{"id":1044,"date":"2023-11-27T01:31:00","date_gmt":"2023-11-27T01:31:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/goodchristadelphiantalks.com\/index.php\/podcast\/matt-tuckson-faith-anxiety-class-2-processing-anxiety\/"},"modified":"2026-07-28T08:41:23","modified_gmt":"2026-07-28T08:41:23","slug":"matt-tuckson-faith-anxiety-class-2-processing-anxiety","status":"publish","type":"podcast","link":"https:\/\/goodchristadelphiantalks.com\/index.php\/podcast\/matt-tuckson-faith-anxiety-class-2-processing-anxiety\/","title":{"rendered":"Matt Tuckson – Faith & Anxiety – Class 2 – Processing Anxiety"},"content":{"rendered":"

Class 1 from this series was used in GCT Episode 271.<\/p>\n<\/p>\n

The handout from Class 2 can be found on the Christadelphian Bible Talks site, lined HERE<\/a>.<\/p>\n

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\nAll right, I’ll give you guys a
\nminute. <\/p>\n

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\nA couple minutes to finish up
\npassing around the thing that <\/p>\n

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\nway.
\nIt’s not distracting. <\/p>\n

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\nWell, we’re going to class.
\nI’m sorry. <\/p>\n

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\nI’m not going to die.
\nDo this on the fly. <\/p>\n

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\nI’m out of my material.
\nLike, I can’t do it on the fly. <\/p>\n

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\nAll right, where are we at this?
\nOK, good. <\/p>\n

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\nWe’re back there.
\nAll right, Sweet. <\/p>\n

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\nWe’ll go ahead and get started.
\nHello again, brothers and <\/p>\n

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\nsisters.
\nHello. <\/p>\n

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\nHi there.
\nSo in our last class, we really <\/p>\n

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\ndealt with the relationship
\nbetween anxiety and faith and <\/p>\n

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\nreally the implications on that,
\nof how it should relate to our <\/p>\n

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\nmoral framework, of how it
\nshould relate to how we evolve <\/p>\n

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\nguilt and things like that.
\nI mean we’re going to start off <\/p>\n

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\nthis class dealing with a bit of
\na recap. <\/p>\n

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\nSo we’re going to kind of re
\nwalk through that in a very kind<\/p>\n

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\nof hopefully 345 minute kind of
\nshortened version. <\/p>\n

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\nOnce we do that, we’re going to
\nspend a little bit of time <\/p>\n

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\ndealing with thinking about how
\ndo we start processing anxiety <\/p>\n

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\nand through that we’re going to
\nhave to understand a bit about <\/p>\n

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\nkind of emotions and how our
\nbrain works. <\/p>\n

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\nSo we’re going to be dealing
\nwith some science philosophy <\/p>\n

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\nkind of thoughts and we’ll be
\ndealing with that for a bit. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd then we’re going to get into
\na lot of biblical examples. <\/p>\n

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\nWe’re going to get some real
\npractical steps. <\/p>\n

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\nYou’ll see some of those on your
\nsheet now and we’ll talk about <\/p>\n

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\nthose when we get there, some
\nreal practical steps on how do <\/p>\n

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\nyou deal with anxiety.
\nAnd we’re going to see how David<\/p>\n

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\ndoes it, because he does it a
\nlot. <\/p>\n

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\nHe was seemed to be a very
\nanxious and emotional person, at<\/p>\n

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\nleast in his Psalms.
\nAnd so we’re going to see how <\/p>\n

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\ndoes he deal with his anxieties,
\nhow does he deal with his <\/p>\n

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\nstruggles, his trials.
\nSo that’s going to be the goal <\/p>\n

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\nfor today.
\nAnd again, the ultimate <\/p>\n

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\nintention of the whole series,
\nthe whole weekend really is <\/p>\n

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\ngoing to come down to this class
\nwhere it’s. <\/p>\n

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\nI want to show you guys the
\nagency that you have in this <\/p>\n

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\nbattle.
\nI want you guys to be able to <\/p>\n

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\nwalk away and say I know what to
\ndo in the battle of anxiety, <\/p>\n

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\nactually know the steps to take.
\nI know how to go through this. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s not something that’s
\nhappening to me that I have to <\/p>\n

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\ndeal with.
\nIt’s something that I can <\/p>\n

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\nactually work on and work
\nthrough. <\/p>\n

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\nThat’s really the goal of kind
\nof this class. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s dealing with a bit of a
\nrecap. <\/p>\n

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\nRemember we talked about the
\nrelationship between anxiety and<\/p>\n

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\nfaith, and we used Matthew 6 as
\nkind of like our main focus <\/p>\n

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\npoint of that class.
\nThat was when Jesus says, oh ye <\/p>\n

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\nof little faith, the people who
\nare anxious about things that <\/p>\n

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\nmake sense why they’re anxious
\nabout them. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s food, it’s clothing, it’s
\nvery base needs. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd we looked at how the reason
\nJesus says that or can say that <\/p>\n

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\nit’s because of values.
\nIt’s because, well, these people<\/p>\n

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\nwere missing a value.
\nThey were missing the fact that <\/p>\n

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\nGod values them and they were
\nprioritizing food and shelter <\/p>\n

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\nmore than their understanding of
\nthe truth. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd things are about God.
\nThey essentially were miss <\/p>\n

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\nevaluating things because of
\ntheir anxieties. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd the same is true for us.
\nWhen we are anxious about <\/p>\n

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\nvarious different things, our
\nanxieties tell us to miss <\/p>\n

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\nevaluate things around us.
\nThey say whatever we’re anxious <\/p>\n

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\nabout is the most important
\nthing top of the value system. <\/p>\n

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\nThis is because anxiety comes
\nfrom deep personal cares. <\/p>\n

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\nThe reason I’m anxious about
\nsomething is that I care about <\/p>\n

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\nit or something related to it.
\nAnd so that’s really why faith <\/p>\n

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\nand anxiety connect.
\nIt’s because of values. <\/p>\n

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\nThat’s the connector, That’s the
\nmiddle bit that’s often times <\/p>\n

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\nmissing when we think about it.
\nAnd then from there we went to <\/p>\n

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\nOK, well how do we think about
\nguilt in this relationship? <\/p>\n

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\nBecause when we connect anxiety
\nto faith, often times the kind <\/p>\n

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\nof side effect of that is you
\nfeel really guilty every time <\/p>\n

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\nyou have anxiety.
\nAnd that’s not really the goal. <\/p>\n

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\nThe goal isn’t to feel guilty.
\nThe goal is to work through <\/p>\n

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\nanxiety.
\nSo how do I think about guilt? <\/p>\n

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\nWith this?
\nI went through how anxiety is <\/p>\n

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\nsimilar to other temptations.
\nWe likened it to anger or lust, <\/p>\n

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\nand we really saw how when you
\nliken it to those other ideas, <\/p>\n

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\nOK, anxiety itself isn’t a sin
\nand I shouldn’t feel guilty <\/p>\n

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\nabout it.
\nHowever, I do have a <\/p>\n

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\nresponsibility to work through
\nit in the same way that if we’re<\/p>\n

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\nangry, we have a responsibility
\nto work through it. <\/p>\n

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\nNot to sit in it, not to stay in
\nthat space, that space of anger,<\/p>\n

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\nbut to try to work out of it, to
\npluck the the eye out. <\/p>\n

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\nThat causes us to sin, to pluck
\nthe temptation out. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd that’s hard.
\nWe’re going to look at how do we<\/p>\n

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\nkind of do that in this class?
\nThat’s the goal. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s not to feel guilty because
\nof that. <\/p>\n

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\nThe anxiety, the anger and the
\nlust, That’s not just make you <\/p>\n

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\nfeel guilty, but it is supposed
\nto say, I need to get out of <\/p>\n

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\nthis.
\nAnd on top of that, there is <\/p>\n

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\ntimes where guilt is
\nappropriate. <\/p>\n

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\nSo if anger acting on it, you
\nknow, punching somebody because <\/p>\n

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\nthey stepped in your toe, that’s
\nthat’s you should feel guilty <\/p>\n

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\nabout that, that you sinned, you
\nacted on your anger. <\/p>\n

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\nLikewise, sometimes we act on
\nour anxieties. <\/p>\n

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\nSo if we’re anxious about a
\nsocial situation with the <\/p>\n

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\nexample we gave, a social
\nsituation where we’re worried <\/p>\n

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\nabout, you know, being
\nembarrassed or what have you, <\/p>\n

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\nand we kind of prioritize that
\nfear, that anxiety over helping <\/p>\n

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\na friend in need, well, that’s
\nacting on our anxiety. <\/p>\n

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\nThat’s acting on our MIS
\nevaluation of what’s important <\/p>\n

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\nand how important things are.
\nSo that would be a state where, <\/p>\n

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\nyeah, actually, guilt is kind of
\nappropriate here, but it’s <\/p>\n

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\nappropriate to make you realize,
\nhey, I don’t actually want to <\/p>\n

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\nact like that.
\nI don’t want to be like that. <\/p>\n

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\nI want to actually prioritize
\nthe things of God and prioritize<\/p>\n

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\nbeing righteous and all that.
\nAnd so, OK, I need to work on <\/p>\n

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\nthis.
\nAnd once you say I’m going to <\/p>\n

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\nwork on it, the guilt has
\nfulfilled its purpose. <\/p>\n

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\nWe don’t carry that guilt
\nanymore. <\/p>\n

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\nIt’s done its job, and we can
\nnow keep working at the anxiety <\/p>\n

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\non the temptation level, not
\nfocusing on the transgression <\/p>\n

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\nlevel.
\nSo how do we do that? <\/p>\n

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\nThat’s the question of this
\nclass. <\/p>\n

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\nHow do we actually work on
\nanxiety? <\/p>\n

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\nAnd to do that, we’re going to
\nhave to work through a few kind <\/p>\n

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\nof ideas of how the brain works
\nabout how emotions come to be. <\/p>\n

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\nSo this is the the science,
\nphilosophy sort of stuff that I <\/p>\n

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\nwas talking about earlier.
\nSee, all emotions, all of them, <\/p>\n

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\ncome from a combination of a few
\nthings that come from your <\/p>\n

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\nbeliefs about the world, your
\nvalues and how they interact <\/p>\n

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\nwith one another.
\nI don’t mean beliefs about the <\/p>\n

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\nworld, as in, like, do you
\nbelieve in God? <\/p>\n

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\nI mean beliefs about the world
\nis like, do you believe this <\/p>\n

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\nchair will hold you up if you
\nsit on it? <\/p>\n

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\nThat’s a belief.
\nI believe it’s true. <\/p>\n

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\nBut if I were to sit on that
\nchair and it falls, I’d have an <\/p>\n

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\nemotion.
\nI’d be like, whoa, that was <\/p>\n

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\nsurprising.
\nAnd that hurt. <\/p>\n

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\nAnd, you know, I’d be having a
\ndifferent emotion if I sit on it<\/p>\n

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\nand that doesn’t happen.
\nI have a very different emotion.<\/p>\n

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\nOK, this happened.
\nThis was normal. <\/p>\n

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\nThis is what I expected.
\nEssentially, our beliefs are <\/p>\n

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\nwhat lead to our emotions.
\nAnother example of this is a bit<\/p>\n

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\nmore of a complex one than
\nsitting on a chair. <\/p>\n

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\nI’ll use a real life one.
\nThat luckily hasn’t happened, <\/p>\n

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\nbut it’s not too far off of what
\ncould happen. <\/p>\n

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\nIf Cilla and I were planning to
\ngo on a date and I forgot I <\/p>\n

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\nforgot the date.
\nIt hasn’t happened, but I can <\/p>\n

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\nvery easily see it happening.
\nYeah, that’s just, that’s just <\/p>\n

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\nme.
\nSo and I forget. <\/p>\n

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\nI completely forget.
\nDon’t show up to the date. <\/p>\n

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\nI’m at home.
\nLike, where’s Silla? <\/p>\n

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\nLike, what’s going on?
\nA few things have happened here <\/p>\n

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\nand she reacts.
\nLike, I’m really angry. <\/p>\n

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\nShe’s frustrated, you know?
\nWhy did he miss the date? <\/p>\n

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\nA few things have happened and a
\nlot of it is because of the <\/p>\n

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\nbeliefs that Silla carries in
\nthat moment. <\/p>\n

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\nSilla likely believes in this
\nmoment. <\/p>\n

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\nShe’s really angry and
\nfrustrated at me. <\/p>\n

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\nWell, that I should have
\nremembered the date. <\/p>\n

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\nThat’s of belief.
\nHe should remember this. <\/p>\n

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\nOK, that’s 11 belief hold she’s
\nholding. <\/p>\n

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\nAnother belief is that the lack
\nof remembering suggests a lack <\/p>\n

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\nof importance.
\nIf I didn’t remember, it’s <\/p>\n

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\nbecause I don’t think she’s
\nimportant, and that would be <\/p>\n

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\nanother belief that she’s
\nholding in that scenario that’s <\/p>\n

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\nleading to emotions.
\nAnd then there’s another belief <\/p>\n

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\nthat let me find it real quick,
\nthat the date was important <\/p>\n

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\nenough to her that me
\nforgetting, which also implied <\/p>\n

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\nto her that I don’t care, is
\nupsetting. <\/p>\n

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\nsmall little divot, you go to
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\ncredit card, twist it and start
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\na lot easier said than done
\nbecause you have to live your <\/p>\n

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\nThat’s hard.
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\nbeliefs and turn that into steps
\nto process anxiety? <\/p>\n

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\nHow do we take all these ideas
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\nanxiety? <\/p>\n

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\nanxiety moment is coming. <\/p>\n

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\nSo for me, it was I get really <\/p>\n

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\ncold when I have anxiety, I get
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\nThat’s kind of what happens to
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\nthing that happens and I would
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\nfeverish, but I wasn’t sick.
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\nThis is, this is where I need to<\/p>\n

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\nIt took me like months to get to<\/p>\n

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\nlonger, some people shorter,
\nsome people are a lot more in <\/p>\n

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\ntune with their emotions than
\nme. <\/p>\n

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\nThey can get there faster.
\nThe point is that that’s kind of<\/p>\n

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\ntelling you to care about <\/p>\n

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\nsomething a lot and you’re going
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\nabout in that moment, we don’t <\/p>\n

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\nwant to care about.
\nI don’t want to care about this,<\/p>\n

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\ntelling you to care about.
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\nbe honest to God about that.
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\nThis isn’t where I want to be,
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\nthen being honest with God about
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\nWhat is that care?
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\nmade fun of, being embarrassed,
\nall of these kinds of things. <\/p>\n

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\n00:15:49,320 –> 00:15:51,440
\nAnd so it’s not necessarily
\nreadily apparent what is the <\/p>\n

331
\n00:15:51,440 –> 00:15:53,240
\nthing that you care about
\ndeeply. <\/p>\n

332
\n00:15:53,240 –> 00:15:55,600
\nAnd so you have to dig into that
\nand have some self examination <\/p>\n

333
\n00:15:55,600 –> 00:16:01,320
\ntime to think, What is that?
\nAnd then Step 2 is think about <\/p>\n

334
\n00:16:01,320 –> 00:16:03,800
\nwho God is.
\nWhat do you know about him? <\/p>\n

335
\n00:16:04,320 –> 00:16:06,600
\nWhat might he think, feel, or do
\nin this scenario? <\/p>\n

336
\n00:16:07,960 –> 00:16:11,520
\nThis is where you’re comparing
\nwhere you’re currently at with <\/p>\n

337
\n00:16:11,520 –> 00:16:14,480
\nwhere God’s values would be.
\nYou’re comparing your current <\/p>\n

338
\n00:16:14,480 –> 00:16:16,720
\nvalue system, what you care
\nabout when anxiety is telling <\/p>\n

339
\n00:16:16,720 –> 00:16:19,960
\nyou to mis evaluate things to
\nwhat God’s value system is. <\/p>\n

340
\n00:16:19,960 –> 00:16:22,320
\nWhat does he care about?
\nHow would he look at this <\/p>\n

341
\n00:16:22,320 –> 00:16:26,600
\nscenario, My personal situation,
\nThat’s me going, OK, well, I <\/p>\n

342
\n00:16:26,600 –> 00:16:29,200
\nclearly care about this
\nrelationship, but how would God <\/p>\n

343
\n00:16:29,200 –> 00:16:31,920
\nthink about this relationship?
\nIs this a relationship that God <\/p>\n

344
\n00:16:31,920 –> 00:16:33,960
\nwon’t be in?
\nIs this a relationship I should <\/p>\n

345
\n00:16:33,960 –> 00:16:36,320
\nbe in?
\nSo that’s Step 2 is comparing <\/p>\n

346
\n00:16:36,320 –> 00:16:38,320
\nwith what you know about God and
\nkind of the truth. <\/p>\n

347
\n00:16:40,080 –> 00:16:42,560
\nStep three is kind of a an
\naddition to Step 2. <\/p>\n

348
\n00:16:42,560 –> 00:16:45,840
\nIt’s kind of a second Part 2,
\nwhich is think about what God <\/p>\n

349
\n00:16:45,840 –> 00:16:48,720
\nhas done for you in the past in
\nrelation to whatever you’re <\/p>\n

350
\n00:16:48,720 –> 00:16:51,720
\ndealing with with anxiety.
\nThis is a good example of, this <\/p>\n

351
\n00:16:51,720 –> 00:16:55,440
\nis like financial anxiety.
\nIf God has worked with you in <\/p>\n

352
\n00:16:55,440 –> 00:16:58,160
\nthe past, God has helped you
\nthrough financial struggles in <\/p>\n

353
\n00:16:58,160 –> 00:16:59,880
\nthe past.
\nWell, that’s something that you <\/p>\n

354
\n00:16:59,880 –> 00:17:03,120
\ncan rely on and think back to
\nand go, God’s helped me through <\/p>\n

355
\n00:17:03,120 –> 00:17:05,160
\nhere.
\nSo if God’s helped me through <\/p>\n

356
\n00:17:05,160 –> 00:17:08,079
\nhere in the past, it’s likely he
\nwill in the future. <\/p>\n

357
\n00:17:08,440 –> 00:17:10,240
\nIt’s likely he’ll continue
\nhelping me through. <\/p>\n

358
\n00:17:10,240 –> 00:17:13,480
\nAnd it’s not always 100% true.
\nBut we can use our history with <\/p>\n

359
\n00:17:13,480 –> 00:17:17,760
\nGod as a piece of information,
\nsimilar to the Bible and say <\/p>\n

360
\n00:17:18,079 –> 00:17:20,119
\nthat that means that God’s
\nworking with me in this way. <\/p>\n

361
\n00:17:20,119 –> 00:17:22,839
\nThis is a pattern of what I
\nunderstand about who God is. <\/p>\n

362
\n00:17:24,520 –> 00:17:26,640
\nAnd then lastly, this is the
\nhard step. <\/p>\n

363
\n00:17:26,640 –> 00:17:31,000
\nWe got to twist the credit card.
\nWe got to change the electric <\/p>\n

364
\n00:17:31,000 –> 00:17:34,080
\ncurrent.
\nWe choose to act in accordance <\/p>\n

365
\n00:17:34,080 –> 00:17:38,360
\nwith what we know about God and
\nHis values and in line with what<\/p>\n

366
\n00:17:38,360 –> 00:17:40,880
\nhe’s done in the past, even
\nthough you don’t feel like it. <\/p>\n

367
\n00:17:42,320 –> 00:17:44,880
\nBecause, like I said, emotions
\nfollow this process. <\/p>\n

368
\n00:17:45,120 –> 00:17:48,400
\nI have core belief something
\nhappens in the world, causes the<\/p>\n

369
\n00:17:48,400 –> 00:17:50,760
\nemotion, and that emotion leads
\nto anxiety. <\/p>\n

370
\n00:17:51,560 –> 00:17:55,280
\nWe’re having to go the opposite
\ndirection because we can’t just <\/p>\n

371
\n00:17:55,280 –> 00:17:57,400
\nchange our internal beliefs.
\nThat’s really hard. <\/p>\n

372
\n00:17:57,480 –> 00:18:00,520
\nYou can’t just do that.
\nBut the way you can work on <\/p>\n

373
\n00:18:00,520 –> 00:18:03,120
\nthem, the way you can work on
\nchanging your internal beliefs, <\/p>\n

374
\n00:18:03,560 –> 00:18:06,800
\nis by acting as if you believe
\nthe thing you want to believe. <\/p>\n

375
\n00:18:07,480 –> 00:18:10,120
\nYou act in a way as if you
\nbelieve it. <\/p>\n

376
\n00:18:10,120 –> 00:18:14,280
\nAnd eventually your electrical
\noccurrence will literally change<\/p>\n

377
\n00:18:14,600 –> 00:18:17,320
\nso that you believe it.
\nThat’s how you can quite <\/p>\n

378
\n00:18:17,320 –> 00:18:21,520
\nliterally transform the mind.
\nIt’s a very little processes in <\/p>\n

379
\n00:18:21,560 –> 00:18:24,440
\nyour brain physically changes.
\nAnd it’s absolutely fascinating <\/p>\n

380
\n00:18:24,440 –> 00:18:27,160
\nto me.
\nThis is how habits are formed. <\/p>\n

381
\n00:18:27,160 –> 00:18:28,640
\nAnd you say, I want to form this
\nhabit. <\/p>\n

382
\n00:18:28,840 –> 00:18:31,080
\nYou intentionally say, OK, I’m
\ngoing to do this thing at 8:00 <\/p>\n

383
\n00:18:31,080 –> 00:18:32,320
\nAM every morning.
\nI’m going to make my bed. <\/p>\n

384
\n00:18:32,760 –> 00:18:34,560
\nAnd at first, you wake up and
\nyou’re like, I really don’t want<\/p>\n

385
\n00:18:34,560 –> 00:18:37,320
\nto do this, But by the end of
\nit, you’re like, this is just <\/p>\n

386
\n00:18:37,440 –> 00:18:39,240
\nnormal.
\nThis is just part of life. <\/p>\n

387
\n00:18:39,240 –> 00:18:42,000
\nWe make our bed at 8:00 AM and
\nthat’s because you’ve <\/p>\n

388
\n00:18:42,360 –> 00:18:46,080
\nintentionally built in a new
\nelectrical current, a new habit.<\/p>\n

389
\n00:18:47,040 –> 00:18:49,320
\nThis is a bit deeper than that.
\nIt’s not so much just a what are<\/p>\n

390
\n00:18:49,320 –> 00:18:51,320
\nyou physically doing, you know,
\nmaking up the bed? <\/p>\n

391
\n00:18:51,720 –> 00:18:53,080
\nIt’s one of the internal
\nbeliefs. <\/p>\n

392
\n00:18:53,560 –> 00:18:56,760
\nSo for example, for me, my
\ninternal belief that I had wrong<\/p>\n

393
\n00:18:57,200 –> 00:19:00,560
\nwas that whatever relationship
\nwhat I was in mattered more than<\/p>\n

394
\n00:19:00,560 –> 00:19:02,800
\nanything else.
\nThat was my internal belief. <\/p>\n

395
\n00:19:03,080 –> 00:19:05,760
\nI also had an internal belief
\nthat relationships could fall <\/p>\n

396
\n00:19:05,760 –> 00:19:07,480
\napart.
\nAt any moment. <\/p>\n

397
\n00:19:08,120 –> 00:19:09,840
\nI had to change both of these
\nbeliefs. <\/p>\n

398
\n00:19:10,080 –> 00:19:13,240
\nMy relationship with a specific
\nperson doesn’t matter. <\/p>\n

399
\n00:19:13,360 –> 00:19:16,160
\nMore than anything else, our
\nrelationship with God does. <\/p>\n

400
\n00:19:16,480 –> 00:19:18,120
\nAnd so that actually has to be
\nat the priority. <\/p>\n

401
\n00:19:18,560 –> 00:19:21,160
\nAnd on top of that,
\nrelationships typically don’t <\/p>\n

402
\n00:19:21,160 –> 00:19:25,160
\nfall apart and it randomly
\nbecause one thing went wrong and<\/p>\n

403
\n00:19:25,160 –> 00:19:28,680
\nso I had to work on and still
\nI’m working on internalizing <\/p>\n

404
\n00:19:28,680 –> 00:19:31,400
\nthose beliefs.
\nThe way I have to do that is by <\/p>\n

405
\n00:19:31,400 –> 00:19:33,240
\nsaying, OK, this is where I’m
\nstruggling. <\/p>\n

406
\n00:19:33,240 –> 00:19:36,160
\nThis is my starting place.
\nHave anxiety about this. <\/p>\n

407
\n00:19:37,280 –> 00:19:40,200
\nThe truth says and God says, and
\nthe Bible says and my history <\/p>\n

408
\n00:19:40,200 –> 00:19:42,200
\nwith God says these things
\naren’t true. <\/p>\n

409
\n00:19:42,520 –> 00:19:43,960
\nThese internal beliefs aren’t
\naccurate. <\/p>\n

410
\n00:19:44,680 –> 00:19:48,560
\nOK, so I’m going to live my life
\nas if I believe the truth <\/p>\n

411
\n00:19:48,880 –> 00:19:52,520
\ninternally, as if I feel the
\ntruth is true, even though I <\/p>\n

412
\n00:19:52,520 –> 00:19:54,120
\ndon’t necessarily do it in that
\nmoment. <\/p>\n

413
\n00:19:54,760 –> 00:19:57,120
\nI There were many times in
\nrelationships, in even my <\/p>\n

414
\n00:19:57,120 –> 00:19:59,920
\nrelationship with Silla when we
\nwere dating, where I felt like <\/p>\n

415
\n00:20:00,320 –> 00:20:02,160
\nthis could break up at any
\nmoment. <\/p>\n

416
\n00:20:02,840 –> 00:20:06,440
\nBut I’m going to choose to lead
\nthe relationship and be A at a <\/p>\n

417
\n00:20:06,440 –> 00:20:09,560
\ntime boyfriend in a way, as if I
\ndon’t think that. <\/p>\n

418
\n00:20:09,560 –> 00:20:11,920
\nSo I’m going to have the hard
\nconversation that I don’t want <\/p>\n

419
\n00:20:11,920 –> 00:20:13,880
\nto have because it’s kind of
\nkind of confrontational and <\/p>\n

420
\n00:20:13,880 –> 00:20:16,400
\nawkward with her.
\nEven though I’m like freaking <\/p>\n

421
\n00:20:16,400 –> 00:20:18,200
\nout that this might break up the
\nrelationship because I know <\/p>\n

422
\n00:20:18,200 –> 00:20:21,800
\nthat’s not a true statement.
\nIt’s not actually true that I <\/p>\n

423
\n00:20:21,800 –> 00:20:24,680
\nmight break up the relationship
\nand that actually I can have <\/p>\n

424
\n00:20:24,680 –> 00:20:27,400
\nthis conversation with her, but
\nI didn’t want to. <\/p>\n

425
\n00:20:27,400 –> 00:20:29,600
\nMy feelings weren’t there yet.
\nMy beliefs weren’t there yet. <\/p>\n

426
\n00:20:30,080 –> 00:20:33,240
\nYou start acting as if you
\nbelieve it and eventually you <\/p>\n

427
\n00:20:33,240 –> 00:20:35,440
\ninternally believe it.
\nI think Silla will tell you I <\/p>\n

428
\n00:20:35,440 –> 00:20:38,360
\ninternally believe that now I’m
\nhappy to have some confronting <\/p>\n

429
\n00:20:38,360 –> 00:20:42,720
\nconversations if need be.
\nAnd it does get easier. <\/p>\n

430
\n00:20:42,720 –> 00:20:44,960
\nIt starts off at a really hard
\nspot because you’re sitting <\/p>\n

431
\n00:20:44,960 –> 00:20:47,080
\nthere with this internalized
\nbelief or who knows how long <\/p>\n

432
\n00:20:47,080 –> 00:20:49,200
\nyou’ve had it.
\nFor me, I’ve had it since I was <\/p>\n

433
\n00:20:49,200 –> 00:20:54,280
\n13, and if I’m lucky that I
\ncaught it in my, like, older <\/p>\n

434
\n00:20:54,280 –> 00:20:55,880
\nteens.
\nSome people don’t catch it for <\/p>\n

435
\n00:20:55,880 –> 00:21:00,080
\ndecades, and that’s a really
\ndeep divot that’s been happening<\/p>\n

436
\n00:21:00,080 –> 00:21:02,000
\nin your life.
\nRepetition over and over and <\/p>\n

437
\n00:21:02,000 –> 00:21:05,040
\nover again in your brain, that’s
\na pattern that’s been really <\/p>\n

438
\n00:21:05,120 –> 00:21:08,440
\nsolidified.
\nAnd to to try to change that <\/p>\n

439
\n00:21:08,440 –> 00:21:12,480
\nwill take a lot of time.
\nBut it’s where your agency is, <\/p>\n

440
\n00:21:13,000 –> 00:21:18,480
\nit’s where your power is.
\nYou can actually work on why do <\/p>\n

441
\n00:21:18,480 –> 00:21:20,600
\nI have anxiety?
\nHow do I change these anxieties?<\/p>\n

442
\n00:21:20,600 –> 00:21:22,880
\nHow do I make it so these
\nanxieties hopefully, eventually <\/p>\n

443
\n00:21:22,880 –> 00:21:25,920
\ngo away?
\nUnfortunately, human nature is <\/p>\n

444
\n00:21:25,920 –> 00:21:28,800
\ndoing the opposite.
\nHuman nature likes those divots <\/p>\n

445
\n00:21:28,800 –> 00:21:31,120
\nit’s made.
\nHuman nature likes those <\/p>\n

446
\n00:21:31,120 –> 00:21:33,520
\npatterns that you formed.
\nAnd so that’s why our default <\/p>\n

447
\n00:21:33,520 –> 00:21:37,400
\nwill be go back to the pattern,
\nreinforce it, stay in this place<\/p>\n

448
\n00:21:37,400 –> 00:21:39,840
\nof anxiety, and that’s where the
\nbattle is. <\/p>\n

449
\n00:21:39,960 –> 00:21:43,680
\nWhile yes, I will say some of
\nus, many of us, I think you can <\/p>\n

450
\n00:21:43,680 –> 00:21:46,360
\ntruly transform your brain to a
\npoint where anxiety goes from <\/p>\n

451
\n00:21:46,360 –> 00:21:48,400
\nwherever it is currently for you
\nto a much lesser point, <\/p>\n

452
\n00:21:49,040 –> 00:21:52,240
\npotentially even gone.
\nI don’t think that’s true for <\/p>\n

453
\n00:21:52,240 –> 00:21:53,960
\neveryone.
\nIt will get easier. <\/p>\n

454
\n00:21:54,080 –> 00:21:55,960
\nI think it’s true that it will
\nget easier for everyone who goes<\/p>\n

455
\n00:21:55,960 –> 00:21:59,160
\nthrough these processes, but it
\nwon’t go away for many of us. <\/p>\n

456
\n00:21:59,280 –> 00:22:03,040
\nIn similar fashion, how anger
\nproblems for some people never <\/p>\n

457
\n00:22:03,040 –> 00:22:07,120
\nfully go away or lust for some
\npeople never fully goes away. <\/p>\n

458
\n00:22:07,400 –> 00:22:10,560
\nAnd you have to battle this day
\nin and day out to give it to a <\/p>\n

459
\n00:22:10,560 –> 00:22:13,280
\nmanageable level and the goals
\nalmost keep it manageable as <\/p>\n

460
\n00:22:13,440 –> 00:22:15,080
\nopposed to eradicate it
\nentirely. <\/p>\n

461
\n00:22:16,160 –> 00:22:18,400
\nThat’s just how the battle of
\nhuman nature works. <\/p>\n

462
\n00:22:18,840 –> 00:22:20,840
\nUnfortunately that is true.
\nBut we both have a <\/p>\n

463
\n00:22:20,840 –> 00:22:25,800
\nresponsibility and the ability
\nto actually do the battle. <\/p>\n

464
\n00:22:26,200 –> 00:22:28,480
\nAnd So what we’re going to do
\nnow is we’re going to read <\/p>\n

465
\n00:22:28,480 –> 00:22:30,520
\nthrough these Psalms.
\nSo you have it in front of you. <\/p>\n

466
\n00:22:30,520 –> 00:22:31,960
\nWe’re going to read through
\nthem. <\/p>\n

467
\n00:22:31,960 –> 00:22:36,360
\nAnd I want to show how David
\nactually applies these steps in <\/p>\n

468
\n00:22:36,360 –> 00:22:38,320
\nhis songs.
\nAnd we’re going to, let’s see, <\/p>\n

469
\n00:22:38,320 –> 00:22:40,000
\nwhat can we learn from these
\nsongs? <\/p>\n

470
\n00:22:40,360 –> 00:22:45,720
\nWhat can we take away?
\nAnd also kind of how does, how <\/p>\n

471
\n00:22:45,720 –> 00:22:48,200
\ndoes David go about it?
\nI think the way David goes about<\/p>\n

472
\n00:22:48,200 –> 00:22:50,000
\nit in these different Psalms,
\nhe’s focusing on different <\/p>\n

473
\n00:22:50,000 –> 00:22:52,800
\naspects of the of the steps.
\nSo let’s go ahead and walk <\/p>\n

474
\n00:22:52,800 –> 00:22:56,640
\nthrough that.
\nSo the first step, again, we’re <\/p>\n

475
\n00:22:56,640 –> 00:22:59,280
\ndealing with Psalm 31.
\nThe first step is to recognize <\/p>\n

476
\n00:22:59,280 –> 00:23:02,360
\nwhat you’re feeling, how we’re
\ncurrently valuing things, what <\/p>\n

477
\n00:23:02,360 –> 00:23:04,760
\nhurts, what are your fears?
\nAnd be honest with God. <\/p>\n

478
\n00:23:05,320 –> 00:23:07,280
\nAnd we see that in a few
\ndifferent places in the song. <\/p>\n

479
\n00:23:07,280 –> 00:23:09,680
\nI’m going to read this in step
\norder, not verse order. <\/p>\n

480
\n00:23:09,680 –> 00:23:11,000
\nSo I’m going to be hopping
\naround a bit. <\/p>\n

481
\n00:23:11,760 –> 00:23:13,320
\nThere’s actually a point with
\nthat later that we’ll talk <\/p>\n

482
\n00:23:13,320 –> 00:23:16,080
\nabout, But the first time this
\ncomes up is in verse two. <\/p>\n

483
\n00:23:16,080 –> 00:23:18,840
\nIncline your ear to me.
\nSo he’s saying, God, I want to <\/p>\n

484
\n00:23:18,840 –> 00:23:22,400
\ntalk to you, I want to have this
\nconversation, and then hops down<\/p>\n

485
\n00:23:22,400 –> 00:23:25,880
\ninto verse 9.
\nFor I am in distress. <\/p>\n

486
\n00:23:26,120 –> 00:23:30,560
\nMy eye is wasted from grief for
\nmy soul and my body also for my <\/p>\n

487
\n00:23:30,560 –> 00:23:33,200
\nlife is spent with sorrow, my
\nyears with sighing. <\/p>\n

488
\n00:23:33,400 –> 00:23:36,120
\nMy strength fails because of my
\niniquity, and my bones waste <\/p>\n

489
\n00:23:36,120 –> 00:23:38,240
\naway because of all my
\nadversaries. <\/p>\n

490
\n00:23:38,280 –> 00:23:41,520
\nI have become a reproach,
\nespecially to my neighbors, and <\/p>\n

491
\n00:23:41,520 –> 00:23:43,520
\nan object of dread to my
\nacquaintances. <\/p>\n

492
\n00:23:43,960 –> 00:23:46,120
\nThose who see me in the street
\nflee from me. <\/p>\n

493
\n00:23:46,760 –> 00:23:48,560
\nI’ve been forgotten like one who
\nwas dead. <\/p>\n

494
\n00:23:49,120 –> 00:23:51,520
\nI’ve become like a broken
\nvessel, for I hear the <\/p>\n

495
\n00:23:51,520 –> 00:23:55,280
\nwhispering of many, terror on
\nevery side as they scheme <\/p>\n

496
\n00:23:55,280 –> 00:23:58,280
\ntogether against me, as they
\nplot to take my life. <\/p>\n

497
\n00:23:59,520 –> 00:24:03,480
\nNow this is emotional language.
\nThis isn’t logical statements. <\/p>\n

498
\n00:24:03,480 –> 00:24:05,480
\nMost of these things, if you
\nlook at them factually, aren’t <\/p>\n

499
\n00:24:05,480 –> 00:24:07,080
\ntrue.
\nDavid’s not. <\/p>\n

500
\n00:24:07,320 –> 00:24:11,320
\nHis bones aren’t wasting away.
\nLiterally, he’s feeling like <\/p>\n

501
\n00:24:11,320 –> 00:24:13,920
\nthey’re wasting away.
\nHe wasn’t forgotten. <\/p>\n

502
\n00:24:13,920 –> 00:24:18,680
\nWe talk about him now.
\nHe was never forgotten, but he <\/p>\n

503
\n00:24:18,680 –> 00:24:20,520
\nfeels like he is.
\nThese are feelings. <\/p>\n

504
\n00:24:20,920 –> 00:24:24,200
\nThis is David being really
\nhonest with God, saying this is <\/p>\n

505
\n00:24:24,200 –> 00:24:26,440
\nwhere I’m at, this is what I’m
\nfeeling. <\/p>\n

506
\n00:24:27,000 –> 00:24:28,440
\nThis is the current state I’m
\nin. <\/p>\n

507
\n00:24:30,200 –> 00:24:32,880
\nWe need to do the same brothers
\nand sisters, be able to go to <\/p>\n

508
\n00:24:32,880 –> 00:24:35,760
\nGod and say God, I’m not feeling
\ngood right now. <\/p>\n

509
\n00:24:36,160 –> 00:24:38,360
\nI’m feeling really anxious about
\nthis thing and it’s really <\/p>\n

510
\n00:24:38,360 –> 00:24:40,440
\nimportant to me.
\nThis is where I’m at. <\/p>\n

511
\n00:24:41,200 –> 00:24:43,600
\nSometimes these feelings or
\nthese feelings will have really,<\/p>\n

512
\n00:24:43,600 –> 00:24:45,640
\nreally blunt statements.
\nAnd we’ll see some of those in <\/p>\n

513
\n00:24:45,640 –> 00:24:57,360
\nour later songs.
\nStep 2, step up. <\/p>\n

514
\n00:24:57,360 –> 00:25:02,920
\nThank you.
\nStep 2 is thinking about who? <\/p>\n

515
\n00:25:02,920 –> 00:25:03,720
\nYeah.
\nThank you. <\/p>\n

516
\n00:25:03,720 –> 00:25:08,280
\nThanks.
\nStep 2 is thinking about who God<\/p>\n

517
\n00:25:08,280 –> 00:25:11,960
\nis, what we know about him, what
\nmight, what we might, what he <\/p>\n

518
\n00:25:11,960 –> 00:25:13,960
\nmight feel or do in the scenario
\nwe’re dealing with. <\/p>\n

519
\n00:25:13,960 –> 00:25:16,000
\nI mean, this comes up also in a
\nfew places. <\/p>\n

520
\n00:25:16,000 –> 00:25:20,480
\nSo we have in verse three and
\nthe last half, for your name’s <\/p>\n

521
\n00:25:20,480 –> 00:25:24,160
\nsake, you lead and guide me.
\nOK, so David’s established that <\/p>\n

522
\n00:25:24,640 –> 00:25:27,080
\nGod is a leader and a guider.
\nHe wants to follow him. <\/p>\n

523
\n00:25:28,000 –> 00:25:30,760
\nVerse 7.
\nThe last half because you have <\/p>\n

524
\n00:25:30,760 –> 00:25:34,120
\nseen my affliction and you have
\nknown the stress of my soul and <\/p>\n

525
\n00:25:34,120 –> 00:25:36,360
\nyou have not delivered me into
\nthe hand of the enemy, you set <\/p>\n

526
\n00:25:36,360 –> 00:25:40,000
\nmy foot in a broad place.
\nThis is what God has done for me<\/p>\n

527
\n00:25:40,000 –> 00:25:42,560
\nin the past, and this is who my
\nGod is He. <\/p>\n

528
\n00:25:42,720 –> 00:25:45,000
\nHe sees me.
\nHe sees the trial I’m going <\/p>\n

529
\n00:25:45,000 –> 00:25:47,280
\nthrough.
\nOn top of that, he hasn’t <\/p>\n

530
\n00:25:47,280 –> 00:25:48,560
\ndelivered me into the hand of
\nthe enemy. <\/p>\n

531
\n00:25:48,560 –> 00:25:52,720
\nThis hasn’t been what’s happened
\nin verse 15. <\/p>\n

532
\n00:25:52,760 –> 00:25:56,280
\nMy times are in your hand.
\nHe understands that God’s in <\/p>\n

533
\n00:25:56,280 –> 00:25:58,760
\ncontrol of the situation.
\nHe’s in control of what’s going <\/p>\n

534
\n00:25:58,760 –> 00:26:03,160
\non with David, that God is in
\ncontrol, and verses 19 and 20, <\/p>\n

535
\n00:26:04,000 –> 00:26:06,640
\noh, how abundant in your
\ngoodness, which you have stored <\/p>\n

536
\n00:26:06,640 –> 00:26:10,520
\nup for those who fear you and
\nworked for those who take refuge<\/p>\n

537
\n00:26:10,520 –> 00:26:13,360
\nin you, in the sight of the
\nchildren of mankind. <\/p>\n

538
\n00:26:13,600 –> 00:26:16,560
\nIn the cover of your presence.
\nYou hide them from the plots of <\/p>\n

539
\n00:26:16,560 –> 00:26:19,640
\nmen, you store them in your
\nshelter from the strife of <\/p>\n

540
\n00:26:19,640 –> 00:26:21,840
\ntongues.
\nAgain, he’s thinking about how <\/p>\n

541
\n00:26:21,840 –> 00:26:25,800
\ndoes God think about people who
\nare in distress, people who are <\/p>\n

542
\n00:26:25,800 –> 00:26:29,600
\nin in a massive trial.
\nWell, God is a God of abundant <\/p>\n

543
\n00:26:29,600 –> 00:26:31,680
\ngoodness and he store he has
\nstuff. <\/p>\n

544
\n00:26:31,800 –> 00:26:33,880
\nSorry.
\nYeah, goodness is stored up for <\/p>\n

545
\n00:26:33,880 –> 00:26:36,960
\nthose who fear and who have
\nworked for and have take refuge <\/p>\n

546
\n00:26:36,960 –> 00:26:39,000
\nin Yahweh.
\nThis is who God is. <\/p>\n

547
\n00:26:39,000 –> 00:26:40,520
\nAnd David’s considering who is
\nGod. <\/p>\n

548
\n00:26:40,520 –> 00:26:43,240
\nWhat does what does he think
\nabout these types of situations?<\/p>\n

549
\n00:26:44,640 –> 00:26:46,120
\nHe also thinks about his history
\nwith God. <\/p>\n

550
\n00:26:46,120 –> 00:26:47,960
\nHe does this in verses 21 and
\n22. <\/p>\n

551
\n00:26:48,480 –> 00:26:51,720
\nBlessed be Yahweh, for he has
\nwonderfully shown his steadfast <\/p>\n

552
\n00:26:51,720 –> 00:26:53,480
\nlove to me.
\nWhen I was in a besieged city, <\/p>\n

553
\n00:26:54,040 –> 00:26:55,840
\nback in that time, I was in a
\nbusy city. <\/p>\n

554
\n00:26:56,120 –> 00:26:57,920
\nGod saved me.
\nSo he’s thinking about that and <\/p>\n

555
\n00:26:57,920 –> 00:27:01,040
\nconsidering that in his current
\ntrial and then the last half of <\/p>\n

556
\n00:27:01,040 –> 00:27:03,720
\nverse 22.
\nBut you have heard the voice of <\/p>\n

557
\n00:27:03,720 –> 00:27:06,760
\nmy pleas for mercy.
\nWhen I cried for you and help in<\/p>\n

558
\n00:27:06,760 –> 00:27:10,000
\nthe past, Yahweh heard me.
\nIt means he’s hearing me now. <\/p>\n

559
\n00:27:10,760 –> 00:27:12,720
\nHe’s thinking about his past
\nrelationship with God, his <\/p>\n

560
\n00:27:12,720 –> 00:27:15,240
\nexperience in his relationship
\nwith God, and applying that to <\/p>\n

561
\n00:27:15,240 –> 00:27:19,800
\nhis current anxiety, his current
\nstruggle, his current trial, and<\/p>\n

562
\n00:27:19,800 –> 00:27:23,400
\nthen the hard step, the step of
\nchanging our pattern. <\/p>\n

563
\n00:27:24,800 –> 00:27:27,040
\nThis happens kind of throughout
\nthe entire Psalm because he kind<\/p>\n

564
\n00:27:27,040 –> 00:27:29,920
\nof goes back and forth a bit,
\nbut in the verse one, and you <\/p>\n

565
\n00:27:29,920 –> 00:27:32,920
\nowe Yahweh, Do I take refuge?
\nThat’s a choice. <\/p>\n

566
\n00:27:33,360 –> 00:27:35,360
\nWe don’t naturally take refuge
\nin God. <\/p>\n

567
\n00:27:35,680 –> 00:27:37,720
\nWe naturally try to fix things
\nourselves and get safe <\/p>\n

568
\n00:27:37,720 –> 00:27:40,120
\nourselves.
\nBut he says I will choose to <\/p>\n

569
\n00:27:40,120 –> 00:27:45,720
\ntake refuge in Yahweh verse 2.
\nBe a rock of refuge for me, a <\/p>\n

570
\n00:27:45,720 –> 00:27:48,920
\nstrong fortress to save me.
\nVerse 5. <\/p>\n

571
\n00:27:49,280 –> 00:27:51,160
\nInto your hand, I commit my
\nspirit. <\/p>\n

572
\n00:27:51,360 –> 00:27:54,560
\nYou have remembered me.
\nOh Yahweh, faithful God. <\/p>\n

573
\n00:27:54,800 –> 00:27:56,800
\nThese are choices David is
\nmaking. <\/p>\n

574
\n00:27:57,320 –> 00:27:59,600
\nThese are not.
\nThis is actually not how he <\/p>\n

575
\n00:27:59,600 –> 00:28:01,560
\nfeels in this moment.
\nWe know that from the blue text.<\/p>\n

576
\n00:28:01,680 –> 00:28:05,120
\nHe does not feel these ways.
\nBut he’s choosing to act these <\/p>\n

577
\n00:28:05,120 –> 00:28:07,200
\nways.
\nHe’s choosing to live his life <\/p>\n

578
\n00:28:07,560 –> 00:28:11,320
\nas if he feels the feelings that
\nhe’s or feels the the statements<\/p>\n

579
\n00:28:11,320 –> 00:28:13,320
\nhe’s been making about who God
\nis. <\/p>\n

580
\n00:28:14,040 –> 00:28:16,480
\nVerse 14.
\nI trust in Yahweh. <\/p>\n

581
\n00:28:16,600 –> 00:28:23,960
\nI say you are my God and then at
\nthe end verses 23 and 22 love <\/p>\n

582
\n00:28:23,960 –> 00:28:26,480
\nYahweh.
\nAll you Saints and then verse <\/p>\n

583
\n00:28:26,480 –> 00:28:29,360
\n24.
\nBe strong and let your heart <\/p>\n

584
\n00:28:29,360 –> 00:28:31,880
\ntake courage all you who wait
\nfor Yahweh. <\/p>\n

585
\n00:28:33,240 –> 00:28:36,160
\nWhat you see from this, brothers
\nand sisters, is a few things. <\/p>\n

586
\n00:28:36,160 –> 00:28:39,560
\nOne, these steps are mixed
\nthroughout the Psalms. <\/p>\n

587
\n00:28:40,560 –> 00:28:43,560
\nThere are multiple, multiple
\nPsalms that follow this pattern <\/p>\n

588
\n00:28:44,040 –> 00:28:46,240
\nof someone’s dealing with a
\nserious trial. <\/p>\n

589
\n00:28:46,480 –> 00:28:48,520
\nI’ve picked out a few that are
\ndealing with a mixture of <\/p>\n

590
\n00:28:48,520 –> 00:28:50,040
\nanxiety and and actually
\ndepression. <\/p>\n

591
\n00:28:50,840 –> 00:28:52,520
\nI’ve picked out a few that are
\ndealing with those. <\/p>\n

592
\n00:28:52,760 –> 00:28:55,040
\nBut multiple trials are brought
\nup in the Psalms and they follow<\/p>\n

593
\n00:28:55,040 –> 00:28:58,040
\nthis pattern where the psalmist
\nwill express themselves and say <\/p>\n

594
\n00:28:58,040 –> 00:29:01,640
\nthis is what I’m feeling.
\nIt’s blunt, it’s honest, it’s <\/p>\n

595
\n00:29:01,720 –> 00:29:04,880
\nit’s really, really raw.
\nIt’s kind of a jarring in some <\/p>\n

596
\n00:29:04,880 –> 00:29:07,560
\ncases, like Are you sure you’re
\nallowed to say that And we’ll <\/p>\n

597
\n00:29:07,560 –> 00:29:09,920
\nsee that especially in the next
\nsong we get into, that’s the <\/p>\n

598
\n00:29:09,920 –> 00:29:12,480
\ncase.
\nBut then after that, they say, <\/p>\n

599
\n00:29:12,480 –> 00:29:15,600
\nOK, I’ve expressed where I’m at.
\nWhat does God think about the <\/p>\n

600
\n00:29:15,600 –> 00:29:17,000
\nsituation?
\nWho is God? <\/p>\n

601
\n00:29:17,160 –> 00:29:19,840
\nWhat kind of God do I serve?
\nWho is Yahweh? <\/p>\n

602
\n00:29:20,040 –> 00:29:22,320
\nThis is where we think about the
\nBible and the Word. <\/p>\n

603
\n00:29:22,520 –> 00:29:24,720
\nWe bring up all the principles
\nthat we know about God in the <\/p>\n

604
\n00:29:24,720 –> 00:29:27,000
\nscenario, and we think, what
\nwould God do? <\/p>\n

605
\n00:29:27,000 –> 00:29:30,000
\nWhat would Christ do?
\nHow do we bring that into this? <\/p>\n

606
\n00:29:30,200 –> 00:29:32,680
\nWhat does my relationship with
\nGod say about how he’s dealt <\/p>\n

607
\n00:29:32,680 –> 00:29:35,800
\nwith me in the past?
\nAnd then lastly, it’s the step <\/p>\n

608
\n00:29:35,920 –> 00:29:40,720
\nof I choose to act faithfully.
\nI choose to act as if I value <\/p>\n

609
\n00:29:40,720 –> 00:29:44,360
\nthe way God values, as if I
\ndon’t have this anxiety, even <\/p>\n

610
\n00:29:44,360 –> 00:29:47,120
\nthough I do.
\nI’m not saying the emotional <\/p>\n

611
\n00:29:47,120 –> 00:29:48,840
\nwill change when you do that.
\nIt won’t. <\/p>\n

612
\n00:29:48,840 –> 00:29:51,560
\nEspecially the first time.
\nThere’s not a situation where <\/p>\n

613
\n00:29:51,560 –> 00:29:54,560
\nyou’re like, well, I feel better
\nand you can just get on with <\/p>\n

614
\n00:29:54,560 –> 00:29:56,240
\nyour day.
\nThat’s not how it works. <\/p>\n

615
\n00:29:56,240 –> 00:29:59,480
\nBut the first time you do it,
\nyou’re not going to have an <\/p>\n

616
\n00:29:59,480 –> 00:30:03,000
\nemotional change at all.
\nThe 100th time you do it, you’ll<\/p>\n

617
\n00:30:03,000 –> 00:30:05,840
\nstart seeing a change because
\nthat’s the process of <\/p>\n

618
\n00:30:05,840 –> 00:30:09,120
\ntransforming the brain.
\nIt’s slow, it’s exhausting at <\/p>\n

619
\n00:30:09,120 –> 00:30:12,440
\ntimes, but it’s intentional.
\nThat’s something we have to do <\/p>\n

620
\n00:30:12,880 –> 00:30:15,960
\nday and in day out.
\nI think also a lot of the the <\/p>\n

621
\n00:30:15,960 –> 00:30:18,920
\ntime it’s useful to kind of
\nreflect on these situations. <\/p>\n

622
\n00:30:18,920 –> 00:30:20,480
\nYou know, it’s definitely
\nsomething you want to put in <\/p>\n

623
\n00:30:20,480 –> 00:30:21,960
\npractice when we’re in the
\nmoment of anxiety. <\/p>\n

624
\n00:30:21,960 –> 00:30:25,600
\nBut it’s a lot more practical to
\nput or put into practice a lot <\/p>\n

625
\n00:30:25,600 –> 00:30:29,640
\nof these ideas before and after
\nanxiety, when we’re in places of<\/p>\n

626
\n00:30:29,800 –> 00:30:32,240
\nnot heightened emotions we can
\nthink through. <\/p>\n

627
\n00:30:32,520 –> 00:30:35,600
\nOK, I seem to be entering states
\nin my life where I’m anxious <\/p>\n

628
\n00:30:35,600 –> 00:30:38,200
\nabout this.
\nI don’t want to be anxious about<\/p>\n

629
\n00:30:38,200 –> 00:30:39,080
\nthat.
\nI don’t actually think that’s <\/p>\n

630
\n00:30:39,080 –> 00:30:41,960
\nsomething I should prioritize in
\nmy life, but I seem to feel that<\/p>\n

631
\n00:30:41,960 –> 00:30:43,760
\nway in various different
\nmoments. <\/p>\n

632
\n00:30:44,120 –> 00:30:46,440
\nWhy?
\nWhat are the beliefs that I seem<\/p>\n

633
\n00:30:46,440 –> 00:30:48,680
\nto hold that put me in that
\nscenario? <\/p>\n

634
\n00:30:48,800 –> 00:30:50,720
\nWhat do I feel?
\nWhat’s getting me to the point <\/p>\n

635
\n00:30:50,720 –> 00:30:54,560
\nwhere I care about it that high?
\nAnd then to reflect and say, <\/p>\n

636
\n00:30:54,560 –> 00:30:56,720
\nwell, what does God think?
\nHow should I act in those <\/p>\n

637
\n00:30:56,720 –> 00:30:57,960
\nmoments?
\nGotcha. <\/p>\n

638
\n00:30:57,960 –> 00:31:00,600
\nThis is my plan moving forward.
\nAnd then try. <\/p>\n

639
\n00:31:00,680 –> 00:31:03,480
\nIt’ll be hard, but try to put
\nthat in practice when you’re <\/p>\n

640
\n00:31:03,480 –> 00:31:06,200
\nfeeling the anxiety.
\nNow, that’s hard. <\/p>\n

641
\n00:31:06,480 –> 00:31:08,480
\nNot saying it’s easy.
\nThat’s not my intention to say <\/p>\n

642
\n00:31:08,480 –> 00:31:11,560
\nit’s easy, but that is the way
\nthat we go about transforming <\/p>\n

643
\n00:31:11,560 –> 00:31:13,400
\nour brain.
\nIt is possible. <\/p>\n

644
\n00:31:13,480 –> 00:31:17,760
\nIt is where your agency is in
\nthis battle and this isn’t a one<\/p>\n

645
\n00:31:17,760 –> 00:31:19,400
\nor one time and we’re done
\nthing. <\/p>\n

646
\n00:31:19,400 –> 00:31:20,960
\nLike I said, this is something
\nthat we have to put into <\/p>\n

647
\n00:31:20,960 –> 00:31:23,920
\npractice over and over and over
\nagain. <\/p>\n

648
\n00:31:24,200 –> 00:31:27,280
\nIt’s really the life of a life
\nof someone in the truth. <\/p>\n

649
\n00:31:27,560 –> 00:31:30,360
\nIt’s like I’m going to try to
\nchange from this person of flesh<\/p>\n

650
\n00:31:30,360 –> 00:31:34,080
\nand human nature, which includes
\nanxiety, to somebody who is <\/p>\n

651
\n00:31:34,120 –> 00:31:37,760
\nperfect the goal, and we don’t
\nreach that until truly until the<\/p>\n

652
\n00:31:37,760 –> 00:31:39,920
\njudgement.
\nBut that’s really the goal and <\/p>\n

653
\n00:31:39,920 –> 00:31:43,000
\npart of that is to also lose
\ntemptations like anxiety, anger <\/p>\n

654
\n00:31:43,000 –> 00:31:45,280
\nand lust.
\nDoesn’t ever happen until truly <\/p>\n

655
\n00:31:45,280 –> 00:31:48,320
\nuntil the resurrection.
\nBut we try our best along the <\/p>\n

656
\n00:31:48,320 –> 00:31:52,480
\nway and again, this isn’t a once
\nin done thing. <\/p>\n

657
\n00:31:52,480 –> 00:31:55,480
\nLet’s hop over now to Psalm 43
\nand we’re going to see this also<\/p>\n

658
\n00:31:55,480 –> 00:31:59,880
\nhappen again in this next
\nsection in Psalm 43. <\/p>\n

659
\n00:32:00,240 –> 00:32:03,680
\nThere’s a really interesting
\nthing of how blunt David is. <\/p>\n

660
\n00:32:04,480 –> 00:32:06,000
\nSo we’ll just read through the
\nPsalm real quick and then we’ll <\/p>\n

661
\n00:32:06,000 –> 00:32:11,920
\ngo through it bit by bit.
\nPsalm 43 and I’ll start verse <\/p>\n

662
\n00:32:11,920 –> 00:32:15,440
\none and it’s free.
\nThrough our section, vindicate <\/p>\n

663
\n00:32:15,440 –> 00:32:19,960
\nme, O God, and defend my case,
\nmy cause against the ungodly <\/p>\n

664
\n00:32:19,960 –> 00:32:22,520
\npeople from the deceitful and
\nunjust man. <\/p>\n

665
\n00:32:22,520 –> 00:32:25,480
\nDeliver me, for you are the God
\nwhom I take refuge. <\/p>\n

666
\n00:32:25,840 –> 00:32:29,040
\nWhy have you rejected me?
\nWhy do I go by mourning? <\/p>\n

667
\n00:32:29,160 –> 00:32:30,680
\nBecause of the oppression of the
\nenemy. <\/p>\n

668
\n00:32:31,200 –> 00:32:33,880
\nSend out your light and your
\ntruth, and then lead me. <\/p>\n

669
\n00:32:34,280 –> 00:32:36,760
\nLet them bring me to your holy
\nhill and to your dwelling. <\/p>\n

670
\n00:32:37,840 –> 00:32:39,800
\nThen I will go to the altar of
\nGod. <\/p>\n

671
\n00:32:40,000 –> 00:32:43,840
\nTo to God, my exceedingly joy.
\nAnd I will praise you with the <\/p>\n

672
\n00:32:43,840 –> 00:32:46,760
\nlyre.
\nOh my God, my God, why are you <\/p>\n

673
\n00:32:46,760 –> 00:32:49,920
\ncast down, O my soul, Why are
\nyou in turmoil within me? <\/p>\n

674
\n00:32:50,160 –> 00:32:52,720
\nHope and God.
\nFor I shall praise him again. <\/p>\n

675
\n00:32:53,080 –> 00:32:55,400
\nSorry.
\nI shall again praise him my <\/p>\n

676
\n00:32:55,400 –> 00:33:00,760
\nsalvation and my God.
\nSo David’s really blunt here. <\/p>\n

677
\n00:33:01,160 –> 00:33:05,280
\nHe’s like really, really blunt
\nhere in verses one and two, it <\/p>\n

678
\n00:33:05,280 –> 00:33:10,040
\nsays dealing with kind of being
\nhonest with God cause against <\/p>\n

679
\n00:33:10,360 –> 00:33:13,320
\nI’m sorry, against the ungodly
\npeople from the deceitful and <\/p>\n

680
\n00:33:13,320 –> 00:33:16,400
\nunjust man, Deliver me, why have
\nyou rejected me? <\/p>\n

681
\n00:33:17,040 –> 00:33:19,800
\nWhy do I go about mourning
\nbecause of the oppression of the<\/p>\n

682
\n00:33:19,800 –> 00:33:22,600
\nenemy.
\nIt’s, it’s almost accusatory. <\/p>\n

683
\n00:33:22,800 –> 00:33:26,440
\nLike why is this happening?
\nLike, why have you rejected me? <\/p>\n

684
\n00:33:26,440 –> 00:33:28,800
\nGod, why is it why is my life
\nhappening like this? <\/p>\n

685
\n00:33:29,320 –> 00:33:32,480
\nIt’s pretty blunt.
\nI don’t know if you’ve been in a<\/p>\n

686
\n00:33:32,480 –> 00:33:35,520
\nsituation where you’ve been
\nproperly angry with God, but <\/p>\n

687
\n00:33:35,520 –> 00:33:38,240
\nthat’s the the, the vision I get
\nhere from David. <\/p>\n

688
\n00:33:38,520 –> 00:33:41,800
\nHe’s mad because life doesn’t
\nseem to match with what he knows<\/p>\n

689
\n00:33:41,800 –> 00:33:42,920
\nabout God.
\nHe’s always mad. <\/p>\n

690
\n00:33:42,920 –> 00:33:45,040
\nHe’s God.
\nWhy have you rejected me here? <\/p>\n

691
\n00:33:45,640 –> 00:33:48,360
\nWhy have you let, why do you let
\nlife carry on this way? <\/p>\n

692
\n00:33:50,200 –> 00:33:52,000
\nThat’s the feeling that I see
\nfrom David here. <\/p>\n

693
\n00:33:53,280 –> 00:33:55,840
\nAnd so the question is, what
\ndoes David do with it? <\/p>\n

694
\n00:33:55,840 –> 00:33:58,640
\nWell, he thinks through who God
\nis. <\/p>\n

695
\n00:33:58,640 –> 00:34:01,280
\nVerse 3.
\nSo not your light and your <\/p>\n

696
\n00:34:01,280 –> 00:34:02,920
\ntruth.
\nGod is a God. <\/p>\n

697
\n00:34:02,920 –> 00:34:05,840
\nGod is a God of light and truth.
\nLet it bring you to your holy <\/p>\n

698
\n00:34:05,840 –> 00:34:07,400
\nhill.
\nGod is a holy God. <\/p>\n

699
\n00:34:08,080 –> 00:34:12,280
\nOK, And so if these things are
\ntrue, how do I choose to act? <\/p>\n

700
\n00:34:12,280 –> 00:34:15,360
\nI feel rejected, but I know God
\nis the God of light and the God <\/p>\n

701
\n00:34:15,360 –> 00:34:18,120
\nof truth.
\nOK, so how will I choose to act?<\/p>\n

702
\n00:34:18,440 –> 00:34:22,040
\nVerse four and verse five, I
\nwill go to the altar of my God, <\/p>\n

703
\n00:34:22,239 –> 00:34:25,480
\nTo God my exceeding joy.
\nI will praise you with the liar.<\/p>\n

704
\n00:34:25,480 –> 00:34:28,120
\nAnd then verse 5.
\nHope and God fresh. <\/p>\n

705
\n00:34:28,120 –> 00:34:30,920
\nI’ll praise him my salvation and
\nmy God. <\/p>\n

706
\n00:34:32,440 –> 00:34:38,199
\nWe don’t go from how why have
\nyou rejected me to my God, my <\/p>\n

707
\n00:34:38,199 –> 00:34:41,400
\nexceeding joy just by thinking
\nabout it for 2 verses. <\/p>\n

708
\n00:34:41,400 –> 00:34:45,920
\nIt’s not how that works.
\nHe’s feeling rejected. <\/p>\n

709
\n00:34:46,080 –> 00:34:49,480
\nHe chooses to view God as his
\nexceeding joy. <\/p>\n

710
\n00:34:50,120 –> 00:34:52,760
\nHe chooses to view God as the
\nGod that he will praise. <\/p>\n

711
\n00:34:53,880 –> 00:34:56,199
\nThese aren’t emotions that that
\nhe’s expressing. <\/p>\n

712
\n00:34:56,199 –> 00:34:59,120
\nAnd when he’s talking about how
\nhe’s going to go, praise God, <\/p>\n

713
\n00:34:59,600 –> 00:35:01,640
\nthese are deliberate statements
\nthat he’s making. <\/p>\n

714
\n00:35:01,720 –> 00:35:05,000
\nI’m going to intentionally go
\nagainst my emotions and do the <\/p>\n

715
\n00:35:05,000 –> 00:35:09,000
\nthing that I know is right.
\nThat’s hard, but that’s the <\/p>\n

716
\n00:35:09,000 –> 00:35:11,080
\nprocess.
\nHow do we change our brain? <\/p>\n

717
\n00:35:11,080 –> 00:35:13,640
\nHow do we change these
\nelectrical occurrences patterns?<\/p>\n

718
\n00:35:13,920 –> 00:35:16,160
\nAnd really, how do we change our
\ninternalized beliefs? <\/p>\n

719
\n00:35:16,960 –> 00:35:19,240
\nWe choose to act as if we don’t
\nbelieve them because we know <\/p>\n

720
\n00:35:19,240 –> 00:35:22,600
\nthey aren’t true internally.
\nWe feel like they are, but we <\/p>\n

721
\n00:35:22,600 –> 00:35:24,920
\nknow they aren’t sometimes in
\nthese situations. <\/p>\n

722
\n00:35:28,080 –> 00:35:30,720
\nThe last one we want to read
\nthrough is Psalm 94, and the <\/p>\n

723
\n00:35:30,720 –> 00:35:33,080
\nmain one I want to focus here
\nwhen reading through this is the<\/p>\n

724
\n00:35:33,080 –> 00:35:35,600
\nrelationship that David reflects
\non with God. <\/p>\n

725
\n00:35:35,840 –> 00:35:39,400
\nHe really uses his history with
\nGod, his past with God in this <\/p>\n

726
\n00:35:39,400 –> 00:35:43,200
\nscenario to really understand
\nhow he’s supposed to act, types <\/p>\n

727
\n00:35:43,200 –> 00:35:46,760
\nto think and feel.
\nSo we’re to read through verses <\/p>\n

728
\n00:35:46,760 –> 00:35:53,640
\n14 to 23 of Psalm 94.
\nFor Yahweh will not forsake his <\/p>\n

729
\n00:35:53,640 –> 00:35:55,400
\npeople.
\nHe will not abandon his <\/p>\n

730
\n00:35:55,400 –> 00:35:57,720
\nheritage.
\nWho justice will return to the <\/p>\n

731
\n00:35:57,720 –> 00:36:00,520
\nrighteous and all the upright
\nand heart will follow it. <\/p>\n

732
\n00:36:01,280 –> 00:36:05,200
\nWho rises up against the wicked?
\nWho stands up for me against <\/p>\n

733
\n00:36:05,200 –> 00:36:07,920
\nevil doers?
\nIf Yahweh had not been my help, <\/p>\n

734
\n00:36:07,920 –> 00:36:11,240
\nmy soul would soon have lived in
\nthe land of silence When I <\/p>\n

735
\n00:36:11,240 –> 00:36:15,320
\nthought my foot slips.
\nYour steadfast love, O Yahweh, <\/p>\n

736
\n00:36:15,400 –> 00:36:18,320
\nheld me up.
\nWhen the cares of my heart, of <\/p>\n

737
\n00:36:18,320 –> 00:36:20,800
\nmany your consultations cheer my
\nsoul. <\/p>\n

738
\n00:36:21,480 –> 00:36:23,200
\nCan wicked rulers be allied with
\nyou? <\/p>\n

739
\n00:36:23,920 –> 00:36:27,480
\nThose who frame injustice by
\nstatute, they band together <\/p>\n

740
\n00:36:27,480 –> 00:36:29,400
\nagainst the life of the
\nrighteous and condemned the <\/p>\n

741
\n00:36:29,400 –> 00:36:32,320
\ninnocent to death.
\nBut Yahweh has become my <\/p>\n

742
\n00:36:32,320 –> 00:36:35,440
\nstronghold, and my God, the rock
\nof my refuge. <\/p>\n

743
\n00:36:36,520 –> 00:36:38,920
\nHe will bring back.
\nHe will bring back on them their<\/p>\n

744
\n00:36:38,920 –> 00:36:42,080
\niniquity and wipe them out for
\ntheir wickedness of Yahweh. <\/p>\n

745
\n00:36:42,080 –> 00:36:49,880
\nOur God will wipe them out.
\nVerses 1719 and 22 show how much<\/p>\n

746
\n00:36:49,880 –> 00:36:54,200
\nDavid is using his relationship
\nwith God as a strength, his past<\/p>\n

747
\n00:36:54,200 –> 00:36:58,360
\nwith God as a strength.
\nYahweh had not been my help in <\/p>\n

748
\n00:36:58,360 –> 00:37:02,200
\nthe past back then, my soul
\nwould have soon, soon have <\/p>\n

749
\n00:37:02,200 –> 00:37:05,360
\nslipped in the sorry.
\nMy soul would have soon lived in<\/p>\n

750
\n00:37:05,360 –> 00:37:08,000
\nthe land of silence.
\nHis thinking if God wasn’t with <\/p>\n

751
\n00:37:08,000 –> 00:37:10,840
\nme, I would have died.
\nBut God was with me. <\/p>\n

752
\n00:37:10,840 –> 00:37:15,040
\nSo I’m still here.
\nVerse 19, when the cares in my <\/p>\n

753
\n00:37:15,040 –> 00:37:17,880
\nheart are many.
\nYour consultations cheer my <\/p>\n

754
\n00:37:17,880 –> 00:37:20,600
\nsoul.
\nOK, so in the past when I’ve <\/p>\n

755
\n00:37:20,640 –> 00:37:24,840
\ndealt with trials and I have had
\nmany cares, your consultations <\/p>\n

756
\n00:37:24,840 –> 00:37:25,920
\nwere there.
\nThey cheered me. <\/p>\n

757
\n00:37:25,920 –> 00:37:28,640
\nSo again, he’s thinking about
\nhis past, how God’s worked <\/p>\n

758
\n00:37:28,720 –> 00:37:32,080
\nthrough him with or worked with
\nhim through trials and then <\/p>\n

759
\n00:37:32,080 –> 00:37:34,560
\nverse 22.
\nBut Yahweh has become my <\/p>\n

760
\n00:37:34,560 –> 00:37:37,440
\nstronghold, my God, the rock of
\nmy refuge. <\/p>\n

761
\n00:37:38,040 –> 00:37:40,240
\nGod has become.
\nHe didn’t start this way, but <\/p>\n

762
\n00:37:40,240 –> 00:37:42,840
\nit’s become the rock of my
\nrefuge. <\/p>\n

763
\n00:37:42,880 –> 00:37:45,680
\nMy relationship with God is one
\nfor He is my rock. <\/p>\n

764
\n00:37:46,160 –> 00:37:48,400
\nAnd so I’m going to act in this
\nmoment, David. <\/p>\n

765
\n00:37:48,680 –> 00:37:52,200
\nI’m going to act in this moment
\nas if God is my rock and I feel <\/p>\n

766
\n00:37:52,200 –> 00:37:55,400
\nlike he’s my rock, even though
\nin this moment I’m struggling <\/p>\n

767
\n00:37:55,400 –> 00:37:57,920
\nwith that and this moment I
\ndon’t feel safe. <\/p>\n

768
\n00:37:58,240 –> 00:38:00,280
\nI feel like the evil doers are
\nplotting against me. <\/p>\n

769
\n00:38:01,160 –> 00:38:03,280
\nThat’s the way that we deal with
\nanxiety. <\/p>\n

770
\n00:38:03,400 –> 00:38:05,880
\nIt’s a hard way.
\nIt’s not an easy process, and <\/p>\n

771
\n00:38:05,880 –> 00:38:08,000
\nit’s not a once and done, it’s a
\nthing that you have to repeat <\/p>\n

772
\n00:38:08,000 –> 00:38:11,160
\nover and over and over again.
\nWe will likely slip up, but we <\/p>\n

773
\n00:38:11,160 –> 00:38:12,840
\nhave to.
\nThis is the responsibility that <\/p>\n

774
\n00:38:12,840 –> 00:38:17,840
\nwe have to work on transforming
\nour mind is to try our best to <\/p>\n

775
\n00:38:17,840 –> 00:38:20,440
\nview our anxieties and say, what
\ndoes this say about my internal <\/p>\n

776
\n00:38:20,440 –> 00:38:22,760
\nbeliefs?
\nWhat does this say about what I <\/p>\n

777
\n00:38:22,760 –> 00:38:24,880
\nthink is important and how much
\nI value it? <\/p>\n

778
\n00:38:25,600 –> 00:38:28,760
\nShould I value it that much?
\nDoes God value it that much? <\/p>\n

779
\n00:38:29,160 –> 00:38:30,880
\nWhere is God’s view on these
\nthings? <\/p>\n

780
\n00:38:31,560 –> 00:38:35,600
\nAnd I’m going to choose to act
\nas if I value things the way God<\/p>\n

781
\n00:38:35,600 –> 00:38:39,440
\nvalues things, even if I don’t.
\nAnd the first time you do that, <\/p>\n

782
\n00:38:39,680 –> 00:38:41,560
\nyou’re not going to have a
\nmassive shift of emotions. <\/p>\n

783
\n00:38:41,560 –> 00:38:43,040
\nYou’re probably going to have
\nanxiety through the whole <\/p>\n

784
\n00:38:43,040 –> 00:38:45,480
\nprocess.
\nAnd I’m sorry, that’s not a fun <\/p>\n

785
\n00:38:45,920 –> 00:38:49,000
\nstatement, but that is the
\nreality of it here. <\/p>\n

786
\n00:38:49,000 –> 00:38:52,120
\nWe can’t just flip our emotions
\nlike that, but as you do it over<\/p>\n

787
\n00:38:52,120 –> 00:38:54,240
\nand over again, the emotions
\nchange. <\/p>\n

788
\n00:38:54,680 –> 00:38:58,040
\nYour brain quite literally
\nchanges and the patterns change <\/p>\n

789
\n00:38:58,120 –> 00:39:00,800
\non how we process anxiety and
\nhow we feel anxiety. <\/p>\n

790
\n00:39:02,240 –> 00:39:05,680
\nNow a few things that I want to
\ncover before we close on these <\/p>\n

791
\n00:39:05,680 –> 00:39:08,080
\nsections that we’ve read.
\nThere’s a few take away points <\/p>\n

792
\n00:39:08,080 –> 00:39:10,560
\nthat you can kind of see when
\nlooking at them all as a whole <\/p>\n

793
\n00:39:11,560 –> 00:39:15,640
\nwhile I’ve presented this
\nprocess as a nice logical step <\/p>\n

794
\n00:39:15,640 –> 00:39:17,920
\nby step.
\nYou know, here’s your four part <\/p>\n

795
\n00:39:17,920 –> 00:39:20,440
\nthing that you’ll do in order.
\nThat’s not how it works in <\/p>\n

796
\n00:39:20,440 –> 00:39:22,880
\npractice.
\nWhen you look at these songs, <\/p>\n

797
\n00:39:23,200 –> 00:39:27,600
\nthey’re all over the place.
\nDavid starts with step four and <\/p>\n

798
\n00:39:27,600 –> 00:39:30,240
\nthen goes to Step 2 and then
\nhops over step three and then <\/p>\n

799
\n00:39:30,240 –> 00:39:32,120
\ngoes back to Step 2.
\nAnd then he’s like, oh, I’m <\/p>\n

800
\n00:39:32,120 –> 00:39:34,120
\ngonna have a rant about where
\nI’m feeling right now. <\/p>\n

801
\n00:39:34,600 –> 00:39:36,600
\nAnd then he hops back to step
\nfour and he’s all over the place<\/p>\n

802
\n00:39:36,600 –> 00:39:38,640
\nbecause that’s how emotions and
\nanxiety work. <\/p>\n

803
\n00:39:39,320 –> 00:39:42,440
\nIt’s not nice logical thought
\nout, well processed. <\/p>\n

804
\n00:39:42,440 –> 00:39:44,360
\nIt’s.
\nI’m panicking. <\/p>\n

805
\n00:39:44,800 –> 00:39:47,120
\nAnd I have moments where I can
\nthink clearly and think about <\/p>\n

806
\n00:39:47,120 –> 00:39:49,240
\nwhat God thinks about.
\nBut then I’m back to panicking. <\/p>\n

807
\n00:39:49,240 –> 00:39:51,040
\nI talk to God about where I’m
\ncurrently at. <\/p>\n

808
\n00:39:51,480 –> 00:39:53,960
\nAnd then and then I’m going to
\nhave a moment of remembering how<\/p>\n

809
\n00:39:53,960 –> 00:39:56,840
\nthis happened before and God,
\nGod worked with me in this way. <\/p>\n

810
\n00:39:57,240 –> 00:40:00,120
\nBut then you’re back to being
\nhighly anxious and you’re <\/p>\n

811
\n00:40:00,120 –> 00:40:02,760
\nconstantly going back and forth.
\nIt’s not something that you can <\/p>\n

812
\n00:40:02,760 –> 00:40:04,520
\nsit down and go, all right,
\nwe’re going to follow the <\/p>\n

813
\n00:40:04,520 –> 00:40:05,360
\nprocess.
\nNow. <\/p>\n

814
\n00:40:05,560 –> 00:40:08,480
\nI’ve thought about this, and I
\ncan pause my emotions so I can <\/p>\n

815
\n00:40:08,680 –> 00:40:11,240
\ngo ahead and process this now.
\nIt’s going to be all over the <\/p>\n

816
\n00:40:11,240 –> 00:40:14,160
\nplace, and that’s OK.
\nIt was all over the place for <\/p>\n

817
\n00:40:14,160 –> 00:40:15,560
\nDavid.
\nWe’ll see you in our our <\/p>\n

818
\n00:40:15,560 –> 00:40:17,440
\nexpectation tomorrow.
\nIt’s all over the place for <\/p>\n

819
\n00:40:17,440 –> 00:40:19,800
\nChrist.
\nThe point isn’t to do in that <\/p>\n

820
\n00:40:19,800 –> 00:40:22,320
\nice, right clean order.
\nIt’s that we’re going through <\/p>\n

821
\n00:40:22,320 –> 00:40:27,000
\nthis process as a whole.
\nAnother one is that it’s not a <\/p>\n

822
\n00:40:27,000 –> 00:40:29,120
\none and done.
\nDavid does this over and over. <\/p>\n

823
\n00:40:29,400 –> 00:40:31,360
\nThere’s not like a point where
\nyou can say I finished <\/p>\n

824
\n00:40:31,360 –> 00:40:33,200
\ntransforming my mind, I am now
\nperfect. <\/p>\n

825
\n00:40:33,720 –> 00:40:36,160
\nThat doesn’t happen until the
\nresurrection is the battle that <\/p>\n

826
\n00:40:36,160 –> 00:40:38,000
\nwe will do for the rest of our
\nlife. <\/p>\n

827
\n00:40:38,080 –> 00:40:40,720
\nAnd it’ll be in various stages
\nfor different people. <\/p>\n

828
\n00:40:41,040 –> 00:40:43,600
\nSome people, this is a battle
\nthat they will see results very <\/p>\n

829
\n00:40:43,600 –> 00:40:45,640
\nquickly.
\nThey will see results after a <\/p>\n

830
\n00:40:45,640 –> 00:40:48,200
\nfew months, maybe a few weeks of
\nworking through this. <\/p>\n

831
\n00:40:48,800 –> 00:40:51,080
\nFor some other people, this is a
\nbattle that they might not see <\/p>\n

832
\n00:40:51,080 –> 00:40:53,200
\nclear, clean results for
\ndecades. <\/p>\n

833
\n00:40:53,680 –> 00:40:56,560
\nAnd that’s OK.
\nWe’ve experienced trials and <\/p>\n

834
\n00:40:56,560 –> 00:40:59,000
\ntemptations at different levels.
\nSome people deal with anger <\/p>\n

835
\n00:40:59,000 –> 00:41:00,600
\ndifferently.
\nSome people deal with lots of <\/p>\n

836
\n00:41:00,600 –> 00:41:02,400
\ndifferent stages and different
\nspeeds. <\/p>\n

837
\n00:41:02,920 –> 00:41:05,000
\nThat’s OK.
\nThe point isn’t how quick are <\/p>\n

838
\n00:41:05,000 –> 00:41:07,320
\nyou moving through the battle.
\nThe point is that you’re in the <\/p>\n

839
\n00:41:07,320 –> 00:41:09,840
\nbattle and you’re battling.
\nYou are battling the temptations<\/p>\n

840
\n00:41:09,840 –> 00:41:13,400
\nthat life gives you.
\nAnd #3. <\/p>\n

841
\n00:41:13,800 –> 00:41:16,680
\nThis will look different for
\neveryone in a kind of practical <\/p>\n

842
\n00:41:16,680 –> 00:41:18,720
\nway.
\nMy name of that is for me, the <\/p>\n

843
\n00:41:18,720 –> 00:41:21,840
\nway I worked through these steps
\nwas I had to go to therapy. <\/p>\n

844
\n00:41:22,080 –> 00:41:24,600
\nI had to talk to somebody and
\nthey basically had to confront <\/p>\n

845
\n00:41:24,600 –> 00:41:27,680
\nme on them and say, hey, you
\ndon’t actually believe that. <\/p>\n

846
\n00:41:27,920 –> 00:41:29,560
\nAnd then they go, oh, you’re
\nright. <\/p>\n

847
\n00:41:30,000 –> 00:41:31,920
\nLike, that’s how I had to go
\nthrough these steps. <\/p>\n

848
\n00:41:32,120 –> 00:41:35,600
\nI’d have somebody confront me.
\nI’m a highly conflict person. <\/p>\n

849
\n00:41:35,600 –> 00:41:38,280
\nIf you know me, I like conflict.
\nIt’s weird. <\/p>\n

850
\n00:41:38,360 –> 00:41:40,320
\nI don’t, it’s not normal, but I
\nlike it. <\/p>\n

851
\n00:41:40,320 –> 00:41:42,000
\nAnd that worked for me.
\nSomeone coming up with me and <\/p>\n

852
\n00:41:42,000 –> 00:41:44,160
\nsaying you don’t believe what
\nyou’re saying right now worked <\/p>\n

853
\n00:41:44,400 –> 00:41:46,520
\nfor somebody else.
\nDon’t make them shut down. <\/p>\n

854
\n00:41:47,160 –> 00:41:48,720
\nThat make them go, What are you
\ntalking about? <\/p>\n

855
\n00:41:48,720 –> 00:41:50,800
\nI’m trying to tell you my
\nfeelings and you’re getting mad <\/p>\n

856
\n00:41:50,800 –> 00:41:53,080
\nat me.
\nAnd so different people are <\/p>\n

857
\n00:41:53,080 –> 00:41:54,200
\ngoing to work through this
\ndifferently. <\/p>\n

858
\n00:41:54,200 –> 00:41:56,880
\nFor some people, it’s having a
\njournal and writing it down and <\/p>\n

859
\n00:41:56,880 –> 00:41:59,960
\nthen later kind of reflecting on
\nthat journal and going, did I <\/p>\n

860
\n00:41:59,960 –> 00:42:01,480
\nactually agree with the things
\nthat I wrote? <\/p>\n

861
\n00:42:01,920 –> 00:42:03,720
\nDo I believe the things that I
\nthat I wrote down? <\/p>\n

862
\n00:42:04,240 –> 00:42:06,160
\nFor some people, it’s having a
\nconversation with a friend where<\/p>\n

863
\n00:42:06,160 –> 00:42:08,880
\nthey’re very empathetic.
\nWhat Asking kind of prodding <\/p>\n

864
\n00:42:08,880 –> 00:42:11,800
\nquestions or asking questions
\nthat make you kind of evaluate <\/p>\n

865
\n00:42:11,800 –> 00:42:13,720
\nwhere you’re at.
\nFor some people, it has to be a <\/p>\n

866
\n00:42:13,720 –> 00:42:16,320
\npersonal self meditation.
\nThey have to go away to a place <\/p>\n

867
\n00:42:16,320 –> 00:42:19,000
\nof nature or quiet and really
\nthink through what’s going on in<\/p>\n

868
\n00:42:19,000 –> 00:42:20,920
\ntheir life.
\nIt’s going to be different for <\/p>\n

869
\n00:42:20,920 –> 00:42:23,480
\ndifferent people and the
\nchallenge is to be figuring out,<\/p>\n

870
\n00:42:23,640 –> 00:42:26,800
\nwell, what works for you.
\nHow do you best able to put <\/p>\n

871
\n00:42:26,800 –> 00:42:29,920
\nthese steps in a practical, A
\npractical process for you? <\/p>\n

872
\n00:42:30,720 –> 00:42:32,800
\nFor me, I need someone to come
\ntell me. <\/p>\n

873
\n00:42:32,800 –> 00:42:35,240
\nI don’t believe what I’m tailing
\nright now and it’s weird. <\/p>\n

874
\n00:42:35,320 –> 00:42:37,440
\nThis doesn’t work for most
\npeople, but it works for me. <\/p>\n

875
\n00:42:37,800 –> 00:42:40,480
\nSo I’m great friends with Jeff
\nbecause he’ll tell me you don’t <\/p>\n

876
\n00:42:40,480 –> 00:42:44,040
\nbelieve what you’re saying right
\nnow and it works great, but it’s<\/p>\n

877
\n00:42:44,040 –> 00:42:46,240
\nbecause I have a very unique way
\nof dealing with these kinds of <\/p>\n

878
\n00:42:46,240 –> 00:42:47,440
\nthings.
\nOther people it’s going to be <\/p>\n

879
\n00:42:47,440 –> 00:42:50,640
\ndifferent.
\nSo try different things, try <\/p>\n

880
\n00:42:50,640 –> 00:42:51,760
\ndifferent ways of going about
\nit. <\/p>\n

881
\n00:42:52,000 –> 00:42:54,360
\nMaybe try a journal for a while.
\nNever worked for me, but I <\/p>\n

882
\n00:42:54,360 –> 00:42:56,440
\ntried.
\nIt never was really useful for <\/p>\n

883
\n00:42:56,440 –> 00:42:59,640
\nme but might be useful for you.
\nI’ve definitely seen people <\/p>\n

884
\n00:42:59,640 –> 00:43:03,200
\nover.
\nIt’s been wonders for try going <\/p>\n

885
\n00:43:03,200 –> 00:43:06,520
\ninto nature, going on walks and
\njust thinking self meditating. <\/p>\n

886
\n00:43:07,440 –> 00:43:10,680
\nTry whatever it is that you
\nthink might work, but try <\/p>\n

887
\n00:43:10,680 –> 00:43:12,600
\nthings.
\nFigure how it works for you and <\/p>\n

888
\n00:43:12,600 –> 00:43:13,840
\nit helps you go through this
\nprocess. <\/p>\n

889
\n00:43:15,880 –> 00:43:18,160
\nAnd so we’re about to move to
\ndiscussion groups. <\/p>\n

890
\n00:43:18,440 –> 00:43:21,560
\nAnd when we do the discussion
\ngroups, I’ve asked a few <\/p>\n

891
\n00:43:21,640 –> 00:43:24,600
\ndifferent types of questions.
\nSome of the questions I’ve asked<\/p>\n

892
\n00:43:24,600 –> 00:43:27,720
\nare essentially, do you agree
\nwith the different statements <\/p>\n

893
\n00:43:27,720 –> 00:43:29,040
\nI’ve made?
\nSome of the statements I’ve <\/p>\n

894
\n00:43:29,040 –> 00:43:31,960
\nmade, understandably, can be a
\nbit jarring. <\/p>\n

895
\n00:43:32,360 –> 00:43:33,800
\nAnd so it’s do you agree with
\nthem? <\/p>\n

896
\n00:43:33,800 –> 00:43:36,240
\nAnd if you don’t, let’s have
\nthat conversation, Let’s talk <\/p>\n

897
\n00:43:36,240 –> 00:43:38,600
\nabout it.
\nMaybe I said it in a way that <\/p>\n

898
\n00:43:38,600 –> 00:43:40,680
\ndidn’t quite mesh well with you,
\nand other people in your group <\/p>\n

899
\n00:43:40,680 –> 00:43:42,920
\ncan help it mesh better.
\nThey can say it in different <\/p>\n

900
\n00:43:42,920 –> 00:43:45,480
\nways.
\nMaybe I’m just wrong and that <\/p>\n

901
\n00:43:45,480 –> 00:43:47,880
\nyou’ve got some thoughts that
\nare really useful and can can <\/p>\n

902
\n00:43:47,880 –> 00:43:50,960
\nhelp help people with doing the
\nthings I eat in a different way.<\/p>\n

903
\n00:43:51,280 –> 00:43:53,240
\nThat’s fine too.
\nI promise you I won’t get <\/p>\n

904
\n00:43:53,240 –> 00:43:55,400
\noffended if I kind of walk up to
\nyour group and I hear, man, I <\/p>\n

905
\n00:43:55,400 –> 00:43:56,840
\ndidn’t really like that point
\nthat he made. <\/p>\n

906
\n00:43:57,480 –> 00:43:59,760
\nThat’s super interesting to me.
\nI want to know why I want to. <\/p>\n

907
\n00:43:59,760 –> 00:44:02,440
\nI want to get into that.
\nSo let’s be honest about that <\/p>\n

908
\n00:44:02,440 –> 00:44:04,280
\nand have some real conversations
\naround that one. <\/p>\n

909
\n00:44:05,200 –> 00:44:08,160
\nI’ve also had some personal
\nquestions, things like what are <\/p>\n

910
\n00:44:08,160 –> 00:44:10,840
\nyour views on medication and
\nanxiety? <\/p>\n

911
\n00:44:11,120 –> 00:44:13,360
\nThings like what are your views
\non dealing with your own <\/p>\n

912
\n00:44:13,360 –> 00:44:15,040
\npersonal anxieties?
\nHow do you go about that? <\/p>\n

913
\n00:44:15,680 –> 00:44:21,320
\nAnd kind of a note on that,
\nwhile I highly encourage that we<\/p>\n

914
\n00:44:21,320 –> 00:44:24,000
\nwe do open up, I know it’s hard
\nsometimes like we do open up and<\/p>\n

915
\n00:44:24,000 –> 00:44:26,120
\nbe vulnerable.
\nI really want to make sure that <\/p>\n

916
\n00:44:26,120 –> 00:44:28,800
\nwe don’t go back to our home
\necclesias and go, man, that <\/p>\n

917
\n00:44:28,800 –> 00:44:31,040
\nperson struggles with the Super
\nsilly thing. <\/p>\n

918
\n00:44:31,960 –> 00:44:33,880
\nI don’t think we would do that,
\nbut I just want to put a warning<\/p>\n

919
\n00:44:33,880 –> 00:44:36,000
\nin there.
\nWhat happens to the 25 plus what<\/p>\n

920
\n00:44:36,000 –> 00:44:37,600
\ntalked, let’s talked about in
\nour discussion groups. <\/p>\n

921
\n00:44:37,760 –> 00:44:40,280
\nLet’s send discussion groups.
\nIf you build relationships with <\/p>\n

922
\n00:44:40,280 –> 00:44:42,080
\nsomebody and you want to talk to
\nthem, that’s one thing. <\/p>\n

923
\n00:44:42,360 –> 00:44:45,400
\nBut let’s not go back to our
\nhome activations and be like <\/p>\n

924
\n00:44:45,400 –> 00:44:47,080
\nman, this discussion group
\nhappened and we talked about <\/p>\n

925
\n00:44:47,080 –> 00:44:49,480
\nthese things and these people
\nhave these crazy problems. <\/p>\n

926
\n00:44:49,960 –> 00:44:52,440
\nThat’s not a useful thing to do.
\nSo I just want to make sure put <\/p>\n

927
\n00:44:52,440 –> 00:44:54,320
\na little, put a little note
\nthere, let’s not do that. <\/p>\n

928
\n00:44:54,880 –> 00:44:57,720
\nAnd lastly, a little note.
\nWe’re going to be talking about <\/p>\n

929
\n00:44:57,720 –> 00:44:59,360
\na lot of experiences, personal
\nexperiences. <\/p>\n

930
\n00:44:59,360 –> 00:45:01,920
\nThat’s is a big part of the
\nseries and that’s good. <\/p>\n

931
\n00:45:02,000 –> 00:45:04,440
\nThat’s kind of what I want the
\ngoal of the series to do is to <\/p>\n

932
\n00:45:04,440 –> 00:45:06,880
\ntake this, all this theory that
\nwe’re talking about and put into<\/p>\n

933
\n00:45:06,880 –> 00:45:09,680
\nyour life.
\nIn practice, however, the danger<\/p>\n

934
\n00:45:09,680 –> 00:45:11,920
\nwith a discussion group or we’re
\ntalking about a lot of personal <\/p>\n

935
\n00:45:11,920 –> 00:45:15,280
\nexperiences, is that we do a lot
\nof well, I think this because of<\/p>\n

936
\n00:45:15,280 –> 00:45:18,880
\nthis one time this happened this
\nway, or I think this because it <\/p>\n

937
\n00:45:18,880 –> 00:45:21,360
\nmade me feel this way instead
\nof, well, I think this because <\/p>\n

938
\n00:45:21,360 –> 00:45:24,200
\nof this principle in the Bible.
\nAnd I want to make sure that <\/p>\n

939
\n00:45:24,200 –> 00:45:26,280
\nwhen we’re dealing with our
\nconclusions about things, we’re <\/p>\n

940
\n00:45:26,280 –> 00:45:28,760
\ndealing with what we think is
\ntrue, that we are using the <\/p>\n

941
\n00:45:28,760 –> 00:45:31,360
\nBible as the ultimate source,
\nnot just our personal <\/p>\n

942
\n00:45:31,360 –> 00:45:33,160
\nexperiences.
\nThey’re great, they’re a useful <\/p>\n

943
\n00:45:33,160 –> 00:45:34,520
\ntool.
\nAnd then sharing them, we can <\/p>\n

944
\n00:45:34,520 –> 00:45:36,480
\ndraw closer to one another.
\nWe can get help from one <\/p>\n

945
\n00:45:36,480 –> 00:45:39,120
\nanother, fantastic.
\nBut when it comes to the things <\/p>\n

946
\n00:45:39,120 –> 00:45:42,000
\nof dealing with truth, when
\nwe’re dealing with what is our <\/p>\n

947
\n00:45:42,000 –> 00:45:45,080
\nviews on certain certain things?
\nLet’s make sure we’re using <\/p>\n

948
\n00:45:45,080 –> 00:45:48,520
\nscripture and principles to
\nanswer those questions, not <\/p>\n

949
\n00:45:48,520 –> 00:45:50,840
\nusing well.
\nThis made me feel this way that <\/p>\n

950
\n00:45:50,840 –> 00:45:55,440
\none time, and I really look
\nforward to having this <\/p>\n

951
\n00:45:55,440 –> 00:45:58,160
\ndiscussion groups.
\nI really look forward to talking<\/p>\n

952
\n00:45:58,160 –> 00:46:02,400
\nto people about how they’ve
\nfound the talks useful, how they<\/p>\n

953
\n00:46:02,400 –> 00:46:05,800
\nfind different aspects useful,
\nwhat can they do with this, this<\/p>\n

954
\n00:46:05,800 –> 00:46:08,440
\ninformation in their life.
\nBecause one I want to, I want to<\/p>\n

955
\n00:46:08,480 –> 00:46:09,880
\nhelp more people.
\nI want to talk about this with <\/p>\n

956
\n00:46:09,880 –> 00:46:11,680
\nmore people.
\nI love these conversations. <\/p>\n

957
\n00:46:12,080 –> 00:46:15,240
\nAgain, weird, but I love them.
\nI find them fun, I find them <\/p>\n

958
\n00:46:15,240 –> 00:46:16,720
\nenjoyable.
\nAnd so I want to be able to do <\/p>\n

959
\n00:46:16,720 –> 00:46:18,640
\nthat with more people.
\nAnd if there’s ways that I can <\/p>\n

960
\n00:46:18,640 –> 00:46:21,240
\nfind more use out of that or
\nbeing more helpful with people, <\/p>\n

961
\n00:46:21,480 –> 00:46:22,520
\nbut I’m really looking forward
\nto that. <\/p>\n

962
\n00:46:22,520 –> 00:46:25,120
\nSo thank you for listening to me
\nso far. <\/p>\n

963
\n00:46:25,120 –> 00:46:27,240
\nAnd yeah, I hope that this has
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Matt Tuckson – Faith & Anxiety – Class 2 – Processing Anxiety<\/a><\/blockquote>