth and
\ncountenance was fallen saw he <\/p>\n
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\nhad an evil spirit and Ahab he
\nwas heavy and displeased the <\/p>\n
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\nSanhedrin.
\nThey were cut to the heart. <\/p>\n
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\nNow I know that that that
\nthere’s a wide variety of <\/p>\n
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\nfeelings and I’m just using one
\nsmall term to summarize what is <\/p>\n
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\nwhat is a spectrum of ideas.
\nBut, but what I’m saying is that<\/p>\n
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\nyou can find these ideas in this
\nscenario playing out all over <\/p>\n
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\nScripture.
\nNow, sometimes resentment is <\/p>\n
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\ncharacterized by what it does
\nrather than what it is. <\/p>\n
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\nFor example, murmuring.
\nA good example is, you know, the<\/p>\n
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\nparable where, where the, the
\nlandowner got some servants and,<\/p>\n
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\nand gave them a, a penny and
\nthen he came back and got more <\/p>\n
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\nservants.
\nThey gave them penny and then <\/p>\n
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\nthey got more servants and, and,
\nand every time the servants had <\/p>\n
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\nto work a little bit less time
\nuntil finally the last group, <\/p>\n
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\nthey worked maybe half an hour,
\nan hour at most. <\/p>\n
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\nAnd they got a penny as well.
\nAnd the first servant said they <\/p>\n
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\nthought they would receive more.
\nAnd when they when they didn’t, <\/p>\n
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\nwhat do they do?
\nRight? <\/p>\n
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\nThey murmured.
\nWell, they were resentful, <\/p>\n
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\nright, You know, but they were
\nmurmuring. <\/p>\n
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\nSo it’s more what it did, what
\nthey what it does than what it <\/p>\n
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\nis.
\nFirst, excuse me, Ephesians <\/p>\n
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\nchapter 4 verse 31 says this.
\nLet all bitterness and wrath and<\/p>\n
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\nanger and clamor.
\nSo those are all words that <\/p>\n
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\ndescribe resentment.
\nBe put away from you with all <\/p>\n
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\nmalice.
\nAnd I think it was brother Nick <\/p>\n
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\nwho mentioned malice.
\nSo resentment is the bitterness,<\/p>\n
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\nwrath and anger and the self
\njustified sin is slander and <\/p>\n
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\nmalice.
\nSo a little bit cause and effect<\/p>\n
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\nthere in that verse.
\nAnd thinking back to the opening<\/p>\n
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\nverse of our study, which was
\nLeviticus chapter 19 and verse <\/p>\n
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\n18, we’re told not to hold a
\ngrudge against our brother. <\/p>\n
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\nAnd, and I was saying, what’s
\nthat word grudge, you know, and <\/p>\n
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\nthat’s that It’s a Hebrew word,
\nnattar. <\/p>\n
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\nNow, David, let me know if I got
\nthis right. <\/p>\n
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\nBut I think it means in its
\nroot, it means to guard or keep <\/p>\n
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\nor reserve.
\nSo, so when the Bible wants to <\/p>\n
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\ndescribe a grudge, it describes
\nyou keeping something, you <\/p>\n
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\nguarding something.
\nWell, what are you guarding? <\/p>\n
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\nYou’re guarding your feelings,
\nright, aren’t you? <\/p>\n
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\nYou’re, you’re going to take
\nthis memory and you’re going to <\/p>\n
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\nhold on to it, and you’re going
\nto guard it and you’re going to <\/p>\n
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\nnurse it.
\nWhy are you going to do that? <\/p>\n
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\nSo that no one hurts you again.
\nThat’s why no one’s going to <\/p>\n
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\nhurt me this way.
\nAgain. <\/p>\n
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\nI’m going to hold on to this
\nbecause I think it’s going to <\/p>\n
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\nprotect me, but it doesn’t.
\nBut you’re not holding on to it <\/p>\n
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\nbecause you want to be hurt
\nmore. <\/p>\n
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\nYou hold on here because you
\nwant to be hurt less. <\/p>\n
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\nAnd then you get hurt more, and
\nyou hurt other people more. <\/p>\n
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\nSo imagine Judah feeling all
\nthese feelings that that these <\/p>\n
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\nwords try to describe.
\nHe’s bitter, he’s heavy, his <\/p>\n
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\ncountenance has fallen.
\nHe’s moved with indignation. <\/p>\n
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\nAlthough Judah may have slimmed
\nsinned by slandering his brother<\/p>\n
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\nor perhaps shunning his brother
\nup to the point of selling him, <\/p>\n
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\nJudah would have felt that he
\nstill hadn’t gotten even like <\/p>\n
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\nthat.
\nHe had been hurt more than he <\/p>\n
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\nhad hurt Joseph in response.
\nAnd I illustrate that with an <\/p>\n
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\nimbalanced scale of childlike
\nreasoning. <\/p>\n
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\nYou know, yeah, I I’ve had some
\nsins, but you know what? <\/p>\n
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\nI’ve been hurt worse than I’ve
\nsinned back. <\/p>\n
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\nAnd and I’m just going to kind
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\nListen, I’m not a psychologist.
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\nBut but, but how would I
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\nAnd self pity is a state where
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\ngood to fantasize about getting
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\nSo as we discussed yesterday,
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\nhurt Joseph more than I’ve been
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\nAnd this is a fantasy, right?
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\nBut after a while, if you
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\nyou wanted to put your finger on
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\nhaven’t me carried it out, but
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\nNow what’s self loathing?
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\nbecause it seems like we have
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\nsingle one of our relationships.
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\nsins outweigh your hurts?
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\non either side of this scale?
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\neven things out is a fantasy.
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\nbalancing, all this selfishness
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\nyou’re and you’re carrying all
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\nbrothers and sisters, do you <\/p>\n
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\nis when you find something that <\/p>\n
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\nIt’s easy to see how self
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\ngiving ourselves medicine.
\nI mentioned that horrible cycle <\/p>\n
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\nbecause look at what was going
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\nYou know, we see him growing in
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\nWe see him plotting to kill his
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\nWe see him selling his brother
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\nWe see him lying about it to his
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\nI’m just trying to feel OK.
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\nTurn there please. <\/p>\n
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\nSo bear with me, but hey, these
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\nAnd it came to pass at that time
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\nSo how long do you think it was
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\nof a conscience, could stand to
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\nHow long could he?
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\nHow long could he watch his
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\n00:26:33,840 –> 00:26:37,400
\nMaybe he was not showering.
\nMaybe dust was on his head. <\/p>\n
337
\n00:26:37,400 –> 00:26:42,440
\nMaybe he was wearing mourning
\nclothes, sackcloth. <\/p>\n
338
\n00:26:43,640 –> 00:26:48,200
\nHow long could he see his father
\nblame himself for sending Joseph<\/p>\n
339
\n00:26:48,200 –> 00:26:52,880
\nalone to Shechem?
\nHow long could he bear with the <\/p>\n
340
\n00:26:52,880 –> 00:26:57,240
\nhypocrisy and the lies?
\nHow was long was he to to to <\/p>\n
341
\n00:26:57,240 –> 00:27:01,360
\nbear with this burning sense of
\naching that would have been in <\/p>\n
342
\n00:27:01,360 –> 00:27:04,520
\nhis chest as he looked at his
\nfather? <\/p>\n
343
\n00:27:05,880 –> 00:27:11,280
\nAnd so, about that time, he ran
\naway from the pain. <\/p>\n
344
\n00:27:12,440 –> 00:27:15,080
\nHe left the truth as it were.
\nThat was the only ecclesia at <\/p>\n
345
\n00:27:15,080 –> 00:27:19,360
\nthe time.
\nAnd I and I reflect like, why, <\/p>\n
346
\n00:27:19,440 –> 00:27:25,440
\nwhy do people leave the truth?
\nAnd sometimes we may, I think, <\/p>\n
347
\n00:27:25,440 –> 00:27:27,880
\nmistakenly say that they, they
\nleave the truth because they <\/p>\n
348
\n00:27:27,880 –> 00:27:35,880
\nstop having faith in God.
\nBut sometimes it’s, they stop <\/p>\n
349
\n00:27:35,880 –> 00:27:39,600
\nhaving faith in themselves.
\nI, I think sometimes it’s that <\/p>\n
350
\n00:27:39,600 –> 00:27:43,840
\nthey lose hope.
\nYou see, if you’ve lost hope, <\/p>\n
351
\n00:27:44,760 –> 00:27:49,120
\nnot that you’ve maybe lost
\nfaith, but if you’ve lost hope, <\/p>\n
352
\n00:27:50,160 –> 00:27:53,640
\nwhy stick around and be tortured
\nby what you’ll never attain? <\/p>\n
353
\n00:27:53,640 –> 00:27:55,400
\nAnd you see other people
\ncelebrating? <\/p>\n
354
\n00:28:00,280 –> 00:28:04,640
\nThat’s just torture.
\nAll you happy people. <\/p>\n
355
\n00:28:05,360 –> 00:28:05,840
\nYeah.
\nYeah. <\/p>\n
356
\n00:28:05,840 –> 00:28:11,680
\nYou have a hope.
\nI don’t have a hope. <\/p>\n
357
\n00:28:12,920 –> 00:28:17,880
\nAnd I can’t stand to watch you
\nhave one, so I’m going to run <\/p>\n
358
\n00:28:17,880 –> 00:28:23,440
\naway.
\nSo of course he saw a beautiful <\/p>\n
359
\n00:28:23,440 –> 00:28:26,320
\nCanaanite woman and he took her.
\nDo you think you loved her? <\/p>\n
360
\n00:28:28,160 –> 00:28:31,720
\nDid it matter?
\nIt was a self gratification in <\/p>\n
361
\n00:28:31,720 –> 00:28:35,000
\nanother form, something that
\nthat made him forget his <\/p>\n
362
\n00:28:35,000 –> 00:28:40,400
\ntroubles for a few moments.
\nDid it did it matter that, you <\/p>\n
363
\n00:28:40,400 –> 00:28:46,640
\nknow, that his brothers had
\nmurdered Shechem, his father and<\/p>\n
364
\n00:28:46,840 –> 00:28:48,640
\nthe, the, the the men of the
\ncity? <\/p>\n
365
\n00:28:48,640 –> 00:28:52,320
\nBecause he was a Canaanite and
\nhe married his sister Dinah. <\/p>\n
366
\n00:28:52,960 –> 00:28:55,120
\nI mean, he was convinced at the
\ntime that that was horrible to <\/p>\n
367
\n00:28:55,120 –> 00:28:57,760
\nmarry a Canaanite.
\nBut, you know, now it was <\/p>\n
368
\n00:28:57,760 –> 00:29:00,520
\ndifferent.
\nEverything was different. <\/p>\n
369
\n00:29:01,960 –> 00:29:04,840
\nHave you ever run away like
\nJudah? <\/p>\n
370
\n00:29:05,040 –> 00:29:09,960
\nHave you ever sinned so badly
\nand so often that you couldn’t <\/p>\n
371
\n00:29:09,960 –> 00:29:14,320
\nmake it right even on the basis
\nof your own judgement? <\/p>\n
372
\n00:29:17,240 –> 00:29:23,120
\nOr have you seen when your your
\nkids do this, they’ve run away? <\/p>\n
373
\n00:29:30,640 –> 00:29:32,400
\nOr ever fallen into self
\nloathing? <\/p>\n
374
\n00:29:34,200 –> 00:29:36,640
\nEver found yourself making
\nselfish bad decision after <\/p>\n
375
\n00:29:36,640 –> 00:29:39,360
\nselfish bad decision,
\ndesperately trying to feel <\/p>\n
376
\n00:29:39,360 –> 00:29:42,600
\nbetter, trying, trying to make
\nthings right, and seeing that <\/p>\n
377
\n00:29:42,600 –> 00:29:45,040
\neverything around you is just
\ngetting worse and worse? <\/p>\n
378
\n00:29:46,440 –> 00:29:49,160
\nBut Judah is actually not at the
\nbottom here. <\/p>\n
379
\n00:29:50,600 –> 00:29:53,360
\nThere’s still more pain to come.
\nThere’s still like 22 more years<\/p>\n
380
\n00:29:53,360 –> 00:29:57,720
\nof pain to come here.
\nI mean, look at the appeal of <\/p>\n
381
\n00:29:57,720 –> 00:29:59,480
\nrunning away.
\nWhat? <\/p>\n
382
\n00:29:59,480 –> 00:30:02,960
\nWhat happens when you run away?
\nWell, you go where no one knows <\/p>\n
383
\n00:30:02,960 –> 00:30:05,960
\nyou.
\nNo one knows Joseph. <\/p>\n
384
\n00:30:06,680 –> 00:30:09,280
\nNo one knows what he did.
\nNo one reminds you of your past.<\/p>\n
385
\n00:30:09,920 –> 00:30:12,160
\nYou can reinvent yourself on new
\nterms. <\/p>\n
386
\n00:30:14,240 –> 00:30:15,880
\nYou can shut the door in the
\npast. <\/p>\n
387
\n00:30:16,320 –> 00:30:19,280
\nDoes anyone know how
\nintoxicating of a prospect that <\/p>\n
388
\n00:30:19,280 –> 00:30:22,800
\nis compared to wallowing and
\nguilt and self loathing? <\/p>\n
389
\n00:30:24,280 –> 00:30:27,200
\nSo we see Judah do something now
\nhe’s going to do for the next 22<\/p>\n
390
\n00:30:27,200 –> 00:30:28,880
\nyears.
\nHe’s going to take the easy Rd. <\/p>\n
391
\n00:30:28,880 –> 00:30:31,920
\nHe’s going to go down to a
\ndullum which is about 15 or 20 <\/p>\n
392
\n00:30:31,920 –> 00:30:35,920
\nmiles northwest of Hebron.
\nThat means it was easy. <\/p>\n
393
\n00:30:36,240 –> 00:30:40,560
\nEasily a day’s journey from his
\nfather. <\/p>\n
394
\n00:30:40,560 –> 00:30:43,280
\nI mean, I’m, I live a day’s
\njourney from my father, right? <\/p>\n
395
\n00:30:43,680 –> 00:30:47,160
\nYou know you had to go.
\nYou have to go farther now than <\/p>\n
396
\n00:30:47,160 –> 00:30:53,360
\nyou did then, right?
\nBut it’s far enough now. <\/p>\n
397
\n00:30:53,360 –> 00:30:57,240
\nWhat’s the most do you want?
\nThis is one of Scriptures little<\/p>\n
398
\n00:30:57,240 –> 00:31:00,280
\nirony as my dad’s reminding
\nabout undesigned scriptural <\/p>\n
399
\n00:31:00,280 –> 00:31:03,160
\ncoincidences.
\nWhat is the most prominent <\/p>\n
400
\n00:31:03,160 –> 00:31:04,960
\nfeature of a dullum in the
\nBible? <\/p>\n
401
\n00:31:08,840 –> 00:31:09,520
\nA cave.
\nWhere? <\/p>\n
402
\n00:31:09,920 –> 00:31:11,240
\nWhat?
\nWhat do you do in a cave? <\/p>\n
403
\n00:31:12,160 –> 00:31:14,680
\nYou hide.
\nSo where’s Judah go? <\/p>\n
404
\n00:31:15,640 –> 00:31:16,880
\nOh, it just happens to go to
\nAdalum. <\/p>\n
405
\n00:31:18,160 –> 00:31:22,840
\nWhere what?
\nWhere you can hide, right? <\/p>\n
406
\n00:31:26,440 –> 00:31:29,240
\nAnd it’s obviously in First
\nSamuel 22 is where David goes to<\/p>\n
407
\n00:31:29,240 –> 00:31:33,400
\nhide.
\nNow Adalum could not have been a<\/p>\n
408
\n00:31:33,400 –> 00:31:38,960
\ngreat place to visit concerning
\nthe things of the truth. <\/p>\n
409
\n00:31:38,960 –> 00:31:43,640
\nIt was destroyed by Joshua.
\nJustinius calls it a royal city <\/p>\n
410
\n00:31:43,640 –> 00:31:46,120
\nof the Canaanites.
\nNow, what does a dalam mean? <\/p>\n
411
\n00:31:47,640 –> 00:31:53,280
\nWell, Strong says that a dalam
\nmeans justice of the people. <\/p>\n
412
\n00:31:54,080 –> 00:31:56,560
\nNow, now, isn’t that what we run
\nto, right? <\/p>\n
413
\n00:31:57,600 –> 00:32:01,400
\nWe run away from God’s
\nrighteousness and we run <\/p>\n
414
\n00:32:01,400 –> 00:32:03,480
\nstraight to the justice of the
\npeople. <\/p>\n
415
\n00:32:04,760 –> 00:32:07,760
\nAnd actually, a few of these
\nwords right there in in the <\/p>\n
416
\n00:32:07,760 –> 00:32:11,000
\nstart of chapter 38 give us some
\nindication of what’s going on, <\/p>\n
417
\n00:32:11,320 –> 00:32:13,320
\nbecause there’s a story behind
\nthe story. <\/p>\n
418
\n00:32:14,520 –> 00:32:20,880
\nBecause he, he befriends Hira.
\nNow Hira’s name means nobility <\/p>\n
419
\n00:32:22,480 –> 00:32:24,520
\nand he marries the daughter of
\nShua. <\/p>\n
420
\n00:32:25,200 –> 00:32:33,160
\nNow Shua means rich or opulence.
\nSo what is Judah doing? <\/p>\n
421
\n00:32:33,160 –> 00:32:34,880
\nWhat’s the thing that Judah
\nalways wanted? <\/p>\n
422
\n00:32:36,880 –> 00:32:40,520
\nOh, he wanted to be the one that
\nhis brothers would bow down to, <\/p>\n
423
\n00:32:42,760 –> 00:32:46,760
\nthat dreamer.
\nWell, what else did he want? <\/p>\n
424
\n00:32:47,320 –> 00:32:49,000
\nHe obviously was motivated by
\nmoney. <\/p>\n
425
\n00:32:49,320 –> 00:32:51,120
\nWouldn’t.
\nSo how did he came up with the <\/p>\n
426
\n00:32:51,120 –> 00:32:55,360
\nidea of selling Joseph for a
\nprofit, Right. <\/p>\n
427
\n00:32:56,200 –> 00:32:57,960
\nSo what two things are he
\nstruggling with? <\/p>\n
428
\n00:32:58,520 –> 00:33:00,840
\nYou’re not going to be the
\nleader and I’m going to make <\/p>\n
429
\n00:33:00,840 –> 00:33:03,360
\nsome money.
\nSo what does he do when he goes <\/p>\n
430
\n00:33:03,360 –> 00:33:05,760
\nto Dulham?
\nHe’s like, well, you know what? <\/p>\n
431
\n00:33:05,960 –> 00:33:07,440
\nI’m going to double down on
\nthat. <\/p>\n
432
\n00:33:09,120 –> 00:33:13,800
\nIf I can’t get it this way in
\nthe ecclesia, not treating me <\/p>\n
433
\n00:33:13,800 –> 00:33:15,880
\nright there, I’m going to get it
\nin the world. <\/p>\n
434
\n00:33:16,720 –> 00:33:19,040
\nI’m going to get with the thing
\nI think I want. <\/p>\n
435
\n00:33:19,800 –> 00:33:22,960
\nI’m going to get rich, powerful
\nfriends. <\/p>\n
436
\n00:33:24,480 –> 00:33:27,160
\nI’m going to get position.
\nI’m going to get status. <\/p>\n
437
\n00:33:27,920 –> 00:33:33,240
\nI’m going to pursue the things
\nI’m desperately wanting because <\/p>\n
438
\n00:33:33,240 –> 00:33:36,600
\nwhy?
\nBecause I think they’re going to<\/p>\n
439
\n00:33:36,600 –> 00:33:40,920
\nmake me happy.
\nEver pursued the thing you <\/p>\n
440
\n00:33:40,920 –> 00:33:44,200
\nthought was going to make you
\nhappy outside of the meeting? <\/p>\n
441
\n00:33:48,160 –> 00:33:52,520
\nDid it make you happy?
\nAre you still figuring that out <\/p>\n
442
\n00:33:52,520 –> 00:33:57,280
\nright now?
\nThat’s what he’s going towards. <\/p>\n
443
\n00:33:57,280 –> 00:33:59,040
\nHe’s running towards profit and
\nposition. <\/p>\n
444
\n00:34:01,000 –> 00:34:04,760
\nHis desires are still the same.
\nCan’t get into the meeting. <\/p>\n
445
\n00:34:05,400 –> 00:34:11,639
\nI’ll get it outside the meeting
\nand notice how the text moves <\/p>\n
446
\n00:34:11,639 –> 00:34:14,440
\nreally quickly.
\nIn this section it says that <\/p>\n
447
\n00:34:14,440 –> 00:34:17,719
\nJudah saw the daughter of a
\ncertain Canaanite whose name was<\/p>\n
448
\n00:34:17,719 –> 00:34:19,360
\nShua.
\nHe took her and went in unto <\/p>\n
449
\n00:34:19,360 –> 00:34:22,080
\nher.
\nNow, how long do you think that <\/p>\n
450
\n00:34:22,080 –> 00:34:27,719
\nlittle sequence took?
\nRight, He took, he went in. <\/p>\n
451
\n00:34:29,440 –> 00:34:32,520
\nYou know, there doesn’t really
\nappear to be a careful <\/p>\n
452
\n00:34:32,520 –> 00:34:35,159
\nexamination of the woman’s moral
\nqualities. <\/p>\n
453
\n00:34:36,800 –> 00:34:39,560
\nMaybe there was no more
\nexamination of inequalities <\/p>\n
454
\n00:34:39,560 –> 00:34:42,400
\nother than her physical features
\nand that her father was very <\/p>\n
455
\n00:34:42,400 –> 00:34:47,400
\nwealthy.
\nIt seems like she was easily <\/p>\n
456
\n00:34:47,400 –> 00:34:52,840
\nhad.
\nIt’s interesting to note how how<\/p>\n
457
\n00:34:52,840 –> 00:34:57,600
\nsimilar this sequence is to the
\nincident of Shechem and Dinah <\/p>\n
458
\n00:35:00,760 –> 00:35:05,920
\nwhere it says there in Genesis
\n34 verse 2, when Shechem, the <\/p>\n
459
\n00:35:05,920 –> 00:35:10,200
\nson of Hamor, the highlight
\nPrince of the country saw her, <\/p>\n
460
\n00:35:10,840 –> 00:35:16,520
\nhe took her and lay with her and
\ndefiled her. <\/p>\n
461
\n00:35:16,880 –> 00:35:23,320
\nSo like, what is it about
\nresentment that makes you repeat<\/p>\n
462
\n00:35:23,320 –> 00:35:27,960
\nthe sins of the past right now,
\nwhat was what was Judah’s <\/p>\n
463
\n00:35:27,960 –> 00:35:30,520
\nresponse to the incident of
\nDinah? <\/p>\n
464
\n00:35:31,080 –> 00:35:33,200
\nRight.
\nWell, as a response to that was <\/p>\n
465
\n00:35:33,200 –> 00:35:37,680
\nthe sons of Jacob came out of
\nthe field when they heard it and<\/p>\n
466
\n00:35:37,680 –> 00:35:40,520
\nthey were grieved and were very
\nrough. <\/p>\n
467
\n00:35:42,920 –> 00:35:46,400
\nBut why did Judah think that
\nthat his version of seeing, <\/p>\n
468
\n00:35:46,400 –> 00:35:50,280
\ntaking and laying with is
\ndifferent than Shechem’s version<\/p>\n
469
\n00:35:50,280 –> 00:35:52,560
\nof seeing, taking and laying
\nwith? <\/p>\n
470
\n00:35:54,520 –> 00:35:57,880
\nBut of course, you know, Judah’s
\nreally was getting good, I <\/p>\n
471
\n00:35:57,880 –> 00:36:01,000
\nthink, at this blame and self
\nrationalization game. <\/p>\n
472
\n00:36:03,200 –> 00:36:05,120
\nDo you know what Judah’s cry
\nwould have been? <\/p>\n
473
\n00:36:06,040 –> 00:36:11,600
\nEver talk to someone who’s made
\na mistake and you point out that<\/p>\n
474
\n00:36:11,600 –> 00:36:15,440
\nit’s very much like this other
\nthing and and and what is what’s<\/p>\n
475
\n00:36:15,440 –> 00:36:19,440
\nthe response You often will get?
\nWell, it’s going to be some <\/p>\n
476
\n00:36:19,440 –> 00:36:24,400
\nversion of my case is different.
\nMy case is different. <\/p>\n
477
\n00:36:32,200 –> 00:36:34,800
\nOne of the symptoms of
\nresentment is you do the things <\/p>\n
478
\n00:36:34,800 –> 00:36:39,520
\nyou judge others for doing.
\nAnd that seems to be God’s way <\/p>\n
479
\n00:36:39,520 –> 00:36:43,760
\nof teaching us that our case
\nisn’t different, our <\/p>\n
480
\n00:36:43,760 –> 00:36:52,880
\ncircumstances are different, but
\nour actions when looked from a <\/p>\n
481
\n00:36:53,520 –> 00:36:56,160
\nview like God’s or what that
\nScripture provides are very much<\/p>\n
482
\n00:36:56,160 –> 00:37:01,760
\nthe same.
\nSo what was the daughter of Shua<\/p>\n
483
\n00:37:02,160 –> 00:37:06,240
\nfor Judah?
\nAnd I, I call her Bat Shua or <\/p>\n
484
\n00:37:06,240 –> 00:37:09,760
\nBath Shua because Bat means
\ndaughter in Hebrew. <\/p>\n
485
\n00:37:09,880 –> 00:37:12,800
\nSo I have to give her a name.
\nSo that’s my name for her. <\/p>\n
486
\n00:37:13,800 –> 00:37:17,400
\nI think for a brief period of
\ntime, she was the answer. <\/p>\n
487
\n00:37:19,200 –> 00:37:22,040
\nShe helped Judah forget his
\nfather and his brother. <\/p>\n
488
\n00:37:22,720 –> 00:37:24,320
\nAnd that would have been a
\nmarvelous relief. <\/p>\n
489
\n00:37:24,440 –> 00:37:27,120
\nAnd I think she’s probably good
\nlooking and she was rich. <\/p>\n
490
\n00:37:27,720 –> 00:37:30,320
\nSo, you know, that didn’t hurt
\neither. <\/p>\n
491
\n00:37:34,280 –> 00:37:41,120
\nIt seems like when we run away,
\nwe always find the girl or boy <\/p>\n
492
\n00:37:41,120 –> 00:37:47,760
\nwho, who understands who who
\nsympathetically agrees with us <\/p>\n
493
\n00:37:48,040 –> 00:37:53,200
\nthat our position is justified,
\nwho thinks that that we’re <\/p>\n
494
\n00:37:53,200 –> 00:37:55,960
\nright, who doesn’t really judge
\nus. <\/p>\n
495
\n00:37:56,080 –> 00:37:57,880
\nBe like all those
\nChristadelphians. <\/p>\n
496
\n00:37:57,880 –> 00:38:01,000
\nThey’re judgmental, you know,
\nboy, judgmental <\/p>\n
497
\n00:38:01,000 –> 00:38:04,800
\nChristadelphians, you know, but
\nbut the the girl or the boy from<\/p>\n
498
\n00:38:04,800 –> 00:38:08,640
\nthe world, they don’t judge us
\nbecause they don’t have any real<\/p>\n
499
\n00:38:08,640 –> 00:38:11,120
\ncare for what God’s
\nrighteousness is anyway. <\/p>\n
500
\n00:38:13,480 –> 00:38:19,640
\nThe the daughter of Shua about
\nShua was not a God centered <\/p>\n
501
\n00:38:19,640 –> 00:38:22,400
\nperson.
\nSo right and wrong in her mind <\/p>\n
502
\n00:38:22,400 –> 00:38:25,120
\nhad really nothing to do with
\nwith God. <\/p>\n
503
\n00:38:25,840 –> 00:38:28,760
\nAnd as a result she was going to
\nbe pretty quick to see right <\/p>\n
504
\n00:38:29,560 –> 00:38:32,680
\nwhere it suited her.
\nYou know, in sympathizing with <\/p>\n
505
\n00:38:32,680 –> 00:38:36,160
\nJudah at this point in time.
\nIt really suited her. <\/p>\n
506
\n00:38:36,600 –> 00:38:40,760
\nIt was good for her.
\nBut what happens when you marry <\/p>\n
507
\n00:38:41,520 –> 00:38:46,760
\na girl or boy like that, The
\nsympathetic one that seems to <\/p>\n
508
\n00:38:47,440 –> 00:38:50,640
\nwholeheartedly agree with your
\nversion of the story? <\/p>\n
509
\n00:38:52,880 –> 00:38:57,480
\nWell, you find to your amazement
\nthat she wasn’t really <\/p>\n
510
\n00:38:57,480 –> 00:39:01,840
\nsupporting your twisted version
\nof right or wrong for your sake.<\/p>\n
511
\n00:39:03,320 –> 00:39:05,560
\nShe was doing it because it
\nsuited her purposes. <\/p>\n
512
\n00:39:07,200 –> 00:39:14,440
\nAnd when what’s good for her no
\nlonger aligns with what’s good <\/p>\n
513
\n00:39:14,440 –> 00:39:20,000
\nfor you, the sympathy
\nevaporates. <\/p>\n
514
\n00:39:23,280 –> 00:39:27,640
\nSee, there’s not integrity.
\nThere’s not the commands of the <\/p>\n
515
\n00:39:27,640 –> 00:39:32,560
\nLord that we keep coming back to
\nthat that frame and and help <\/p>\n
516
\n00:39:32,560 –> 00:39:38,640
\nguide decisions, having and
\nbeing a a moral rock in our <\/p>\n
517
\n00:39:38,640 –> 00:39:41,800
\ndecisions and our relationships.
\nSee, there’s only <\/p>\n
518
\n00:39:41,800 –> 00:39:46,000
\ninterpretation.
\nSo should Judah have been <\/p>\n
519
\n00:39:46,080 –> 00:39:52,280
\nsurprised if the understanding
\ngirl from the world suddenly <\/p>\n
520
\n00:39:52,280 –> 00:39:55,560
\nstop being so understanding when
\nthe circumstances didn’t suit <\/p>\n
521
\n00:39:55,560 –> 00:39:58,760
\nher?
\nNow? <\/p>\n
522
\n00:39:58,760 –> 00:40:06,280
\nI only bring this up because I
\nwonder how long was it before <\/p>\n
523
\n00:40:07,000 –> 00:40:13,040
\nBathshewa before Judah
\nrecognized that Bathshewa? <\/p>\n
524
\n00:40:13,920 –> 00:40:15,880
\nWas perhaps the worst mother in
\nthe world. <\/p>\n
525
\n00:40:17,360 –> 00:40:20,960
\nI mean, we know that that Judah
\nhad some qualities that God is <\/p>\n
526
\n00:40:20,960 –> 00:40:23,160
\ngoing to use and and redeem
\nwithin him. <\/p>\n
527
\n00:40:24,080 –> 00:40:26,040
\nBut look at the sons this woman
\nraised. <\/p>\n
528
\n00:40:29,200 –> 00:40:31,960
\nOne can only guess that they
\nwere raised not according to the<\/p>\n
529
\n00:40:31,960 –> 00:40:35,560
\ncustoms of Abraham and Isaac and
\nJacob, but according to the <\/p>\n
530
\n00:40:35,560 –> 00:40:39,800
\ncustoms of the Canaanites.
\nAnd compared to Canaanites, they<\/p>\n
531
\n00:40:39,800 –> 00:40:43,960
\nwere wicked.
\nI mean, how bad you have to be <\/p>\n
532
\n00:40:43,960 –> 00:40:48,440
\nreally for God to strike you
\ndead, right? <\/p>\n
533
\n00:40:48,880 –> 00:40:54,160
\nAnd what are what are the two
\nprecedents that that Judah would<\/p>\n
534
\n00:40:54,160 –> 00:40:58,920
\nbe able to reflect on of God
\nbasically ordering some someone <\/p>\n
535
\n00:40:58,920 –> 00:41:03,440
\nor someone’s death, the flood,
\nright. <\/p>\n
536
\n00:41:03,640 –> 00:41:09,720
\nAnd and in the flood, what’s the
\nwhat’s the, the the phrase in <\/p>\n
537
\n00:41:09,720 –> 00:41:13,560
\nGenesis 6, verse 5 is that every
\ninclination of the thoughts of <\/p>\n
538
\n00:41:13,560 –> 00:41:16,480
\ntheir hearts were only wicked
\ncontinually, right. <\/p>\n
539
\n00:41:16,600 –> 00:41:18,320
\nAnd what’s the other example
\noutside of the flood? <\/p>\n
540
\n00:41:20,160 –> 00:41:24,400
\nSodom and Gomorrah, right?
\nAbsolutely woman, mysterious <\/p>\n
541
\n00:41:24,400 –> 00:41:31,640
\nwoman sitting next to Renee.
\nHello, Sodom and Gomorrah, where<\/p>\n
542
\n00:41:32,080 –> 00:41:34,760
\nthey were wicked and sinners
\nbefore the Lord exceedingly. <\/p>\n
543
\n00:41:34,760 –> 00:41:38,480
\nSo we have two examples, people
\nwho are wicked exceedingly and <\/p>\n
544
\n00:41:38,480 –> 00:41:40,160
\npeople who are wicked
\ncontinuously. <\/p>\n
545
\n00:41:41,760 –> 00:41:44,080
\nThose are, those are Judah’s two
\nprecedents here. <\/p>\n
546
\n00:41:44,440 –> 00:41:49,200
\nSo one gets the idea that that
\nER was exceedingly and <\/p>\n
547
\n00:41:49,200 –> 00:41:55,360
\ncontinuously wicked, wicked.
\nSo. <\/p>\n
548
\n00:41:56,320 –> 00:41:58,560
\nSo you get the idea.
\nHe’s not a casual Sinner. <\/p>\n
549
\n00:41:59,840 –> 00:42:03,240
\nSo where’s Judah?
\nWhere’s Judah when ER and Onan <\/p>\n
550
\n00:42:03,240 –> 00:42:07,560
\nare growing up?
\nWhere’s the father that still <\/p>\n
551
\n00:42:07,560 –> 00:42:12,440
\nhad a conscience?
\nSee, Judah knew right from <\/p>\n
552
\n00:42:12,440 –> 00:42:14,960
\nwrong.
\nAbsolutely he did. <\/p>\n
553
\n00:42:15,320 –> 00:42:20,240
\nHe knew right from wrong.
\nHe just couldn’t bring himself <\/p>\n
554
\n00:42:20,240 –> 00:42:23,640
\nto do it.
\nI can tell you where I think he <\/p>\n
555
\n00:42:23,640 –> 00:42:27,960
\nwas while his sons are being
\nraised in Canaanite fashion. <\/p>\n
556
\n00:42:29,920 –> 00:42:32,520
\nI think he probably ran away
\nagain, but this time to the <\/p>\n
557
\n00:42:32,520 –> 00:42:37,200
\nflocks, like Jacob did.
\nSee what happens when the <\/p>\n
558
\n00:42:37,200 –> 00:42:38,840
\nmarriage isn’t working out?
\nWhat do you do? <\/p>\n
559
\n00:42:39,600 –> 00:42:41,760
\nYou got to you got to eat your
\nfulfillment somewhere. <\/p>\n
560
\n00:42:42,400 –> 00:42:43,880
\nWell, you throw yourself into
\nyour career. <\/p>\n
561
\n00:42:43,880 –> 00:42:51,480
\nThat’s what you do, right?
\nSo he’s out. <\/p>\n
562
\n00:42:51,480 –> 00:42:57,120
\nI think he’s watching the flocks
\nanywhere. <\/p>\n
563
\n00:42:57,120 –> 00:43:00,400
\nI’d like to be home with that
\nbrawling woman and her sons. <\/p>\n
564
\n00:43:01,800 –> 00:43:05,160
\nHe probably found that trying to
\nraise his sons after the customs<\/p>\n
565
\n00:43:05,160 –> 00:43:08,120
\nof Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob
\nwhile living in a Canaanite city<\/p>\n
566
\n00:43:08,320 –> 00:43:12,000
\namongst Canaanites married to a
\nCanaanite was a tad harder than <\/p>\n
567
\n00:43:12,000 –> 00:43:20,940
\nhe thought it’d be.
\nSo how long was it until Judas <\/p>\n
568
\n00:43:20,940 –> 00:43:26,940
\nsaw that his answer, Bathshewa,
\nwas maybe the worst mistake he’d<\/p>\n
569
\n00:43:26,940 –> 00:43:29,940
\never made.
\nAnd now he’s stuck. <\/p>\n
570
\n00:43:31,520 –> 00:43:38,200
\nNow he’s added misery on top of
\nmisery, problems on top of <\/p>\n
571
\n00:43:38,200 –> 00:43:43,320
\nproblems.
\nThe beautiful Bathsheba had <\/p>\n
572
\n00:43:43,320 –> 00:43:46,520
\nperhaps revealed a true
\nugliness. <\/p>\n
573
\n00:43:48,760 –> 00:43:57,120
\nAnd are we surprised when we
\npursue beauty, money and power, <\/p>\n
574
\n00:43:58,080 –> 00:43:59,840
\nhow that doesn’t really turn out
\nfor us? <\/p>\n
575
\n00:44:01,880 –> 00:44:04,440
\nIt’s not nearly as satisfying as
\nwe hoped. <\/p>\n
576
\n00:44:05,520 –> 00:44:08,880
\nSo I think there’s a proverb
\nthat summarizes Jacob at this <\/p>\n
577
\n00:44:08,880 –> 00:44:18,480
\ntime, Proverbs 27, verse 15.
\nA foolish child, uh, is a <\/p>\n
578
\n00:44:18,480 –> 00:44:21,680
\nfather’s ruin and a quarrelsome
\nwife. <\/p>\n
579
\n00:44:21,800 –> 00:44:26,200
\nBathsheba is like a constant
\ndripping of a leaky roof. <\/p>\n
580
\n00:44:29,200 –> 00:44:35,640
\nAnd it was brothers and sisters
\ninto this chaos that Judah <\/p>\n
581
\n00:44:35,640 –> 00:44:39,840
\nbrought Tamar, and it’s her part
\nof the story that we’ll take up <\/p>\n
582
\n00:44:39,840 –> 00:44:40,280
\ntomorrow.\n<\/p><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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