{"id":1218,"date":"2024-11-17T22:00:00","date_gmt":"2024-11-17T22:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/goodchristadelphiantalks.com\/index.php\/podcast\/322-ben-brinkerhoff-the-seeds-of-resentment\/"},"modified":"2026-07-13T08:29:42","modified_gmt":"2026-07-13T08:29:42","slug":"322-ben-brinkerhoff-the-seeds-of-resentment","status":"publish","type":"podcast","link":"https:\/\/goodchristadelphiantalks.com\/index.php\/podcast\/322-ben-brinkerhoff-the-seeds-of-resentment\/","title":{"rendered":"322: Ben Brinkerhoff – The Seeds of Resentment"},"content":{"rendered":"

This week we are listening Class 1 from the series \u201cOvercoming Resentment\u201d by Bro. Ben Brinkerhoff entitled \u201cThe Seeds of Resentment\u201d that was given at the Rocky Mountain Bible School in United States in 2023. To hear the rest of the 5 class series, check out the GCT Extended Podcast!<\/p>\n

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\nWelcome to good Chris Selfian
\ntalks. <\/p>\n

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\nI’m Levi.
\nI’m Chris. <\/p>\n

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\nI’m Jason.
\nAnd I’m Brian, thank you for <\/p>\n

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\njoining us this week.
\nOn this podcast, we select one <\/p>\n

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\ntalk a week to help us get the
\nBible in our Daily News feed. <\/p>\n

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\nEach week we post talk that we
\npreviewed from suggestions sent <\/p>\n

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\nin by listeners from around the
\nworld. <\/p>\n

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\nThen we record a short intro
\nbeforehand as a personalized <\/p>\n

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\nrecommendation to you on why we
\nare sharing the talk. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd now let’s talk more about
\nthis week’s talk. <\/p>\n

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\nHi everyone, it’s Jason Hensley.
\nThis week we are going to be <\/p>\n

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\nlistening to a class by brother
\nBen Brinkerhoff given in 2023 at<\/p>\n

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\nthe Rocky Mountain Bible School.
\nThis is the first in his series <\/p>\n

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\nof five.
\nIt’s all about resentment. <\/p>\n

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\nThe whole series is and yet it’s
\nsort of like a case study of <\/p>\n

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\nJudah, the brother of Joseph and
\nthe son of Jacob. <\/p>\n

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\nI liked this Series A lot, and
\nin fact, I had a hard time <\/p>\n

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\nchoosing which of the five
\nclasses to put up here. <\/p>\n

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\nBut ultimately, what I decided
\nto go with was really the first <\/p>\n

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\nclass, primarily because I hope
\nthat you listen to the other <\/p>\n

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\nones.
\nAnd thus I didn’t want to start <\/p>\n

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\nyou off on Class 4 or Class 5.
\nI feel like it’s a little bit <\/p>\n

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\nharder to listen to the rest of
\nthe series when you start in the<\/p>\n

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\nmiddle.
\nSo I chose class one just <\/p>\n

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\nbecause hopefully it lays that
\nfoundation for you to then be <\/p>\n

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\nable to go and listen to the
\nothers. <\/p>\n

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\nThis is a series, as I said, on
\nresentment. <\/p>\n

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\nI think it’s one of those things
\nthat we all struggle with. <\/p>\n

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\nWe all struggle with letting go,
\nand in considering the story of <\/p>\n

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\nJudah, we’re given some
\nincredibly powerful and <\/p>\n

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\nbeautiful pictures of God’s
\ngrace in action and what that <\/p>\n

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\ngrace inspires Judah to do.
\nSo I hope you enjoy this and I <\/p>\n

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\nhope you enjoy the rest of the
\nseries. <\/p>\n

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\nSo here’s Ben Briggerhoff, Rocky
\nMountain Bible School 2023, and <\/p>\n

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\nthis class is titled The Seeds
\nof Resentment. <\/p>\n

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\nGood morning, Rocky Band Bible
\nschool. <\/p>\n

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\nAll right, wow.
\nRaise your hand if you are a <\/p>\n

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\nBrinkerhoff or married to one,
\nright? <\/p>\n

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\nThank you for the support.
\nRaise your hand if you want to <\/p>\n

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\nbe married to a Brinkerhoff,
\nright? <\/p>\n

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\nSee Dave and Nancy, I did that
\nfor you. <\/p>\n

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\nAsk that during the teen class
\nand get some interesting <\/p>\n

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\nresponses.
\nI think I’ll let you know how <\/p>\n

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\nthat goes.
\nI listen I I bring warm <\/p>\n

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\ngreetings from your brothers and
\nsisters in the Christchurch, N <\/p>\n

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\nEcclesia in New Zealand.
\nMy only sadness really is the <\/p>\n

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\nfact my wife Alyssa and my four
\nchildren cannot be with me this <\/p>\n

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\nweek.
\nThey want me to convey their <\/p>\n

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\nlove to you as well.
\nSo you know, Jesus tells us and <\/p>\n

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\nbrother Josh, even last night he
\nsays, listen, there’s two great <\/p>\n

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\ncommandments and you know what
\nthey are. <\/p>\n

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\nSo the love of the Lord your God
\nwith all your heart, soul, mind <\/p>\n

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\nand strength.
\nAnd what’s the other one? <\/p>\n

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\nIf also love your neighbor as
\nyourself, right? <\/p>\n

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\nAnd we and Christian Elphis, we
\nlove, we love this, we love it. <\/p>\n

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\nWe like to talk about it, we
\nlike to expound it, we like to <\/p>\n

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\ndiscuss it, exhort on it.
\nIt’s just the doing it that’s <\/p>\n

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\nhard.
\nThat’s the part. <\/p>\n

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\nThat’s the part that’s hard.
\nAnd you ask yourself the <\/p>\n

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\nquestion, why?
\nWhat’s getting in the way? <\/p>\n

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\nListen to love your neighbors
\nyourself. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s this verse is found in
\nMatthew, it’s found in Mark, <\/p>\n

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\nit’s found in Luke, it’s found
\nin Galatians and Romans. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd if you missed the point,
\nit’s found in the book of James.<\/p>\n

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\nIt’s everywhere, right?
\nAnd what what’s getting in our <\/p>\n

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\nway?
\nAnd if you go back to the Rick <\/p>\n

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\nof the verse in its original
\ncontext in Leviticus, I think we<\/p>\n

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\nget a clue to what the problem
\nmight be. <\/p>\n

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\nOK Leviticus chapter 19 and
\nverse 17 for context. <\/p>\n

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\nYou shall not hate your brother
\nin your heart, but you shall <\/p>\n

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\nreason with your neighbor, who
\nlest you bear sin because of <\/p>\n

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\nhim, you shall not take
\nvengeance or bear any grudge <\/p>\n

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\nagainst the sons of your own
\npeople, but you shall love your <\/p>\n

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\nneighbor as yourself.
\nI am the Lord so. <\/p>\n

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\nSo why do we find so much
\ntrouble following this beautiful<\/p>\n

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\ncommandment of the Lord?
\nPerhaps the reason is, is that <\/p>\n

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\nwe’re bearing a grudge.
\nAnd if we have hate in our heart<\/p>\n

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\nand we’re bearing a grudge, we,
\nwe can’t love. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s, it’s like bearing a grudge
\nand love. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s like they’re these
\nopposites. <\/p>\n

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\nAdmit it.
\nIf you have, if you are bearing <\/p>\n

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\na grudge in your heart, love is
\nvery hard. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd if you have a lot of love in
\nyour heart, you’re probably not <\/p>\n

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\nbearing very many grudges.
\nThese, these things are like <\/p>\n

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\nopposites to one another.
\nAnd, and I’d like to talk to you<\/p>\n

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\nthis week from time to time
\nabout love, if I can. <\/p>\n

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\nBut you know, if, if I talk to
\nyou about love and you’re being <\/p>\n

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\na grudge, it’s like taking a cup
\nfull of that’s full of water and<\/p>\n

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\nputting under a spigot and the,
\nthe listen, the water’s going to<\/p>\n

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\nhit the cup.
\nIt’s just run over the side. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s not going to stick.
\nBecause if you have a grudge in <\/p>\n

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\nyour heart that is, that is
\nactually preventing you from <\/p>\n

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\nfrom having love.
\nSo for its simplicity in these <\/p>\n

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\nstudies I’m going to refer to
\ngrudges and hate primarily using<\/p>\n

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\nthis word resentment because
\nit’s a word that captures the <\/p>\n

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\nattitude of the person I want to
\nconsider together. <\/p>\n

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\nNow resentment comes from 2
\nparts of speech. <\/p>\n

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\nThe first word is re and not as
\nin my uncle’s name. <\/p>\n

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\nNo re as in to do again as in
\nrestore or replay, right? <\/p>\n

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\nYou’re doing something again.
\nAnd the second part of speech <\/p>\n

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\nthis word derives from is this
\nword sentire, which is Latin for<\/p>\n

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\nto feel.
\nSo the word resentment really <\/p>\n

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\nmeans to feel again.
\nAnd it’s appropriate word for <\/p>\n

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\nsomeone who is bearing a grudge.
\nMany of us feel old hurts and <\/p>\n

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\npains again and again and, and,
\nand we replay the scene. <\/p>\n

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\nYou know how it is, admit it.
\nYou replay the scene in your <\/p>\n

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\nbrain and, and, and you and you
\nre victimize yourself while <\/p>\n

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\nwhile simultaneously and
\nironically promising that you’re<\/p>\n

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\nnever going to let yourself be
\nhurt like that again. <\/p>\n

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\nWhilst you are thinking about
\nthe thing that hurts you, whilst<\/p>\n

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\nyou are hurting yourself again,
\nright? <\/p>\n

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\nI see some nods.
\nYou know who you are, right? <\/p>\n

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\nRight.
\nI believe that all of us <\/p>\n

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\nstruggle with this.
\nSo what can we do about it? <\/p>\n

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\nPerhaps one of the best things
\nwe can do about it is to look at<\/p>\n

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\nthe example in scripture of one
\nwho overcame resentment. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd now Leviticus says you shall
\nnot hate your brother in your <\/p>\n

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\nheart.
\nAnd the Bible reads, leaves a <\/p>\n

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\nrecord of a man that did hate
\nhis brother in his heart and he <\/p>\n

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\nappeared to have every valid
\nreason to do so. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd his name was Judah.
\nNow consider, consider for a <\/p>\n

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\nmoment Judah.
\nJudah goes from hating his <\/p>\n

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\nbrother to selling him into
\nslavery to lying about it to his<\/p>\n

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\nfather.
\nThis is notice the downward <\/p>\n

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\ntrend here.
\nIt’s not getting any better, <\/p>\n

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\nright?
\nHe runs away from the ecclesia, <\/p>\n

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\nthen he marries in the world.
\nOh, and then he falls into <\/p>\n

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\nsexual sin.
\nThis is Judah. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd then he sacrifices himself
\nfor his father. <\/p>\n

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\nHow does someone go from there
\nback up to here? <\/p>\n

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\nHow does that happen?
\nHow can I do that? <\/p>\n

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\nHow can you do that?
\nSo in our first 3 1\/2 studies <\/p>\n

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\ntogether, we’re going to see how
\nJudah unwillingly falls into the<\/p>\n

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\npit of resentment.
\nAnd our last 1 1\/2 studies, <\/p>\n

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\nwe’re going to see how God lifts
\nhim out of that pit and restores<\/p>\n

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\nhim.
\nSo for today’s class, we’re <\/p>\n

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\ngoing to look at where Judah’s
\nresentment originated, and we’ll<\/p>\n

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\nconclude with some thoughts
\nabout how the process of <\/p>\n

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\nresentment works within us, if
\nthat’s OK, brothers and sisters.<\/p>\n

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\nNow Judah was born the fourth
\nson of Jacob by his mother Leia.<\/p>\n

141
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\nHis name means praise and upon
\nhis birth his mother says in <\/p>\n

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\nGenesis 29 and verse 35, his
\nmother says, now I will praise <\/p>\n

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\nthe Lord.
\nTherefore she called his name <\/p>\n

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\nJudah and left bearing.
\nNow, perhaps more than anything,<\/p>\n

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\nI think this speaks to the
\ncharacter of Leah, a woman that <\/p>\n

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\ncalled on God’s memorial name
\nand praise. <\/p>\n

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\nI mean, she goes from seeking
\nthe praise and approval of her <\/p>\n

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\nhusband.
\nRemember she called Levi Levi <\/p>\n

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\nbecause she’s saying, now my
\nhusband will be joined unto me. <\/p>\n

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\nShe’s seeking what she’s seeking
\nthe approval and affections of <\/p>\n

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\nher husband.
\nAnd now with with, with Judah, <\/p>\n

152
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\nshe’s she’s calling on God’s
\nname and praise and she appears <\/p>\n

153
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\nto have adopted the God of Jacob
\nas her own. <\/p>\n

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\nBut, but Jacob doesn’t see her
\nin this light. <\/p>\n

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\nSo perhaps blinded by Rachel’s
\nbeauty or being deceived, angry,<\/p>\n

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\nbeing deceived at Laban
\nScripture uses really strong <\/p>\n

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\n00:11:12,680 –> 00:11:17,000
\nlanguage to describe the state
\nof Leah in this household. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd turn with me to Genesis
\nchapter 29 and we’re going to <\/p>\n

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\n00:11:21,800 –> 00:11:32,120
\nlook at this verses 30 and 31.
\nAnd it says there Jacob went in <\/p>\n

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\nunto Rachel, and he loved also
\nRachel more than Leah, and <\/p>\n

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\n00:11:37,440 –> 00:11:40,280
\nserved with him yet seven other
\nyears. <\/p>\n

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\n00:11:41,320 –> 00:11:47,120
\nAnd the Lord saw that Leah was
\nhated, and he opened her womb, <\/p>\n

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\n00:11:47,240 –> 00:11:52,720
\nbut Rachel was barren.
\nSo Leah was hated and God saw <\/p>\n

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\n00:11:52,800 –> 00:11:55,480
\nit.
\nNow we know that Leah was not as<\/p>\n

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\npretty as her sister, but you
\nwonder for a moment, what did <\/p>\n

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\n00:12:02,400 –> 00:12:06,760
\nJudah and his brethren see when
\nthey looked at Leah? <\/p>\n

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\n00:12:08,560 –> 00:12:10,680
\nDo you think to them that Leah
\nwas beautiful? <\/p>\n

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\n00:12:12,560 –> 00:12:15,480
\nTo me my mother is beautiful.
\nAnd I thought that before I had <\/p>\n

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\nany concept of of looks or
\nattraction. <\/p>\n

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\n00:12:19,640 –> 00:12:22,320
\nYou know, a mother is beautiful
\nbecause of the way she loves her<\/p>\n

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\n00:12:22,320 –> 00:12:26,760
\nchild.
\nYou know the, the way a child is<\/p>\n

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\n00:12:26,760 –> 00:12:29,520
\nloved by a it’s, it’s different
\nthan any love a man ever <\/p>\n

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\nreceives in any other part of
\nhis life. <\/p>\n

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\n00:12:32,320 –> 00:12:34,160
\nListen, wives, you know you
\ndon’t love us the way our <\/p>\n

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\nmothers did.
\nYou know we still, you know you <\/p>\n

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\ndon’t, right?
\nAnd for a while, we resented you<\/p>\n

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\nfor it, right?
\nIt’s a special type of love <\/p>\n

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\nbecause it is just like, you
\nknow, I could, I listen, my, <\/p>\n

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\nI’ve done a lot of bad things
\nand my mom defended me for most <\/p>\n

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\nof them.
\nYou know, my wife doesn’t do <\/p>\n

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\nthat, right?
\nAnd it’s a special thing, you <\/p>\n

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\n00:12:59,840 –> 00:13:03,520
\nknow?
\nSo, so you know, Can you <\/p>\n

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\nimagine?
\nI just want you to imagine Judah<\/p>\n

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\nnot being able to understand
\nJacob’s disposition towards his <\/p>\n

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\n00:13:11,280 –> 00:13:15,320
\nmother that that although she
\nwas devoted to the chores and <\/p>\n

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\nrequirements of the household,
\nthat she was clearly second <\/p>\n

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\nbest.
\nNow have you ever seen your <\/p>\n

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\n00:13:22,640 –> 00:13:26,200
\nmother cry?
\nDid you want to save her? <\/p>\n

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\n00:13:26,200 –> 00:13:33,200
\nDo you want to rescue her?
\nSo how was Judah understand that<\/p>\n

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\nall his mother was faithful and
\nshe loved the Lord and she <\/p>\n

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\n00:13:35,400 –> 00:13:39,080
\ndevoted herself to the family?
\nThat all she got was constant <\/p>\n

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\nheartache being a a distant
\nsecond in her husband’s <\/p>\n

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\naffections.
\nYou know there’s no justice in <\/p>\n

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\nit.
\nThere’s no right in it See <\/p>\n

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\nresentment.
\nIt typically stems from a real <\/p>\n

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\nor perceived injustice and I
\nthink this is where the seeds of<\/p>\n

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\nJews resentment come from.
\nI, I try, I scanned the web to <\/p>\n

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\nfind a, a, a picture that could
\ncapture the essence of what <\/p>\n

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\ninjustice feels like.
\nAnd I think you’re going to, I <\/p>\n

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\nthink you’re going to sympathize
\nwith this picture. <\/p>\n

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\n00:14:18,840 –> 00:14:22,960
\nYou know what?
\nWhat do you think? <\/p>\n

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\n00:14:23,080 –> 00:14:26,080
\nRight?
\nI mean, clearly resentment is <\/p>\n

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\n00:14:26,080 –> 00:14:29,560
\nnot a problem only for adults is
\nwhat that tells you right away, <\/p>\n

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\nright?
\nSo, but, but more to the point, <\/p>\n

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\n00:14:37,400 –> 00:14:41,760
\nat what age you think that that
\nJudah and his brethren began to <\/p>\n

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\n00:14:41,760 –> 00:14:44,240
\nrealize that Leah was not the
\nonly victim of Jacob’s <\/p>\n

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\n00:14:44,240 –> 00:14:48,240
\nfavoritism?
\nAt what age did he suspect that <\/p>\n

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\n00:14:48,240 –> 00:14:51,400
\nJacob’s favoritism, it carried
\nover to the next generation? <\/p>\n

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\n00:14:52,240 –> 00:14:54,720
\nYou know, suspicions would have
\nstarted young, but they would <\/p>\n

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\nhave been confirmed in
\nadolescence. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd I tell you the point in
\nwhich they were crystallized. <\/p>\n

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\n00:14:58,560 –> 00:15:02,560
\nTurn with me over to Genesis
\nchapter 33, verses 1 and 2, <\/p>\n

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\nwhere these suspicions and
\nconcerns were crystallized in in<\/p>\n

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\nthe young mind of Judah.
\nGenesis chapter 33 and turning <\/p>\n

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\n00:15:13,120 –> 00:15:17,200
\nin at verse one.
\nAnd Jacob lifted up his eyes and<\/p>\n

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\n00:15:17,200 –> 00:15:21,760
\nlooked, And behold, Esau came,
\nand with him 400 men. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd he divided the children unto
\nLeah, and unto Rachel, and unto <\/p>\n

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\nthe two handmaids.
\nAnd he put the handmaids and <\/p>\n

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\ntheir children foremost, and
\nLeah and her children after, and<\/p>\n

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\nRachel and Joseph hindmost.
\nIt doesn’t take any kind of <\/p>\n

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\ndegree in military strategy to
\nunderstand Jacob’s intentions <\/p>\n

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\nhere.
\nYou can imagine Judah looking at<\/p>\n

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\nthe situation and realizing to
\nhimself, wow, if someone has to <\/p>\n

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\ndie, my father would prefer it
\nwas me, my brethren and my <\/p>\n

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\nmother before Rachel and Joseph.
\nYou know, at this point he would<\/p>\n

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\nbecome hyper aware of Joseph.
\nHe would he would look for any <\/p>\n

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\nevidence of special treatment
\nand there was evidence of <\/p>\n

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\nspecial treatment.
\nAnd when he found it, he would <\/p>\n

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\nwince in pain because his worst
\nfears were being realized. <\/p>\n

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\nSee, deep inside every child you
\nknow, this is a deep desire to <\/p>\n

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\nbe loved because love fills an
\nunconscious and deep need for <\/p>\n

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\nsecurity.
\nChildren feel safe when they’re <\/p>\n

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\nloved because their existence
\ndepends on the unselfish love of<\/p>\n

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\ntheir parents.
\nSo if parental love is <\/p>\n

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\nthreatened in any way, real or
\nperceived, you’re going to feel <\/p>\n

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\nit instantly.
\nYou’re going to feel it deeply. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd in Judah’s case, resentment
\nis not born out of perceived <\/p>\n

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\ninjustice, but injustice
\nregarding a deep and instinctual<\/p>\n

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\nneed for security.
\nAnd what greater security can <\/p>\n

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\nyou have than when being
\nthreatened by an enemy that your<\/p>\n

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\nfather’s terrified is going to
\nkill you? <\/p>\n

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\n00:17:15,640 –> 00:17:18,720
\nSo in Genesis 37, as Jacob’s
\nsons grow in strength and <\/p>\n

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\nindependence, their insecurity
\nand pain is transformed into <\/p>\n

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\nanother feeling, and that’s
\ndescribed to us in the Bible as <\/p>\n

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\nhatred.
\nAnd turn over to Genesis chapter<\/p>\n

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\n37 now, and we’re going to look
\nat verses 3:00 to 4:00. <\/p>\n

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\n00:17:33,920 –> 00:17:38,200
\nNow Israel loved Joseph more
\nthan all his children because he<\/p>\n

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\nwas the son of his old age and
\nhe made him a coat of many <\/p>\n

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\ncolors.
\nWhen his brethren saw that their<\/p>\n

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\nfather loved Joseph more than
\nall his brethren, they hated <\/p>\n

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\nJoseph and could not speak
\npeaceably unto him. <\/p>\n

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\n00:17:54,080 –> 00:17:58,400
\nYou know, we learned more about
\nthe brother’s feelings in verses<\/p>\n

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\n8:00 and 11:00.
\nIn verse 8 we read, And the <\/p>\n

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\nbrethren said unto Joseph, Shalt
\nthou indeed reign over us, or <\/p>\n

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\nshalt thou indeed have dominion
\nover us? <\/p>\n

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\n00:18:08,480 –> 00:18:12,880
\nAnd they hated him yet more for
\nhis dreams and for his words. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd in verse 11 we read, And the
\nbrethren envied him, but his <\/p>\n

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\nfather observed the saying.
\nSo here we come to one of the <\/p>\n

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\ninevitable outcomes of
\nresentment. <\/p>\n

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\n00:18:23,360 –> 00:18:26,520
\nI’m going to describe to you 3
\ninevitable symptoms of <\/p>\n

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\nresentment.
\nSometimes you don’t know if you <\/p>\n

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\nhave resentment, but you can see
\nthe symptoms and one of the <\/p>\n

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\nsymptoms of resentment is
\ndisplaced anger. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s a displaced anger is a is a
\nnew term for an old idea. <\/p>\n

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\nIt occurs when, with, when, who
\nor what you’re venting your <\/p>\n

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\nanger at is not ultimately the
\nsource of your anger. <\/p>\n

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\nEveryone knows this.
\nI I come home from work and <\/p>\n

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\nAlyssa’s had a bad day and she’s
\nbeen looking forward to me <\/p>\n

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\ncoming home from work, but then
\nI do one thing out of place and <\/p>\n

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\nnow she’s mad at me.
\nBut she’s not mad at me, she’s <\/p>\n

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\njust frustrated.
\nI was supposed to be the savior <\/p>\n

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\nand it turns out I was, I turned
\nup and I was just being another <\/p>\n

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\nproblem, right?
\nHappens a lot, you know, or I’ve<\/p>\n

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\nhad a bad day at work, right?
\nAnd I come home, you know, and <\/p>\n

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\nthey’re my again.
\nI don’t like my kids are going <\/p>\n

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\nto listen to this recording one
\nday and be upset at me. <\/p>\n

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\n00:19:29,040 –> 00:19:31,160
\nThere’s the backpack right by
\nthe door. <\/p>\n

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\nYou know, you’re something you
\ntrip over it. <\/p>\n

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\n00:19:32,840 –> 00:19:35,160
\nAny dad’s ever tripped over the
\nbackpack as he came through the <\/p>\n

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\ndoor, right?
\nAnything. <\/p>\n

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\nWhat is this backpack?
\nI’m not angry at the backpack <\/p>\n

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\nI’m missing.
\nI’m angry at the stress I’ve had<\/p>\n

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\nthat day.
\nI’m displacing the anger. <\/p>\n

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\nI’m putting it at the thing I
\ncan, I can kick the thing I can,<\/p>\n

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\nI can take out my frustration
\non. <\/p>\n

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\nSo Judah’s and his brother’s
\nfirst problem with Joseph isn’t <\/p>\n

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\nJoseph.
\nIt was the love and emotional <\/p>\n

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\nsecurity they didn’t receive
\nfrom their father, but put it in<\/p>\n

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\n00:20:02,280 –> 00:20:08,200
\na position where they couldn’t
\ndirect that fear and anger <\/p>\n

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\ntowards their father.
\nThey displaced it and they put <\/p>\n

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\n00:20:10,800 –> 00:20:15,400
\nit on Joseph.
\nSee, Judah knew something really<\/p>\n

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\nwell.
\nDo you know what he knew? <\/p>\n

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\nHe knew what it was like to be
\nsecond place in the household. <\/p>\n

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\nHe’d seen it.
\nHow many countless times had he <\/p>\n

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\n00:20:25,080 –> 00:20:29,200
\nseen his mother’s tears as Jacob
\nonce again went into Rachel’s <\/p>\n

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\n00:20:29,200 –> 00:20:33,840
\ntent and not Leah’s tent?
\nHow many times had he seen his <\/p>\n

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\n00:20:33,840 –> 00:20:37,800
\nmother’s extraordinary efforts
\nand hard work and diligence not <\/p>\n

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\ngo rewarded for any praise or
\naffections? <\/p>\n

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\n00:20:41,400 –> 00:20:43,960
\nSee, he knew what it was like to
\nbe second best and he wanted no <\/p>\n

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\n00:20:43,960 –> 00:20:48,120
\npart of it.
\nNow it’s fascinating to me that <\/p>\n

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\nthe two attitudes that Judah and
\nhis brethren demonstrate towards<\/p>\n

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\n00:20:51,840 –> 00:20:54,880
\nJoseph we’re we’re told there in
\nchapter 37, there are two things<\/p>\n

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\nwe’re told.
\nOne is hate and the other is <\/p>\n

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\n00:20:58,360 –> 00:21:02,720
\nenvy.
\nNow it’s probably not <\/p>\n

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\n00:21:02,720 –> 00:21:08,200
\ncoincidence that these are the
\nthe exact 2 attitudes that Judah<\/p>\n

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\n00:21:08,200 –> 00:21:11,040
\nwould experience growing up,
\nright? <\/p>\n

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\n00:21:11,240 –> 00:21:14,520
\nWe already read about hate,
\ndidn’t we, when which says that <\/p>\n

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\n00:21:14,520 –> 00:21:17,120
\nLeah was hated and and so God
\nopened her womb. <\/p>\n

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\n00:21:17,360 –> 00:21:20,920
\nBut what about envy?
\nWe read about envy in Genesis <\/p>\n

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\nchapter 30 verse one.
\nWe read there and Rachel saw <\/p>\n

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\nthat she bared Jacob no children
\nand Rachel envied her sister and<\/p>\n

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\nsaid to Jacob give me children
\nelse I die. <\/p>\n

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\n00:21:33,400 –> 00:21:36,560
\nSo what this table shows is is
\nwhat what Judah learned as a <\/p>\n

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\nchild.
\nHe learned envy and he saw <\/p>\n

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\nhatred.
\nWell, it just so happens that <\/p>\n

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\n00:21:44,760 –> 00:21:46,240
\nwhat does he act out as an
\nadult? <\/p>\n

317
\n00:21:48,640 –> 00:21:51,680
\nHis brethren envied him and they
\nhated him. <\/p>\n

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\n00:21:55,200 –> 00:22:02,280
\nWe can observe this irony.
\nHurt people seem to hurt people <\/p>\n

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\nthe way they were hurt.
\nJust observe that for a moment. <\/p>\n

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\n00:22:08,000 –> 00:22:09,480
\nDo you see that to be true in
\nyourself? <\/p>\n

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\n00:22:10,960 –> 00:22:17,320
\nHurt people seem to hurt people
\noften the way they were hurt. <\/p>\n

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\n00:22:17,560 –> 00:22:20,040
\nI’ll give you a obvious example
\nright there from Genesis. <\/p>\n

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\nYou think Jacob liked it that
\nIsaac seemed to favor Esau over <\/p>\n

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\nhim.
\nYou think he liked that kind of <\/p>\n

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\n00:22:29,400 –> 00:22:32,520
\nfavoritism, But what does he do
\nto his kids? <\/p>\n

326
\n00:22:34,600 –> 00:22:38,000
\nHurt people seem to hurt people
\noften the way they’ve been hurt.<\/p>\n

327
\n00:22:39,880 –> 00:22:43,040
\nSo the point here is that is
\nthat Judas suffered in a home <\/p>\n

328
\n00:22:43,040 –> 00:22:45,640
\nfull of of what?
\nTwo things, hatred and envy. <\/p>\n

329
\n00:22:46,080 –> 00:22:48,600
\nAnd he does the same.
\nAnd that takes us to a second <\/p>\n

330
\n00:22:48,600 –> 00:22:52,680
\nsymptom of resentment, which is,
\nwhich is modeling. <\/p>\n

331
\n00:22:55,720 –> 00:22:58,120
\nJudah models the behaviors that
\nhurt him. <\/p>\n

332
\n00:22:59,480 –> 00:23:01,360
\nIt’s not that Judas set out to
\nbe hypocrite. <\/p>\n

333
\n00:23:01,360 –> 00:23:05,240
\nIt’s just that modeling is
\nunfortunately a common outcome <\/p>\n

334
\n00:23:05,240 –> 00:23:11,520
\nof resentment.
\nSee this word envy in Genesis <\/p>\n

335
\n00:23:11,520 –> 00:23:14,760
\n37, verse 11.
\nThis, this is an interesting <\/p>\n

336
\n00:23:14,760 –> 00:23:19,840
\nword, right?
\nIt, it’s the word kana QANA <\/p>\n

337
\n00:23:19,840 –> 00:23:24,560
\nkana, right?
\nAnd it, it drives from an Arabic<\/p>\n

338
\n00:23:24,560 –> 00:23:29,600
\nword which means to become very
\nred, right? <\/p>\n

339
\n00:23:30,240 –> 00:23:37,960
\nAnd and it’s meaning is to burn
\nwith zeal for any purpose or <\/p>\n

340
\n00:23:37,960 –> 00:23:43,000
\nanything to excite to jealousy.
\nNo, this, this is it wasn’t like<\/p>\n

341
\n00:23:43,040 –> 00:23:46,840
\nenvy going Oh yeah, I like her
\nsweater. <\/p>\n

342
\n00:23:47,560 –> 00:23:49,200
\nI’d look better in that sweater
\nthan she would. <\/p>\n

343
\n00:23:50,160 –> 00:23:55,200
\nNot that I’ll tell her yet.
\nIt’s not that kind of envy, <\/p>\n

344
\n00:23:55,200 –> 00:23:57,640
\nright?
\nThis is this is this is in the, <\/p>\n

345
\n00:23:57,800 –> 00:24:00,600
\nthis is in the depths of your,
\nyou know, your stomach’s <\/p>\n

346
\n00:24:00,600 –> 00:24:05,520
\nburning, right?
\nThey become very red for a thing<\/p>\n

347
\n00:24:05,720 –> 00:24:08,920
\nlike your, your facial
\ncomplexion is starting to change<\/p>\n

348
\n00:24:08,920 –> 00:24:13,400
\ncolor, right?
\nBecause in, in with in your <\/p>\n

349
\n00:24:13,400 –> 00:24:17,560
\ninsides.
\nAnd do you think you can control<\/p>\n

350
\n00:24:17,560 –> 00:24:20,200
\na feeling like that?
\nYou think you want to turn that <\/p>\n

351
\n00:24:20,200 –> 00:24:22,520
\non?
\nYou think you wake up in the <\/p>\n

352
\n00:24:22,520 –> 00:24:24,240
\nmorning going, do you know what
\nI want to do today? <\/p>\n

353
\n00:24:24,240 –> 00:24:26,560
\nI’ll take out the garbage and
\nthen I’ll sit there and become <\/p>\n

354
\n00:24:26,560 –> 00:24:31,240
\nred and feel horrible, right?
\nYou don’t ask for that feeling. <\/p>\n

355
\n00:24:32,160 –> 00:24:35,440
\nIt sits there and you can’t wish
\nit away. <\/p>\n

356
\n00:24:35,680 –> 00:24:38,440
\nEver had one of those feelings?
\nYou just wish it away going, <\/p>\n

357
\n00:24:38,480 –> 00:24:43,040
\nGod, I do not want this feeling.
\nYou can’t wish that feeling <\/p>\n

358
\n00:24:43,040 –> 00:24:48,040
\naway.
\nYou know, they’re not <\/p>\n

359
\n00:24:48,040 –> 00:24:52,680
\nintellectualizing this.
\nThey’re not saying, you know <\/p>\n

360
\n00:24:52,680 –> 00:24:55,520
\nthat Joseph Chep, he’s a bit of
\na goody goody, isn’t he? <\/p>\n

361
\n00:24:56,240 –> 00:24:59,560
\nYou know this isn’t a mental
\nthing, right? <\/p>\n

362
\n00:25:00,000 –> 00:25:04,800
\nThey’re they’re feeling this
\nenvy in the in the depth of <\/p>\n

363
\n00:25:04,800 –> 00:25:07,120
\ntheir gut.
\nIt says they couldn’t speak <\/p>\n

364
\n00:25:07,520 –> 00:25:09,760
\npeace to him.
\nThey couldn’t speak Shalom. <\/p>\n

365
\n00:25:11,520 –> 00:25:13,720
\nWhat do you tell me?
\nHow do you speak peace when <\/p>\n

366
\n00:25:13,720 –> 00:25:17,920
\nyou’re not feeling any peace?
\nThere’s no peace in Khanna. <\/p>\n

367
\n00:25:19,240 –> 00:25:24,840
\nKhanna is the opposite of peace.
\nKhanna is burning up with envy. <\/p>\n

368
\n00:25:26,320 –> 00:25:28,600
\nAnd that’s where the brethren
\nwere at this point in time. <\/p>\n

369
\n00:25:31,000 –> 00:25:34,280
\nThey’re fuelled by insecurity.
\nThey feel a deep sense of <\/p>\n

370
\n00:25:34,280 –> 00:25:38,880
\ninjustice.
\nAnd when you have envy deeply <\/p>\n

371
\n00:25:38,880 –> 00:25:44,040
\nburning inside of you, what do
\nyou do admit to yourself? <\/p>\n

372
\n00:25:44,040 –> 00:25:49,080
\nHave you ever felt that burning
\nsense of agitation inside of <\/p>\n

373
\n00:25:49,080 –> 00:25:52,040
\nyou?
\nHave you struck out as a result <\/p>\n

374
\n00:25:52,040 –> 00:25:55,600
\nof that?
\nHave you struck out in violence <\/p>\n

375
\n00:25:55,680 –> 00:26:01,520
\nas a result of that?
\nEver done something you’re <\/p>\n

376
\n00:26:01,520 –> 00:26:04,480
\nashamed of because it was the
\nonly way you knew to calm that <\/p>\n

377
\n00:26:04,480 –> 00:26:09,880
\ninner man?
\nIn this situation, Judah and his<\/p>\n

378
\n00:26:09,880 –> 00:26:12,040
\nbrethren can’t help but lash out
\nof their brother. <\/p>\n

379
\n00:26:14,320 –> 00:26:18,320
\nAs we know the brothers anger
\nand resentment was exacerbated <\/p>\n

380
\n00:26:18,320 –> 00:26:20,480
\nby Joseph’s dreams.
\nAnd the brothers say to Joseph <\/p>\n

381
\n00:26:20,480 –> 00:26:24,520
\nin Genesis 37, verse 8, Shalt
\nthou indeed reign over us, or <\/p>\n

382
\n00:26:24,520 –> 00:26:26,440
\nshalt thou indeed have dominion
\nover us? <\/p>\n

383
\n00:26:27,560 –> 00:26:30,480
\nAnd they hated him yet more for
\nhis dreams and for his words. <\/p>\n

384
\n00:26:32,160 –> 00:26:36,840
\nAnd when we’re in a deep sense
\nstate of hurt and envy, the <\/p>\n

385
\n00:26:36,840 –> 00:26:41,120
\nbrothers intuitively and
\nunconsciously perform the third <\/p>\n

386
\n00:26:41,120 –> 00:26:47,360
\nsymptom of resentment.
\nAnd that third symptom is skewed<\/p>\n

387
\n00:26:47,360 –> 00:26:53,000
\njudgement.
\nAnd of course, when they judge <\/p>\n

388
\n00:26:53,000 –> 00:26:57,080
\nthe brothers judge Joseph, they,
\nthey twist all the information <\/p>\n

389
\n00:26:57,080 –> 00:27:01,520
\nin the worst possible way.
\nYou know how this works, right? <\/p>\n

390
\n00:27:01,520 –> 00:27:05,600
\nWhen you’re in a grumpy state of
\nmind, you know, you know how <\/p>\n

391
\n00:27:05,600 –> 00:27:09,120
\nyou’re a state of that mind
\nwhere every tone of voice is too<\/p>\n

392
\n00:27:09,120 –> 00:27:13,560
\nsarcastic, right?
\nEvery duty we have to do, it’s <\/p>\n

393
\n00:27:13,560 –> 00:27:16,120
\njust evidence that no one else
\nin the ecclesia cares but me, <\/p>\n

394
\n00:27:16,640 –> 00:27:20,360
\nright?
\nEvery, every question you’re, <\/p>\n

395
\n00:27:20,440 –> 00:27:25,320
\nyou’re asked just offends you
\nand you become defensive and <\/p>\n

396
\n00:27:25,320 –> 00:27:33,520
\nsensitive about everything.
\nThose around you, they avoid you<\/p>\n

397
\n00:27:34,520 –> 00:27:38,800
\nbecause they can’t do anything
\nright when you’re around and and<\/p>\n

398
\n00:27:38,800 –> 00:27:43,600
\nyou interpret all information
\nthrough the distorted lens of <\/p>\n

399
\n00:27:43,600 –> 00:27:48,160
\nyour agitation.
\nAnd when you’re like this, it’s <\/p>\n

400
\n00:27:48,160 –> 00:27:55,520
\nas if your brain is in this
\npanicked define any any evidence<\/p>\n

401
\n00:27:55,520 –> 00:28:00,120
\nto support or justify or
\nrationalize your obnoxious point<\/p>\n

402
\n00:28:00,120 –> 00:28:03,720
\nof view and hateful disposition.
\nBecause darn it, if enough <\/p>\n

403
\n00:28:03,720 –> 00:28:07,040
\npeople are doing enough
\nannoying, aggravating and <\/p>\n

404
\n00:28:07,040 –> 00:28:09,880
\nhurtful things, then your bad
\nattitude is justified. <\/p>\n

405
\n00:28:12,120 –> 00:28:15,920
\nSo you’re looking for any shred
\nof evidence you can that makes <\/p>\n

406
\n00:28:15,920 –> 00:28:21,080
\nthe inside feel right.
\nAnd what’s the only answer when <\/p>\n

407
\n00:28:21,080 –> 00:28:25,760
\nyou’re like that?
\nI’m going for a run. <\/p>\n

408
\n00:28:28,240 –> 00:28:31,880
\nYou take a shower.
\nAll right, I’ll see you when I <\/p>\n

409
\n00:28:31,880 –> 00:28:33,600
\nget back.
\nBecause we’re not going to have <\/p>\n

410
\n00:28:33,600 –> 00:28:35,360
\na constructive conversation
\nright now. <\/p>\n

411
\n00:28:41,180 –> 00:28:45,260
\nAnd so and so the brothers, they
\ndon’t hear Joseph’s dream, is my<\/p>\n

412
\n00:28:45,260 –> 00:28:47,100
\npoint.
\nThey don’t hear it. <\/p>\n

413
\n00:28:47,980 –> 00:28:50,540
\nThey don’t consider the matter
\nlike Jacob did. <\/p>\n

414
\n00:28:50,900 –> 00:28:53,800
\nAnd and light of their
\nresentments and hurts, they <\/p>\n

415
\n00:28:53,800 –> 00:28:57,680
\nunconsciously judge the dreams
\nin the worst possible light. <\/p>\n

416
\n00:28:57,960 –> 00:29:02,240
\nNow the judgement was to hate
\nhim yet more for his dreams. <\/p>\n

417
\n00:29:03,400 –> 00:29:09,040
\nYet here’s the irony.
\nJoseph’s dreams did not foretell<\/p>\n

418
\n00:29:09,040 –> 00:29:13,480
\ntheir harm, but their good.
\nNow consider the matter from <\/p>\n

419
\n00:29:13,480 –> 00:29:16,120
\nGod’s point of view.
\nWhat was God accomplishing <\/p>\n

420
\n00:29:16,160 –> 00:29:17,840
\nthrough that dream?
\nDo you know, we don’t have to <\/p>\n

421
\n00:29:17,840 –> 00:29:22,600
\nguess because the scriptures,
\nthey give us the example of what<\/p>\n

422
\n00:29:22,600 –> 00:29:26,240
\nGod had in mind in the dream.
\nWe, we go to one of those really<\/p>\n

423
\n00:29:26,240 –> 00:29:29,840
\nuseful chapters, Psalm 105,
\nwhere, where the psalmist is <\/p>\n

424
\n00:29:29,840 –> 00:29:33,360
\ngiving a retelling of the, of
\nthe history of Israel to the <\/p>\n

425
\n00:29:33,360 –> 00:29:36,280
\npeople and in a, in a poem and
\nsong, so they will remember <\/p>\n

426
\n00:29:36,280 –> 00:29:39,360
\ntheir own history.
\nAnd, and the psalmist interprets<\/p>\n

427
\n00:29:39,360 –> 00:29:42,040
\nwhat’s going on here.
\nAnd we read this in Psalm one O <\/p>\n

428
\n00:29:42,040 –> 00:29:48,040
\n5, verses 20 and 21 and skipping
\nto verse 24, it says there the <\/p>\n

429
\n00:29:48,040 –> 00:29:51,920
\nking being Pharaoh loosed him,
\nmeaning Joseph, the key. <\/p>\n

430
\n00:29:51,920 –> 00:29:55,960
\nThe Pharaoh loosed Joseph, even
\nthe ruler of the people and let <\/p>\n

431
\n00:29:55,960 –> 00:29:59,280
\nhim go free.
\nHe made him Lord of his house <\/p>\n

432
\n00:29:59,400 –> 00:30:00,800
\nand ruler of his all his
\nsubstance. <\/p>\n

433
\n00:30:00,800 –> 00:30:03,000
\nSo that’s the, that’s the
\nfulfillment of that dream, is it<\/p>\n

434
\n00:30:03,000 –> 00:30:05,760
\nnot?
\nAnd then verse 24 says this. <\/p>\n

435
\n00:30:06,680 –> 00:30:10,840
\nAnd he increased his people
\ngreatly and made them stronger <\/p>\n

436
\n00:30:10,840 –> 00:30:14,520
\nthan their enemies.
\nDid it ever cross Joseph’s <\/p>\n

437
\n00:30:14,520 –> 00:30:18,560
\nbrothers minds at all?
\nThat maybe, just maybe their <\/p>\n

438
\n00:30:18,560 –> 00:30:20,400
\nbrother reigning over them was a
\ngood thing? <\/p>\n

439
\n00:30:23,640 –> 00:30:25,360
\nThat God was doing it for a
\npurpose? <\/p>\n

440
\n00:30:27,160 –> 00:30:29,240
\nThat Joseph, whose name means
\nwhat? <\/p>\n

441
\n00:30:31,000 –> 00:30:38,120
\nThe increaser, right, that God
\nmight be using Joseph to <\/p>\n

442
\n00:30:38,120 –> 00:30:42,880
\nincrease his people to make them
\nstronger than their enemies. <\/p>\n

443
\n00:30:44,480 –> 00:30:48,400
\nYou see one another symptom of
\nresentment is a complete lack of<\/p>\n

444
\n00:30:48,400 –> 00:30:52,600
\noptimism, right?
\nIt’s skewed judgement. <\/p>\n

445
\n00:30:52,920 –> 00:30:57,800
\nYou are interpreting information
\npessimistically based on <\/p>\n

446
\n00:30:57,800 –> 00:31:00,120
\nfeelings.
\nIn this case, the brothers were <\/p>\n

447
\n00:31:00,120 –> 00:31:02,920
\nsaying that that Joseph would
\nnever reign over them wrong. <\/p>\n

448
\n00:31:03,960 –> 00:31:06,840
\nAnd then they said they thought,
\nthey thought that if he did run <\/p>\n

449
\n00:31:06,840 –> 00:31:10,400
\nover them, it’d be bad for them.
\nWrong again. <\/p>\n

450
\n00:31:12,480 –> 00:31:16,920
\nBut their minds interpret and
\nrespond to their pessimistic <\/p>\n

451
\n00:31:16,920 –> 00:31:19,120
\nassumptions about the future as
\nif they were fact. <\/p>\n

452
\n00:31:19,120 –> 00:31:20,800
\nIn fact.
\nI want to, I want to outline <\/p>\n

453
\n00:31:20,800 –> 00:31:25,360
\nthis because this is so
\nimportant, how this process <\/p>\n

454
\n00:31:25,360 –> 00:31:30,000
\nworks to create sin within us.
\nOK, as I, as I go through this, <\/p>\n

455
\n00:31:30,200 –> 00:31:32,920
\nI wrote, I wrote this out of my
\nown personal experience and <\/p>\n

456
\n00:31:32,920 –> 00:31:35,480
\nmaybe this relates to you too.
\nI think, I think we’re made of <\/p>\n

457
\n00:31:35,480 –> 00:31:39,160
\nthe same stuff.
\nSo probably here’s how it works <\/p>\n

458
\n00:31:39,160 –> 00:31:40,680
\nin the mind of a resentful
\nperson. <\/p>\n

459
\n00:31:41,200 –> 00:31:44,400
\nThey take limited information.
\nIn this case, the brothers took <\/p>\n

460
\n00:31:44,400 –> 00:31:48,200
\nJoseph’s retelling of the dream.
\nThey take limited information, <\/p>\n

461
\n00:31:48,880 –> 00:31:53,000
\nyes, but then we interpret that
\nin the worst way possible. <\/p>\n

462
\n00:31:54,400 –> 00:31:59,640
\nAnd then we make pessimistic
\nassumptions based on our <\/p>\n

463
\n00:31:59,640 –> 00:32:03,160
\ninterpretation.
\nSo by the way, assumptions based<\/p>\n

464
\n00:32:03,160 –> 00:32:09,320
\non interpretations, dangerous
\nthings, then, then what we do <\/p>\n

465
\n00:32:09,320 –> 00:32:11,920
\nnow, that’s not enough, right?
\nThat’s right, right away, you’re<\/p>\n

466
\n00:32:11,920 –> 00:32:13,760
\nin a bad space.
\nBut no, we go on. <\/p>\n

467
\n00:32:16,320 –> 00:32:18,320
\nWe’re going to treat those
\nassumptions as if they’re <\/p>\n

468
\n00:32:18,320 –> 00:32:23,840
\nunbiased facts, and then we’re
\ngoing to act accordingly, <\/p>\n

469
\n00:32:24,160 –> 00:32:25,800
\nthinking that we’re doing what’s
\nright. <\/p>\n

470
\n00:32:28,880 –> 00:32:35,600
\nIs this not how it works?
\nLimited information, interpreted<\/p>\n

471
\n00:32:37,920 –> 00:32:41,400
\nassumptions based on that
\nlimited information the most <\/p>\n

472
\n00:32:41,400 –> 00:32:44,640
\npessimistic way possible.
\nBut now I’m going to act on <\/p>\n

473
\n00:32:44,640 –> 00:32:47,640
\nthose assumptions and I’m going
\nto say, well, I’m totally <\/p>\n

474
\n00:32:47,640 –> 00:32:49,040
\njustified.
\nWhy? <\/p>\n

475
\n00:32:49,040 –> 00:32:53,680
\nBecause I’ve assumed based on
\ninterpretation that then my mind<\/p>\n

476
\n00:32:53,800 –> 00:32:56,000
\nis pessimistic.
\nBut you know what? <\/p>\n

477
\n00:32:56,320 –> 00:33:00,520
\nIf I plan for the worst case
\nscenario, I guess I’m going to <\/p>\n

478
\n00:33:00,520 –> 00:33:06,080
\nbe all right no matter what.
\nAnd weren’t. <\/p>\n

479
\n00:33:06,080 –> 00:33:08,640
\nThis is exactly the process the
\nbrothers went down as they <\/p>\n

480
\n00:33:08,640 –> 00:33:13,720
\nlooked at Joseph’s dream.
\nWhat could make someone act this<\/p>\n

481
\n00:33:13,720 –> 00:33:17,720
\nway with this variety and type
\nof skewed judgement? <\/p>\n

482
\n00:33:19,000 –> 00:33:21,920
\nResentment.
\nWhat is resentment? <\/p>\n

483
\n00:33:22,200 –> 00:33:26,200
\nIt’s feeling again.
\nIt’s feeling again a real or <\/p>\n

484
\n00:33:26,200 –> 00:33:30,920
\nimagined wrong.
\nSo let’s explore how resentment <\/p>\n

485
\n00:33:30,920 –> 00:33:33,280
\nhappens and why it’s so
\nfundamental to the way that <\/p>\n

486
\n00:33:33,280 –> 00:33:36,000
\nJudah acts.
\nSo one of the clearest <\/p>\n

487
\n00:33:36,120 –> 00:33:39,440
\ndescriptions that resent we have
\nin all the Bible is actually <\/p>\n

488
\n00:33:39,440 –> 00:33:41,840
\nfound in First Corinthians
\nchapter 13, which is not where <\/p>\n

489
\n00:33:41,840 –> 00:33:44,440
\nyou’d expect to find it.
\nIs it First Corinthians chapter <\/p>\n

490
\n00:33:44,440 –> 00:33:46,920
\n13 and verse 5?
\nI’m going to read this out of <\/p>\n

491
\n00:33:46,920 –> 00:33:53,280
\nthe NIV.
\nIt says there love does not <\/p>\n

492
\n00:33:53,280 –> 00:33:58,000
\ndishonor others.
\nIt is not self seeking, it is <\/p>\n

493
\n00:33:58,000 –> 00:34:04,720
\nnot easily angered.
\nIt keeps no record of wrongs. <\/p>\n

494
\n00:34:05,960 –> 00:34:10,280
\nNow the RSV actually puts here
\nnext to 1st Corinthians chapter <\/p>\n

495
\n00:34:10,280 –> 00:34:13,840
\n13 verse 5.
\nThe RSV actually puts in love is<\/p>\n

496
\n00:34:13,840 –> 00:34:19,920
\nnot resentful, but actually the
\nwords expressed at the NIV are <\/p>\n

497
\n00:34:19,920 –> 00:34:23,920
\nthe better translation.
\nLove keeps no record of wrongs. <\/p>\n

498
\n00:34:23,920 –> 00:34:25,560
\nThat’s really what the Greek is
\ngetting at. <\/p>\n

499
\n00:34:26,320 –> 00:34:28,920
\nBoth, by the way, are better
\nthan the King James of love <\/p>\n

500
\n00:34:28,920 –> 00:34:33,120
\nthinketh no evil.
\nOK, now those of us struggle <\/p>\n

501
\n00:34:33,199 –> 00:34:35,960
\nthat struggle with resentment.
\nYou know, we keep a record of <\/p>\n

502
\n00:34:35,960 –> 00:34:37,719
\nwrongs.
\nYou know, we keep a record of <\/p>\n

503
\n00:34:37,719 –> 00:34:39,199
\nwrongs.
\nLike the bank has gave me a <\/p>\n

504
\n00:34:39,199 –> 00:34:42,360
\nrecord of my mortgage, right?
\nIt’s not going to miss a cent, <\/p>\n

505
\n00:34:42,480 –> 00:34:44,440
\nright?
\nIt knows down to the penny what <\/p>\n

506
\n00:34:44,440 –> 00:34:49,679
\nI owe.
\nNow Paul uses the same word <\/p>\n

507
\n00:34:49,679 –> 00:34:53,960
\nhere, keep a record of that same
\nword there keep a record of. <\/p>\n

508
\n00:34:54,040 –> 00:34:57,200
\nHe uses that a little bit later
\nin First Corinthians chapter 13 <\/p>\n

509
\n00:34:57,440 –> 00:35:01,160
\nto help us even get a a richer
\nsense of what this word keep a <\/p>\n

510
\n00:35:01,160 –> 00:35:05,040
\nrecord of is about.
\nNow if you go down a little bit <\/p>\n

511
\n00:35:05,040 –> 00:35:07,720
\nin the chapter, you look at
\nverse 11 when we read there in <\/p>\n

512
\n00:35:07,720 –> 00:35:10,600
\nverse 11, is this when I was a
\nchild? <\/p>\n

513
\n00:35:10,600 –> 00:35:16,800
\nI spoke as a child, I thought as
\na child, I reasoned like a <\/p>\n

514
\n00:35:16,800 –> 00:35:21,280
\nchild.
\nWhen I became a man, I gave up <\/p>\n

515
\n00:35:21,800 –> 00:35:26,520
\nchildish ways.
\nSo the word to keep a record of <\/p>\n

516
\n00:35:26,800 –> 00:35:32,840
\nis the same word in verse 11
\nreasoned when I was a child, I <\/p>\n

517
\n00:35:32,840 –> 00:35:38,440
\ncame when I was a child I kept
\nrecords like a child is what it <\/p>\n

518
\n00:35:38,440 –> 00:35:41,640
\nactually means.
\nWhen I was a child, I kept <\/p>\n

519
\n00:35:41,640 –> 00:35:46,440
\nrecords like a child.
\nNow I don’t know how your kids <\/p>\n

520
\n00:35:47,200 –> 00:35:51,960
\nkeep records, right?
\nBut you know how my keep kids <\/p>\n

521
\n00:35:51,960 –> 00:35:54,920
\nkeep records.
\nNow we have a certain language <\/p>\n

522
\n00:35:54,920 –> 00:35:57,240
\nyou don’t allow in our house.
\nDo you have language you don’t <\/p>\n

523
\n00:35:57,240 –> 00:35:59,800
\nallow in your house?
\nWe don’t have there’s a there’s <\/p>\n

524
\n00:35:59,800 –> 00:36:01,680
\na word that begins with F4
\nletters long. <\/p>\n

525
\n00:36:01,680 –> 00:36:03,240
\nWe don’t allow that word in our
\nhouse. <\/p>\n

526
\n00:36:03,240 –> 00:36:07,520
\nDo you know what that word is?
\nWell, let me just put it this <\/p>\n

527
\n00:36:07,520 –> 00:36:09,640
\nway.
\nWhen you were raising your <\/p>\n

528
\n00:36:09,640 –> 00:36:14,200
\nchildren, what is the number one
\nthing that they complained you <\/p>\n

529
\n00:36:14,200 –> 00:36:15,240
\nabout?
\nWhen they come back and they say<\/p>\n

530
\n00:36:15,240 –> 00:36:23,040
\nMommy, mommy, they say it’s not,
\nit’s not fair, right? <\/p>\n

531
\n00:36:23,240 –> 00:36:25,400
\nWe don’t allow that word.
\nIt’s a naughty word. <\/p>\n

532
\n00:36:26,560 –> 00:36:29,160
\nThat is a naughty word in the
\nBrinkerhoff household. <\/p>\n

533
\n00:36:30,640 –> 00:36:34,800
\nIt’s funny, they never seem to
\nsay that when the when the when <\/p>\n

534
\n00:36:34,800 –> 00:36:38,960
\nthe split is to their advantage.
\nYou know, I’m to this day, I’ve <\/p>\n

535
\n00:36:38,960 –> 00:36:42,000
\nnever heard one of my kids come
\nup and say, Mommy, mommy, it’s <\/p>\n

536
\n00:36:42,000 –> 00:36:43,720
\nnot fair I got too much ice
\ncream. <\/p>\n

537
\n00:36:45,600 –> 00:36:50,080
\nYeah, you know, Mommy and Mommy,
\nit’s not fair I got a longer, <\/p>\n

538
\n00:36:50,080 –> 00:36:53,080
\nlonger turn on the slide.
\nYou know that just that never <\/p>\n

539
\n00:36:53,080 –> 00:36:58,840
\nseems to happen that way.
\nYou know, fundamental to the way<\/p>\n

540
\n00:36:58,840 –> 00:37:02,160
\nthat children reason is that
\nthey keep records. <\/p>\n

541
\n00:37:02,240 –> 00:37:05,320
\nAdmit it, admit it to yourself.
\nThose who have children, raise <\/p>\n

542
\n00:37:05,320 –> 00:37:07,080
\nyour hand if your kids kept
\nrecords. <\/p>\n

543
\n00:37:08,360 –> 00:37:09,600
\nOh, some of you have Angel
\nchildren. <\/p>\n

544
\n00:37:09,600 –> 00:37:11,760
\nWho has Angel children, right,
\nright. <\/p>\n

545
\n00:37:13,040 –> 00:37:15,200
\nJonathan, I know better than
\nthat, right. <\/p>\n

546
\n00:37:18,840 –> 00:37:21,040
\nI, I have something I was going
\nto say, but I’m going to keep it<\/p>\n

547
\n00:37:21,040 –> 00:37:22,560
\nright to myself right now.
\nThat’s right. <\/p>\n

548
\n00:37:23,440 –> 00:37:30,360
\nAll right, self-control, right.
\nSo, so let me draw a little <\/p>\n

549
\n00:37:30,360 –> 00:37:32,520
\nsketch, right on the not going
\nto draw. <\/p>\n

550
\n00:37:32,520 –> 00:37:34,560
\nI’m going to show you a little
\nsketch about how I think a <\/p>\n

551
\n00:37:34,560 –> 00:37:36,400
\nchild’s brain probably works,
\nright? <\/p>\n

552
\n00:37:37,520 –> 00:37:39,400
\nYou see a seesaw to balance,
\nright? <\/p>\n

553
\n00:37:39,600 –> 00:37:41,040
\nBecause everything is a
\ncomparison. <\/p>\n

554
\n00:37:41,320 –> 00:37:44,040
\nEverything is a balance.
\nAnd at that middle of the <\/p>\n

555
\n00:37:44,040 –> 00:37:45,880
\nbalance is our perception of
\nFair. <\/p>\n

556
\n00:37:46,600 –> 00:37:49,800
\nOK, Now as we look at this
\nsketch, I want to introduce <\/p>\n

557
\n00:37:50,360 –> 00:37:52,000
\nsomething we’re going to be
\nreferring to quite a bit in <\/p>\n

558
\n00:37:52,000 –> 00:37:55,760
\nthese studies, which are the
\nfive selves of sin and the five <\/p>\n

559
\n00:37:55,760 –> 00:38:00,000
\nselves of sin are these.
\nAnd it begins with self <\/p>\n

560
\n00:38:00,200 –> 00:38:05,720
\nimportance.
\nNow as self important people, we<\/p>\n

561
\n00:38:05,720 –> 00:38:12,960
\nthink as a default I deserve to
\nhave or I expect to have just as<\/p>\n

562
\n00:38:12,960 –> 00:38:17,600
\nmuch or a little bit more than
\nthe next person because by <\/p>\n

563
\n00:38:17,600 –> 00:38:22,200
\ndefinition I’m self important.
\nNow thinking this way, this <\/p>\n

564
\n00:38:22,200 –> 00:38:25,080
\nleads to what?
\nThis leads to being easily hurt.<\/p>\n

565
\n00:38:26,520 –> 00:38:29,600
\nWe’re always keeping records.
\nWe’re counting, ensuring that we<\/p>\n

566
\n00:38:29,600 –> 00:38:33,160
\nget everything that we deserve.
\nAnd occasionally when we’re <\/p>\n

567
\n00:38:33,160 –> 00:38:38,720
\ntreated in the wrong way, our
\nmood fouls and we get bad <\/p>\n

568
\n00:38:38,720 –> 00:38:41,320
\nfeelings and judgments and
\ndefensive behaviors. <\/p>\n

569
\n00:38:42,240 –> 00:38:46,640
\nSo when that happens in our
\nchildish brain, the way we <\/p>\n

570
\n00:38:46,640 –> 00:38:51,560
\nreason as children, what happens
\nis we add a little, we go back <\/p>\n

571
\n00:38:51,560 –> 00:38:53,280
\nto our balance and we add a
\nlittle hurt. <\/p>\n

572
\n00:38:54,240 –> 00:38:57,080
\nSo now you can see our balance
\nis skewed just slightly. <\/p>\n

573
\n00:38:57,080 –> 00:38:59,960
\nYou see it’s a skewed down that
\nway because we have a hurt <\/p>\n

574
\n00:38:59,960 –> 00:39:02,040
\nthere, right?
\nWe’ve been hurt. <\/p>\n

575
\n00:39:02,480 –> 00:39:04,280
\nI didn’t get what I was
\nexpecting to get. <\/p>\n

576
\n00:39:04,520 –> 00:39:06,720
\nI wasn’t treated the way I was
\nexpected to be treated. <\/p>\n

577
\n00:39:07,680 –> 00:39:11,560
\nYou know, someone treated me
\nbadly and I’m and I’m hurt about<\/p>\n

578
\n00:39:11,560 –> 00:39:13,840
\nthat.
\nAnd you go back to the five <\/p>\n

579
\n00:39:13,840 –> 00:39:17,600
\nselves of sin and you go, OK, we
\nnotice one that comes next. <\/p>\n

580
\n00:39:17,600 –> 00:39:21,040
\nThis is self justification and
\nthat’s what we do next. <\/p>\n

581
\n00:39:21,320 –> 00:39:25,720
\nWe, we notice that our little
\nbalance isn’t even in our mind. <\/p>\n

582
\n00:39:25,920 –> 00:39:31,440
\nIt’s just, or it’s right to just
\nsay even things out a little <\/p>\n

583
\n00:39:31,440 –> 00:39:32,760
\nbit.
\nI’m just going to get even. <\/p>\n

584
\n00:39:32,760 –> 00:39:34,880
\nI’m just going to even out even
\nthings out. <\/p>\n

585
\n00:39:35,520 –> 00:39:38,960
\nAnd how do you going to do that?
\nWell, there’s myriad ways. <\/p>\n

586
\n00:39:38,960 –> 00:39:41,720
\nYou may, you may speak badly
\nabout that person. <\/p>\n

587
\n00:39:43,680 –> 00:39:45,560
\nYou may, you may give that
\nperson a little bit of the <\/p>\n

588
\n00:39:45,560 –> 00:39:48,960
\nsilent treatment, a little bit
\nof a cold shoulder or, or, or <\/p>\n

589
\n00:39:48,960 –> 00:39:52,640
\nmaybe worse, whatever it is, you
\njustify it because after all, <\/p>\n

590
\n00:39:53,200 –> 00:39:57,400
\nthey hurt you first and, and,
\nand your way, you’re just <\/p>\n

591
\n00:39:57,560 –> 00:40:01,680
\nevening things out a bit.
\nAnd as you might have guessed, <\/p>\n

592
\n00:40:01,680 –> 00:40:05,800
\nthe words of Christ found in in
\nMatthew chapter 5, you know, <\/p>\n

593
\n00:40:06,320 –> 00:40:08,920
\nlove your enemies, bless those
\nthat curse you, do good to them <\/p>\n

594
\n00:40:08,920 –> 00:40:11,320
\nthat hate you and pray for them
\nthat despitefully use you and <\/p>\n

595
\n00:40:11,320 –> 00:40:14,280
\npersecute you.
\nThose words don’t have much <\/p>\n

596
\n00:40:14,280 –> 00:40:17,240
\neffect.
\nOn the self important, self <\/p>\n

597
\n00:40:17,240 –> 00:40:21,400
\njustifying person.
\nSo we can see now that <\/p>\n

598
\n00:40:21,400 –> 00:40:26,920
\nresentment or holding on to the
\noriginal wrong has blinded us. <\/p>\n

599
\n00:40:27,960 –> 00:40:34,560
\nBecause something that’s wrong
\nseems right in our eyes because <\/p>\n

600
\n00:40:34,640 –> 00:40:37,520
\nwe’re the one who’s doing it.
\nAnd in our view, the <\/p>\n

601
\n00:40:37,520 –> 00:40:43,200
\ncircumstances called for it.
\nOf course, in this sense, the <\/p>\n

602
\n00:40:43,200 –> 00:40:47,120
\nresentment is leading to sin,
\nbut in our view, it’s justified.<\/p>\n

603
\n00:40:48,520 –> 00:40:53,240
\nIt’s justified.
\nWell, what that means is we <\/p>\n

604
\n00:40:53,240 –> 00:40:56,880
\ndon’t need to repent.
\nSo we’ve slipped from self <\/p>\n

605
\n00:40:56,880 –> 00:41:00,840
\njustification or getting even to
\nself righteousness or <\/p>\n

606
\n00:41:00,840 –> 00:41:03,400
\nrationalizing a lack of
\nrepentance afterwards. <\/p>\n

607
\n00:41:06,280 –> 00:41:08,640
\nUnfortunately, though, I, I
\ndon’t know if this is how it <\/p>\n

608
\n00:41:08,640 –> 00:41:12,480
\nworks with you, but once I
\njustify doing the wrong thing, <\/p>\n

609
\n00:41:13,560 –> 00:41:18,160
\nit becomes pretty easy to keep
\ndoing it and, and before long <\/p>\n

610
\n00:41:18,160 –> 00:41:23,040
\neven expand upon it.
\nAnd, and we may find that the, <\/p>\n

611
\n00:41:23,160 –> 00:41:25,400
\nthe balance, unfortunately, the
\nbalance of our child like <\/p>\n

612
\n00:41:25,400 –> 00:41:27,800
\nreasoning.
\nIt might even start to tip the <\/p>\n

613
\n00:41:27,800 –> 00:41:30,680
\nwrong direction.
\nYou know, it might be that, Gee,<\/p>\n

614
\n00:41:30,680 –> 00:41:33,760
\nwe’ve done a lot of sins and you
\nknow that that hurt almost It <\/p>\n

615
\n00:41:33,760 –> 00:41:38,000
\ndoesn’t even, it doesn’t even
\nseem to rationalize our, our, <\/p>\n

616
\n00:41:38,040 –> 00:41:41,720
\nour sinful response.
\nAh, ha, ha, we have a solution <\/p>\n

617
\n00:41:41,720 –> 00:41:44,520
\nto this problem, don’t we?
\nSo this is where excitement <\/p>\n

618
\n00:41:44,520 –> 00:41:47,200
\nsteps in.
\nSo in in that case, we don’t <\/p>\n

619
\n00:41:47,200 –> 00:41:48,480
\nwant this problem to last very
\nlong. <\/p>\n

620
\n00:41:48,640 –> 00:41:50,240
\nWe just remember that hurt
\nagain. <\/p>\n

621
\n00:41:51,160 –> 00:41:56,720
\nYep, and and we remember we
\nreplayed in our minds and but, <\/p>\n

622
\n00:41:57,000 –> 00:41:59,400
\nbut we’re not too honest with
\nourselves, are we? <\/p>\n

623
\n00:41:59,720 –> 00:42:04,360
\nWhen we think about that
\noriginal hurt, you know, we we <\/p>\n

624
\n00:42:04,360 –> 00:42:10,200
\njust happen to make their part a
\nlittle bit worse and we make our<\/p>\n

625
\n00:42:10,200 –> 00:42:15,880
\npart a little bit less and and
\ndoing this, we just make the <\/p>\n

626
\n00:42:15,880 –> 00:42:23,040
\nhurt a little bit bigger, just
\njust big enough to justify our <\/p>\n

627
\n00:42:25,440 –> 00:42:27,320
\nattitude and anger and
\nnegativity. <\/p>\n

628
\n00:42:28,600 –> 00:42:31,920
\nWhen we re remember, don’t we
\ndo? <\/p>\n

629
\n00:42:33,240 –> 00:42:37,880
\nWe had a little bit of
\nintention, you know, you meant <\/p>\n

630
\n00:42:37,880 –> 00:42:42,640
\nto say that.
\nYou know, that was no accident. <\/p>\n

631
\n00:42:43,960 –> 00:42:48,160
\nNot only did you do it on
\npurpose, I bet you premeditated <\/p>\n

632
\n00:42:48,160 –> 00:42:51,920
\nit.
\nIt’s not third degree murder. <\/p>\n

633
\n00:42:52,760 –> 00:42:54,160
\nIt’s not even second degree
\nmurder. <\/p>\n

634
\n00:42:54,200 –> 00:42:56,280
\nIt’s pre planned murder.
\nIt’s first degree. <\/p>\n

635
\n00:42:56,480 –> 00:43:04,360
\nYeah, we make it bigger and we
\nstart to get pretty good at this<\/p>\n

636
\n00:43:04,360 –> 00:43:07,280
\njustification game.
\nAnd before long, everywhere we <\/p>\n

637
\n00:43:07,280 –> 00:43:11,560
\nturn we find someone who’s
\nannoying us or doing something <\/p>\n

638
\n00:43:11,560 –> 00:43:14,080
\nthe wrong way or or saying the
\nwrong thing. <\/p>\n

639
\n00:43:14,080 –> 00:43:16,640
\nWe take offense at everything.
\nWe just pile up hurts. <\/p>\n

640
\n00:43:17,280 –> 00:43:20,840
\nWe pile up resentments.
\nSo what are resentments, <\/p>\n

641
\n00:43:21,160 –> 00:43:23,720
\nbrothers and sisters?
\nI want to give it a new <\/p>\n

642
\n00:43:23,720 –> 00:43:28,960
\ndefinition.
\nI think resentments are the fuel<\/p>\n

643
\n00:43:30,400 –> 00:43:32,800
\nthat allow us to feel OK doing
\nwhat’s wrong. <\/p>\n

644
\n00:43:37,040 –> 00:43:41,320
\nBefore long we find ourselves in
\na position where we literally <\/p>\n

645
\n00:43:41,320 –> 00:43:44,040
\ncan’t forgive the wrongs done to
\nothers. <\/p>\n

646
\n00:43:45,720 –> 00:43:48,240
\nNow, why can’t you forgive the
\nwrongs done to others? <\/p>\n

647
\n00:43:48,240 –> 00:43:51,680
\nIf you’re full of resentment,
\nhow could you? <\/p>\n

648
\n00:43:53,880 –> 00:43:58,000
\nIf you forgave, you’d be sitting
\non a huge pile of sins without <\/p>\n

649
\n00:43:58,000 –> 00:44:01,880
\nanything to justify them with.
\nNone of us are going to do that.<\/p>\n

650
\n00:44:05,200 –> 00:44:08,960
\nSo we’re going to continue with
\nthis diagram in our future <\/p>\n

651
\n00:44:08,960 –> 00:44:10,880
\ntalks.
\nWe’re kind of moved down the <\/p>\n

652
\n00:44:10,880 –> 00:44:15,480
\nprocess into self loathing and
\nself gratification. <\/p>\n

653
\n00:44:15,520 –> 00:44:19,280
\nBut for the moment, I want you
\nto see that this is the process <\/p>\n

654
\n00:44:19,280 –> 00:44:22,960
\nthat Judah went down.
\nHe was the man that Paul <\/p>\n

655
\n00:44:22,960 –> 00:44:26,160
\ndescribes in Titus, not
\nliterally, but figuratively. <\/p>\n

656
\n00:44:27,040 –> 00:44:32,200
\nPaul says in Titus 3 verse 3
\nthat we ought to avoid those who<\/p>\n

657
\n00:44:32,200 –> 00:44:34,840
\nare full of hate, envy, living
\nin malice. <\/p>\n

658
\n00:44:34,840 –> 00:44:36,880
\nNow, living in malice means to
\nlive in ill will. <\/p>\n

659
\n00:44:37,640 –> 00:44:44,040
\nLiving in I’ll will, deceived
\nand foolish. <\/p>\n

660
\n00:44:45,280 –> 00:44:49,880
\nSo often, living in I’ll will,
\nWe are deceived because we’re <\/p>\n

661
\n00:44:49,880 –> 00:44:53,040
\nlying to ourselves.
\nWe’re making it. <\/p>\n

662
\n00:44:53,520 –> 00:44:55,840
\nWe’re making a horrible
\nsituation even worse. <\/p>\n

663
\n00:44:59,280 –> 00:45:03,960
\nSo Judah’s problem began with
\nhurt that was real. <\/p>\n

664
\n00:45:04,480 –> 00:45:06,840
\nIt was real, and it was
\nundeserved. <\/p>\n

665
\n00:45:08,160 –> 00:45:12,880
\nIt was hurt that he nursed in
\nhis heart, and he used it to <\/p>\n

666
\n00:45:12,880 –> 00:45:14,800
\njustify treating Joseph
\nBaddeley. <\/p>\n

667
\n00:45:16,360 –> 00:45:18,240
\nBut you know a funny thing about
\ntreating Joseph Baddeley? <\/p>\n

668
\n00:45:19,280 –> 00:45:21,080
\nIt didn’t make the pain in his
\nheart any less. <\/p>\n

669
\n00:45:23,240 –> 00:45:27,560
\nThere was a benefit, though, of
\nresentment because it allowed <\/p>\n

670
\n00:45:27,560 –> 00:45:31,480
\nJudah to justify his actions and
\nbeing justified. <\/p>\n

671
\n00:45:31,480 –> 00:45:34,840
\nHis actions grew worse and
\nworse, and his attitude grew <\/p>\n

672
\n00:45:34,840 –> 00:45:38,640
\nworse and worse.
\nBefore long, Judah was looking <\/p>\n

673
\n00:45:38,640 –> 00:45:42,600
\nto find fault.
\nHe was full of displaced anger. <\/p>\n

674
\n00:45:42,880 –> 00:45:47,280
\nHe was modeling hatred and envy,
\nand he was acting with skewed <\/p>\n

675
\n00:45:47,440 –> 00:45:54,760
\njudgement of facts.
\nIn Paul’s words, Judah was <\/p>\n

676
\n00:45:54,760 –> 00:45:57,600
\nthinking like a child keeping
\nrecords of wrongs. <\/p>\n

677
\n00:45:57,600 –> 00:46:01,640
\nHe was counting wrongs.
\nWhich brings us to the question,<\/p>\n

678
\n00:46:02,600 –> 00:46:09,520
\nwhat wrongs are you counting?
\nPerhaps it’s useful in light of <\/p>\n

679
\n00:46:09,520 –> 00:46:12,800
\nthat to ask what God is
\ncounting, because the same word <\/p>\n

680
\n00:46:13,120 –> 00:46:17,640
\nreasoned or counting love does
\nnot count wrongs. <\/p>\n

681
\n00:46:17,640 –> 00:46:21,440
\nIt’s it’s used often in the New
\nTestament that it’s, it’s the <\/p>\n

682
\n00:46:21,440 –> 00:46:26,760
\nGreek word lozami, and it means
\nto reckon or count or compute or<\/p>\n

683
\n00:46:26,760 –> 00:46:30,480
\nmake a count of.
\nAnd this same word is used <\/p>\n

684
\n00:46:31,080 –> 00:46:34,680
\nthroughout the New Testament,
\nfor example, in Romans 4 verse <\/p>\n

685
\n00:46:34,680 –> 00:46:37,600
\n5.
\nBut to him that worketh not, but<\/p>\n

686
\n00:46:37,600 –> 00:46:42,400
\nbelieveth on him that justifieth
\nthe godly, his faith is counted <\/p>\n

687
\n00:46:43,200 –> 00:46:48,720
\nfor righteousness.
\nHow about Romans 4 verse 8 to <\/p>\n

688
\n00:46:48,720 –> 00:46:52,720
\nthe man who the Lord will not
\nbless, the man whom the Lord <\/p>\n

689
\n00:46:52,720 –> 00:46:58,360
\nwill not count sin.
\nThat’s that one. <\/p>\n

690
\n00:46:58,440 –> 00:47:05,800
\nYep.
\nOr 2nd Corinthians 5 verse 19. <\/p>\n

691
\n00:47:06,120 –> 00:47:11,240
\nTo wit, that God was in Christ
\nreconciling the world to <\/p>\n

692
\n00:47:11,240 –> 00:47:16,960
\nHimself, not counting trespasses
\nunto them, and hath committed <\/p>\n

693
\n00:47:16,960 –> 00:47:18,600
\nunto us the word of
\nreconciliation. <\/p>\n

694
\n00:47:18,600 –> 00:47:25,840
\nI just want you to bear this
\nfact in mind, that our nature is<\/p>\n

695
\n00:47:25,840 –> 00:47:33,920
\nvery much to count, to count the
\nsins of others, to reason like <\/p>\n

696
\n00:47:33,920 –> 00:47:42,040
\nchildren.
\nBut Christ in Christ God is not <\/p>\n

697
\n00:47:42,040 –> 00:47:46,080
\ncounting trespasses, but what
\ndoes He count? <\/p>\n

698
\n00:47:47,640 –> 00:47:55,880
\nHe is counting faith.
\nSo thinking back to the balance,<\/p>\n

699
\n00:47:55,880 –> 00:47:59,920
\nthen, how does this balance work
\nin light of grace? <\/p>\n

700
\n00:48:03,120 –> 00:48:06,520
\nOnce you say that that
\nundeserved kindness of grace, it<\/p>\n

701
\n00:48:06,520 –> 00:48:13,600
\nbasically destroys this balance.
\nThis whole tit for tat paradigm <\/p>\n

702
\n00:48:14,000 –> 00:48:17,400
\nwe seem to be born into.
\nSee, God’s not drowning, <\/p>\n

703
\n00:48:17,480 –> 00:48:22,120
\ncounting, trespasses, but let’s
\nbe honest, we are. <\/p>\n

704
\n00:48:25,320 –> 00:48:29,200
\nSo how would God take, brothers
\nand sisters, a man who is caught<\/p>\n

705
\n00:48:29,200 –> 00:48:33,960
\nin envy and hatred, and
\ntransform him into a man who was<\/p>\n

706
\n00:48:33,960 –> 00:48:38,560
\nwilling to sacrifice his freedom
\nfor his father, who had not <\/p>\n

707
\n00:48:38,560 –> 00:48:46,640
\nrepented of favoritism?
\nHow did God release from Judah <\/p>\n

708
\n00:48:47,000 –> 00:48:50,760
\nthe burden of self-righteous
\nresentment? <\/p>\n

709
\n00:48:52,480 –> 00:48:55,160
\nThis is the question we’re going
\nto try to answer this week as we<\/p>\n

710
\n00:48:55,160 –> 00:48:57,280
\nprogress and our studies
\ntogether. <\/p>\n

711
\n00:49:14,700 –> 00:49:16,780
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\ngood Chris Adelphian Talks <\/p>\n

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\n00:49:19,380 –> 00:49:20,900
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322: Ben Brinkerhoff – The Seeds of Resentment<\/a><\/blockquote>